Wounded.

I tuned out the sound of knocking on the front door as I continued to stare blankly into space. The knocking became so incessant that my roommate burst out of her room early that morning. She wasn't usually an early bird and thus, one would understand why she wasn't such happy camper that morning.   "GODDAMN, WILL YOU PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR!! IT'S THIS EASY." she swung the front door open revealing my boyfriend panting at my doorstep. She groaned in annoyance and stalked back towards her room, slamming the door shut. My eyes zeroed in on the familiar figure standing in the doorway.   "Hey, you didn't answer my messages or pick up my calls the past few days, I thought something bad happened to you, Aeri! What's going on?" Jongin asked as he took a step towards the couch, where I was seated on.    My cold glare pierced through his soul as he flinched under the intensity of my gaze. I stood up abruptly and took exactly three strides to reach him before I slapped him square across his jaw.    "What's going on you ask?" I clenched my fists and grit my teeth in anger. "Maybe what's going on is that I found a certain bastard kissing a girl I don't even know, in the middle of the park. Oh and the best part is, that bastard happened to be my boyfriend."    Jongin raised a hand to his cheek and touched the tender area.    "Aeri..."   "You son of a ! I trusted you! I gave you my commitment! And all you gave me was a stab through my heart. Bloody ." I fumed as I felt the surge of heat rush through my veins, bursting with suppressed anger and embarrassment. Jongin's eyes widened at my choice of words, for it was his first time hearing me cuss at him. He sighed and nodded.   "She confessed and gave me surprise kiss. I didn't kiss her back. But since you're so bent up on the assumption that I was cheating on you, go ahead and think that way, because this just shows how much trust and faith you've put into me." he chuckled bitterly as he ran a hand through his hair. "Absolutely none."   Tears of anger welled up in my eyes as I bit my lower lip to control myself.   "Jongin, my eyesight is perfect. Admit that you kissed her."   "So that's how it is now? From Kai back to Jongin? Just like how you called me when we used to be strangers?" He asked as his eyebrows creased in frustration.   "Glad you got the hint." I muttered under my breath as I averted my eyes away from his. His eyebrows relaxed in realisation and my hands unclenched themselves the moment he said it.    "Fine, I'll let you break up with me because i haven't lost faith in your judgements. If you think that I'm cheating on you and breaking up is the way to punish me, then fine. I promise you that I'll be going through an eternity of suffering so that you can feel at ease." he stepped closer to me and placed his cold palms against my cheeks.    "Because I love you and I want you to be happy...even if I'm not there next to you." his arms dropped to his sides as he backed away towards the front door.   "I'm sorry I hurt you, because of this misunderstanding even though I promised not to. If this makes you happy, then I'll gladly leave. I'm...sorry, Aeri...." he took one last look at me before disappearing down the hallways.    The anger I felt just a few minutes ago, all the hurt I was going through, he mended them all with just a few words. When I suddenly realised that his side of the story might have been credible, it was too late. We were officially over. My Kai has returned to his original endearment of Kim Jongin. And I wasn't very sure if I liked that idea now.    My rash actions had caused heavy consequences again. I lost my boyfriend of three years in less than 15 minutes. Was that supposed to be a good or bad thing...?   And the tears streamed down my face in realisation.    [][][]    TWO WEEKS LATER   I had cried all week long, feeling sorry for myself. This week, I knew that i needed something to distract myself. Studying.    I clutched onto my books tightly as I weaved through the groups of nocturnal party-goers. A drunk student accidentally bumped into me, causing me to drop one of my books. As I bent down to pick it up, I heard shouting outside the club.    "This is all your fault! If you hadn't kissed me, my precious girlfriend wouldn't have misunderstood! Things would've been okay."   "But Kai–"   "Don't call me that!" he slurred as he staggered towards the nearby wall for support.   "I'M WAY BETTER THAN HER!!"   "You don't kiss a person who hasn't replied to your confession yet!! that's called unfair play. And you, are the worst player I've ever met."   "BUT YOU LIKED THAT KISS–"   "When I pushed you away, was that showing you that I liked you back? OBVIOUSLY IT WASNT. I love Aeri, and there's nobody in this world who can ever replace her in my heart. Especially not you, now get away from me."   "Look at you! You're drunk, Kai! I can't just leave you here!"   "Then call Aeri for me, I miss her voice so much. I want to hug her so badly."   I've always known that Kai was the truthful type of drunkard. He was the cutest when he was drunk. That was the only way I could get him to tell me what I wanted to know from him honestly. But seeing Kai this drunk, barely able to stand, made me worry about him. He knew his weakness was drinking, yet he still did it. Okay so my next move wasn't really thought over, but I took my chances.   "Jongin, get