Your POV

When I was a kid I watch my first love chase after another girl for a month giving her letters and his undivided attention.

What about me I was his best friend and yet he never noticed me.

I sigh as I finish hitting another shop trying to find plain enough clothing.

I stop as I exit a store and scream, “Why does everything have to be stylish?”

I freeze when i hear a familiar laugh.

I look up to see my old friend Jae Jin.

I nod to him and he smiles when he sees me, “Rhei Eun Ae.”

Oh no he said my name.

I shake my head as I say in almost perfect English, “I’m sorry you must have the wrong person.”

He looks at me confused as I run off.

I sigh when I finally reach a store that has a beautiful dress that reminds me of the Greek Goddess, Aphrodite.

“May I try this on?” I ask the lady.

“Of course my dear.”

“I’m surprised that you’d want such a dress.”

“It’s the simplest that I’d found that will go well for the concert tonight.”

The woman gasps as she looks at me in the dress, “I’m afraid I’ll have to hem it a little bit. It’s a tad bit too big on you in some places and too small in others. You have a perfect figure to draw men in.”

I smile kindly at her even though I want to roll my eyes, “I’m not interested in anyone at the moment.”

“Really? You seemed too when they asked you that in the interview on the news the other day.”

“There was someone that I used to love. When I was younger and stupider. It was love at first sight too I and I didn't exist beyond a friend. He had taken my hand and I felt love right away like a shock.”

I chuckle inside realizing that those almost were lyrics from one of Jaejin’s band, Ft Island's, songs.

“Are you alright, miss?”

I nod my head as I smile at the elderly woman as she takes my measurements and puts pins into the dress. I also notice her make modifications to the dress, but they are simple and more elegant something that I need.

“It’s pushing my chest up a bit too much?”

“That’s how it’s supposed to be.”

I hold in a sigh as the woman finishes and tells me that I can change into my regular clothing.

I smile at her as I bow slightly and leave.

 

I notice Jaejin and when I try to pass him I brush up against him and feel that spark that I did all those years ago.

“Eun Ae,” he says as he grabs my wrist gently, “can we please talk?”

I look at him and sigh in defeat, “Alright. I’ll talk with you.”

He smiles in joy as he looks around, “how about we have coffee at a restaurant I know.”

“Sure,” he takes my arm in his carefully much like we would be dating and I’m battling off the feeling of him touching me.

When we finally reach a cafe that’s almost empty with idols and such sitting around I’m surprised but I shrug it off as I take off my jacket and look at him in the face.

“Talk,” when i say this trying to be cold I have to hold back a blush.

“Eun Ae… I wanted to talk to you about that letter you left in my locker before you went to London. I mean it was… I’m not even sure what to say.”

“How about ‘it’s nice to see you’ or even better ‘I’m sorry I was a jerk the last time I saw you?’”

He winces at my words, “I heard you're playing a piano version of 1 of our songs.”

I nod my head as I hold in tears, “I am. It’s for a friend of mine who passed. She said it was her and her boyfriend’s song. He had died a little bit before she did.”

I bite one of my lips not wanting to cry in public like this.

Jaejin looks down at the table as he says, “I’m sorry to hear that.”

I nod my head, “Thank you. Truthfully this concert is my way of connecting them again for they can have a small wedding in heaven.”

He smiles as he lets go of a small short laugh, “That’s a very sweet and still so you thing to do.”

I nod my head as we become civil and simply talk about the good old days.

I smile as we talk and I pull out a small envelope and hand it to him.

“Here have some tickets to the show. I already gave them too my family and such… I’d like it if you came.”

He smiles as he wraps his arms around me in a tight hug, “I missed you, Eun Ae.”

I pull away from him, “This doesn’t change anything Jaejin. It doesn’t change how you trampled all over my heart, over our friendship. Too regain my trust you have to try harder.”

Jaejin looks me in the eye and smiles, “Do you still love me?”

I shake my head, “No, I hate you but you were a close friend who I cared deeply for. I don’t want a friendship like ours too go away too disappear.”

He nods his head as we stand in front of each other, “See you later, Jaejin.”

“Noona,” he says calling after me in a sad desperate voice that causes me to stop.

I turn towards him and try hard to fight back tears, “Don’t call me noona. I’m not your noona. I was your friend. Now I’m just Eun Ae-shi.”

I hope he doesn’t notice how much I’m shaking I’ve never acted like this in public, but seeing him makes me angry.

As I walk away Jaejin says, “You never let me answer your letter.”

I turn back again and say, “Too bad it’s been 6 years… well almost 6 years next month... huh Jaejin. Did you ever regret breaking my heart like that?”

I almost run from the cafe not caring who sees me as I run to my apartment a place where I can cry.

