they said , never apologize for the things that made you feel happy , or feeling real , feeling alive but i really didn't know what to say when i saw my dreams crash down , when i felt no longer your warm embrace , when i couldn't see the sparkling lights from your doe-like eyes .

i thought maybe you are feeling sorry for me 

or maybe

i need to feel sorry about myself 

for i can no longer bring you back 

for i can no longer feels alive , or happy , or real.