I tried to take my life, three times.

The first time, Woohyun-hyung turned up at the door and broke it down. He rushed into my room and pulled me down from the balcony, the same balcony we viewed the stars from, and he screamed into my ear. On how I'm letting you down, and how I'm such a bastard.

The second time, Sunggyu-hyung called just when I was about to swallow the pills. He told me to accompany him to visit you and Sungjong, and I said okay. I hanged up the phone, and cried for the whole night.

And the last time, I was sitting on the window sill of my bedroom. I looked up to the sky, and I seem to see your face in the night skies. Your smile, the same dazzling smile I've seen so many years ago, it was just like yesterday. And I knew, at that moment, I have to cherish your last gift to me. Even if you're not with me, I have to bring your eyes with me around the world.

I have to live on for you.