 

As I open my apartment door I feel the tears start to fall I quickly opened the door and shut it.

As I slide down it I have to wipe the tears away from my eyes as I sniffle.

I sigh when there’s a knock at my door I open it too see the ‘manager’ they gave me when I came back to Korea.

“Sweetie you look horrible,” she says to me trying to sound worried.

“Thanks for telling me something that I already know.”

“I have great news. I had heard from your mother that Lee Jaejin from FT Island was a close friend of yours so we thought that we’d have him perform at the concert with you.”

“What?” I ask completely shocked that this has happened.

“Lee Jae Jin is to perform with you at your concert we just got the okay from his label and manager.”

I smile falsely at her, “That sounds wonderful what am I to perform with him?”

“We haven’t decided yet. We'll hopefully have in by next week.”

“The concert is next week.”

“I know sweetie so can you help us…”

“The last song I’m performing for my friends that died. The one that is FT Islands song I’ll perform that with him.”

“I thought you wanted to do that on your own?”

“I did, but I think Jiwoo would like it if he performed the song with me. He was her bias of the band.”

My manager smiles, “Great. I’ll just called their manager and see what I can do.”

“Alright… Just contact me when you have a practice set up… I’m going to the studio to practice if you get a hold of them send him there.”

 

I reach the studio shortly and change into a simple white dress that covers my chest and back. I then slip on a black scarf to add more flavor to the outfit as I sit down.

I start to play a pretty famous piece by Chopin when I stop when I hear the door open to the studio.

I turn the door to see Jaejin standing there, “Wow that was faster than I though.”

“You’re studio is close to where I'm staying.”

I start to play a familiar tune too Avril Lavigne’s Under My Skin.

Jaejin looks at me not completely surprised by the song I’m playing or how well I do.

He smiles as he sits down next to me with his guitar, “You’re as amazing as ever.”

I nod my head towards him and ignore the fact that I had started because my mother wanted me to fulfill her dreams through me, but unlike most children I started too love the piano and singing.

I guess my mother was lucky with that.

 

It’s been over a week of practicing with Jaejin and the other accompaniments that we plan to have.

I sigh as I walk into my dressing too see that my mother had picked up my dress.

I smile as I run my hand over it.

I slowly slip into the dress as my mother comes in with my hairdresser and makeup artist.

I smile at them and right away my makeup artist says, “Do you really need me?”

The hairdresser nods her head, “I know I almost don’t want to touch her hair it’s so pretty.”

“Well the theme of this concert is love. It was done short notice so the pictures on the poster. I want this to be perfect. Even though i hate having my makeup and hair done it’ll be perfect for this especially I’m doing this for my friends who died without being able to have their wedding. So too me this is a wedding for them. I even got a white dress without even trying too.”

They smile and I joke with them as they start to do my hair and makeup.

My mother walks out of the room probably too go Godzilla on the poor helpers of this concert. I’ll have to apologize to them like I have every concert.

I smile as they start doing my hair and a simple natural look for my makeup.

I sit there and deal with the painstaking hour that it takes them too do my hair.

I sigh when she’s done and asks, “Are you ready to see you knew look?”

“Of course,” I answer her a bit nervous since I don’t even know what my makeup looks like.

As she spins me around I see beautiful hair and makeup that looks like it really looks like it could be Aphrodite’s hair except mine is a nice sleek natural black.

“Do I really look nice?” I ask them.

“Of course,” they tell me together.

The hairdresser looks at me and smiles, “I’m not sure why you’re not dating anyone.”

I look up at them and smile, “I’m not sure either.”

It’s the truth I guess… I mean I’ve tried to date some guys, but they always dump me claiming that I’m really dating them but an image of someone else, which is a complete lie… I think.

Someone knocks on the door and one of the stage helps sticks his head in, “5 minutes before we start.”

“Thank you,” I tell him and he happily nods to me as he walks off.

I stand up and slip my cute pair of white flats on much too my mother’s displeasure.

“Let’s get going,” I tell them and everyone nods their heads.

We meet up with everyone who’s going to perform with me today and i notice that it’s more than I thought it would be.

When i see Jaejin he waves to me and I notice what could be a friendship bracelet that looks very familiar.

As we all check that everyone is still here we walk off too our designated spots.

This is when Jaejin walks up to me, “Can I talk to you?”

“Sure,” I answer him careful of how I sound, “What do you need?”

“Umm… I was wondering… If we can talk more in private.”

“Eun Ae, we need you to get ready to walk on stage.”

“We can talk about this later, Jaejin.”

I walk up on stage to the microphone and introduce myself and do my opening speech for the concert.

As the concert goes on everything goes perfect up to the end where Jaejin walks on stage and sits next to me with his guitar in hand.

