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PretendI reminisce the days we had together. Just the two of us and our crazy laughter. I liked you, but it didn't seem to click. I wanted to tell you numerous times but I never had the courage to just bring it up. I waited a little too long to actually muster up my courage and tell you because on that day, I saw you with someone else.
"Meet my girlfriend, Lulu." SeHun introduced this beautiful girl that I can never look like. She was utterly amazing, but that didn't phase me enough from the deep pain I felt in my chest. I was so nervous this morning, but I don't even have to tell him now that he has a girlfriend.
"Are you okay?" SeHun asked and I nodded my head that hung glumly. That's right. Play pretend. I'll just be okay. Keep it all inside. What if I told him yesterday? He would have accepted me right? He should. I'm his best friend.
"Good for you Hun." I said and gave a small smile. Lulu linked arms with SeHun and gave a little kiss. They walked ahead to lunch and I stood there by my locker until SeHun turned around.
"You coming?" I nodded and walked behind them as if my heart wasn't falling apart with each step. We stood in line to get our lunches and sat down at the table SeHun and I usually sat at. I would've sat on his left, but Lulu was already there. I was just a third wheel in this relationship that I could've been in if I only told him on time.
She fed him a few bites and he kissed her on the cheeks so many times. I was falling apart. They were so lovey-dovey that I can't bear to watch another moment.
"You really okay? Are you sick? You look tired." SeHun asked concerned. I gave a weak smile and nodded.
"I'm fine. Excuse me." I took my guitar with me and slung it around my shoulder as I walked out the cafeteria and up the stairs and through the halls and turned left twice to a secluded hall. I started to strum. I finally found the tune I wanted. I strummed continually and began free styling using my whole heart and putting it into this song.
I see you with your new girlBut I can't help but thinkYou and I could've been somethingand- it's killing meto say- I'm glad you found loveto say- I hope she's the oneLemme keep it all inside, Keep lyingTelling you I'm fine,But inside I'm falling apartI wish I never met youBut I'm so glad I didAnd the girl by your side nowShe's lucky to be hisI'll sit here and pretendI'm okay, I'm okayAnd when you're walking with herthere's no "pain... "I'll try moving onBut these feelings are too strongCos when you're on my mindYou're by her sideWhile I'm watching from the sideI keep wishing you were mineHoping that you'll wake up soonThat this girl isn't right for youBut maybe you're not meant for meIf you and her work so perfectlyohhhhhhI'll sit here and pretendI'm okay, I'm okayAnd when you're walking with herthere's no "pain... "I'll try moving onBut these feelings are too strongCos when you're on my mindYou're by her side
I had tears streaming down my cheeks as I sang this song that just came spewing out my mouth. My fingers strumming without another thought. I was lost in the music. The only thing I can have.
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