In order to fulfil my hyung’s last wish, I have to disguise as him to make you happy.
I love my hyung so that I can’t reject him no matter what’s going to happen in the future.

As time goes by, I completely in love with you, I become selfish.
I can’t keep my promise with my hyung anymore and I betray it just for you.

I hate it whenever you call his name,
I hate it whenever you always smile sincerely for him,
I hate it when every time you say you love him,
And I hate it when every single days you thought that I am as him.

I know this is not your fault but I’m jealous.

I want you to call my name,
I want you to look at me my true self,
I want you to love me only me,
And I want you to know that I want you to become mine only mine.

I feel so tired to lie to you,
I feel so tired to hear you cry whenever I act differently,
I feel so tired to be my hyung,
And I feel so tired that only one side is feeling happy, but why not me too?

Luhan,
I want to be myself so that I can make you happy with the way I am.
I love you,
Please forgive me,
Give me one more chance so that I can express my love to you.
 

I want to be myself...