I mess with the microphone on the top of the piano turning it on, “Now for the last song of the night. This song was my best friend, Kim Jiwoo, favorite song and the one she wanted to perform at her wedding as their first song. This is FT Island’s Always with You that I’ll be performing with Lee Jaejin of Ft Island.”

As start playing my modified version of the song’s music I start singing to the song and Jaejin plays his guitar.

As the song ends I feel tears fall down my eyes and when we hit the last not I’m pulled into a hug.

I clear my throat and sit up straight trying to tell my heart to stop beating so fast.

Jaejin smile as he situates his microphone since I told him to say something at the end of the song.

“When I was asked to do this song with Eun Ae I was worried how she’d react towards this, because when we were younger I made the mistake of hurting her emotionally. It wasn’t until she was gone that I realized just what I did. I thought what could be better than performing with her. The first 3 days she wouldn’t even talk to me unless it was about the song then we started to warm up to each other again. This was again that I realized that I’m still in love with my childhood friend, Rhei Eun Ae.” I look at him purely shocked but he keeps talking, “I wanted to talk to her before to ask if she’d give me a second chance and I know it’s horrible to ask this on a day like today, but I know your friend would want you to be happy. So I wanted to ask you again, do you still love me? Cause I know with every glance and every touch I share with you I fall deeper in love with you. I see love and I feel it deep in my heart.”

I know I’m crying even more than before and he wipes my tears while looking me in the eyes and I know he’s won.

“I lied when I said I didn’t feel anything for you. I thought I was over you, but when I saw you again I felt the love for you still and when you took my hand in yours t try and stop me from walking away I felt the love deep in my heart. I’m sorry. Jiwoo always told me that I’d realize who I was in love with that my past love will come to realize his love for me. I thought she was joking, but I guess she didn’t. Jiwoo, had gotten me again.”

Jaejin nods his head as he takes my face in his hands, “Jiwoo, knew it was me and how I felt for you. She had contacted me a few days before she died about you coming home. I just never thought that you’d lose someone so close to you.”

I nod my head and I realize where we are and his head, “Jerk you did this on purpose.”

“Nope, because I think it’s a tad bit embarrassing myself.”

I chuckle as we stand up and I take my microphone from the small stand it was on, “Sorry you had to hear that folks… Thank you so much for coming today to the show. I hope the music was to your standards.”

Jaejin nod his head as the rest of the musicians walk on the stage to stand with us, “From us to you, we love you for coming today.”

Slowly all the musicians say something and they all had a word to say about what just happened and it all made me hide my face in my hands until it was my turn again.

“I’d hate to close the curtains now, but this is the end of our show. I’m so happy that the turnout was like it did. I’m so happy to share this music with all of you and I can’t wait for m next show her in Seoul.”

As the crowd claps and the curtain closes Jaejin grabs my hand and says, “So how much do you love me?”

“Enough to say the words I love you.”

He pouts as he says, “Would that be enough to date me?”

I shrug my shoulders as I go to walk away, “I’m not sure. Let’s head to the after show cause I’m sure that we’ll be asked about the new development in our relationship status.”

He leans over and kisses me then leans his forehead against my own, “I don’t’ personally care about that. Do you?”

I shake my head, “No, it’s just so embarrassing that you did that in front of so many people and at my concert dedicated to my friend Jiwoo. You so will have to apologize to her family for me and to the magazines. If anything post it on your twitter for being an inconsiderate jerk and pulling a move like that on night like tonight.”

“I will see,” Jaejin types up a status on his twitter and the end makes me smile slight in joy.

I nod my head, “Go ahead You can post it.”

As we walk away I pull up my twitter page so I click on Jaejin’s to follow him so I can read his lovely post again.

It reads, “I’m sorry for what I did today at Rhei Eun Ae’s concert tonight. It’s just I waited all these years to tell her how I feel about her.”

I smile and I see him take a picture of me then he takes a picture of our hands as he holds mine in his.

“Can I get a picture of the 2 of us together?”

I nod my head and he snaps a picture of us close together.

Then he smiles as he pulls his phone back to the front of his face as he messes with his phone for a while. Then I see he had a new picture post.

I pull it up to see that it’s a collage they are of the 3 pictures that he just took plus 1 of himself and the caption of the post read, “Just one glance, I see love, Just with one hand gesture, I feel the feelings of love. As a song once said.”

I chuckle as I comment, “Then as a person once said, ‘with a love like this one can only learn and grow from its mistakes and wins.’ I love you , Lee Jaejin.”

I repost the picture post as I lean my head on his shoulder and snap a picture and post it saying, “I wish to Always be with you, the man I love.”

He kisses me on the lips, “We’ll always be together.”

I smile brightly as we walk towards our future and I hope that it turns out beautiful like it is now.

I want to hold him closely and from the looks of is so does he.