"Taeyeon sshi"The nurse call her

"yes"

"This is LeeTeuk staff..his bag,clothes and his book"

"Thank you nurse"Taeyeon leave the hospital.

It was one week  Leeteuk leave her but Taeyeon still can't accept it.Everyday she hope it just a dream not the reallity.Taeyeon always come to LeeTeuk grave and pray sometimes she talk to Leeteuk .She just imagine Leeteuk stiil there.

At LeeTeuk home,

Taeyeon take a step to enter and she can't hold her tear and crying.She look Leeteuk furniture still clean.She know Leeteuk are really clean . He don't like messy.He always tidy up maybe because of this Taeyeon attracted to him.Taeyeon enter to Leeteuk room and she put Leeteuk staff. She don't need to clean up because Leeteuk house so clean.Taeyeon sit LeeTeuk bed and touch it calmly.She gonna miss Leeteuk.Taeyeon stll look around in Leeteuk house and see a lot they picture .Taeyeon look one by one and she smile because she miss it.

After that Taeyeon take a book that give by nurse just now.It was LeeTeuk diary...Taeyeon open up slowly and read

(this diary has alot throw back so read carefully^^)

Now in LeeTeuk diary

1 January 2011..

Dear dIary..it's a new year now.So I celebrated this new year party with my friend in cafe..so happy.and you know what I just saw..it was a angel .she so preety and she smile at me..You know when she smile at me .I be glued..How can angel in this world ..but i am to scare to ask her name..hmmm

5 January 2011..

OMG!!!...I saw her again..she take same class with me..why i never noticed it..we are in same college..maybe she is my mate.haha.i hope..and today also my lucky day because I know what her name is KIM TAEYEON... preety name right?? look who the owner that name ..

Taeyeon smile and she continue reading

10 January 2011..

Dear Diary...I think I love her...when I saw her ..my heart can't stop beating..she always make me nervous with her beautiful smile.it she want to attracted me??

"YAA!!! i'm not attracted you..."Taeyeon say because she disagree and continue reading

should I tell my heart to her.if i tell the true it she gonna leave me....Aahhhh!!! what should I do...everytime I saw her ..i really want tell her that i really really love her..hmmm mybe I should wait..

8 March 2011

Tommorow..it TAEYEON birthday ...and I make big decision ..I wil tell the true that I love her..what gonna happen just let that happen at least i not keep it anymore.it's hurt..What I will do..today Taeyeon invite me to her party..i will come and also I will sing to her..after I sing I will expressed my feeling to her.Maybe I will sing "I'M YOURS" and I hope she will like it..not just like that song but like me too.Pray for me dear diary^^

10 March 2011..

Sorry Dear Diary,I 'm not wrote diary yesterday because yesterday I 'm busy ..hehe^^ I know you guys want to know what happen last night..it she accept my love or not..haha..of course she accept it..she cry when I'm sing to her and expressed my feeling..and you know yesterday also my first kiss with her..shhh!!

"What..he also wrote his kiss with me..haisshh Teuk oppa so naughty.I hope not one read his diary..."Taeyeon embrassed and continue her readng

I promise to her that I will never leave her no matter what happen.If I die ,I'm still with her ..in her heart ..i promise ...

(I skipp )

1 January 2012..

It's new year....but I'm not celebrated alone..I'm celebrated with my Taeyeon or her nick name TAENGOO..hehe.so cute nick name ..and she also call my nick name TEUKIII...Haaha..we so childlish if we together mybe it's because we have same interest.

5 February 2012

I'm pain...why I'm always pain..I don't have appetite..if i eat i will vomit and today i make stupid thing..I have lunch with Taeyeon and after that I vomit in that cafe..I'm so shamed but I'm worried if Taeyeon shame with me...I'm so stupid..I ruined everything...

7 March 2012

I'm pain and it's really pain..last night I can't sleep because I vomit all the time and I'm tired because not enough to sleep...and I'm forget today I have date with Taeyeon but I'm late wake up..we should meet at 10am but I wake up it almost 12pm...I hope Taeyeon not angry..

8 March 2012

Tommorow  Taenggoo birthday^^ still thinking what I should give to her...maybe a ring~

9 March 2012

Fuhhh..so happy today..nothing happen even sometimes I want vomit but I'm stiil can control it and Taeyeon happy with my gift.you know just like last year when I' expresed my feeling she crying..today she also crying like baby boo..so cute...

28 March 2012

my stomach really pain..i don't know what to do.I'm alone at home.Taeyeon call me just know but i can't pick up..i hope someone will come here and helpppp meee......(just imagine LeeTeuk really pain)

1 April 2012

I go to hospital to check my sickness...Doctor just take my DNA..and I hope it just normal pain ^^

5 April 2012...

Doctor say I have cancer???? and i in stage 4 the critical stage..how it can be??? I think I'm okay..and I thought I have normal pain..doctor lied me right?? how can I through this?? and how about Taeyeon... should I tell her??

15 April 2012

I  meet doctor today..and  you know what Doctor say to me...I need operation and my chance to life is only 30%..what should I do.?? I hope Taeyeon with me right now and hug me because I'm scared..

20 April 2012

I take walk with my Taengoo^^..and suddenly she enter wedding boutique..she say she like one of dress in that boutique.She hope she will wearing one day with me...I'm happy when she say like that but...how long can I'm alive??? but I need strong i want Taeyeon dream come true..

1 May 2012

Doctor say my chance to life only 20%..i'm shock ..i don't know what to react...my mind only thing Taeyeon..how i will tell her...if I'm married her..I wiil die or I need treatment my whole life..I don't want burden her...

5 May 2012

Tommorow I have to do this ...only this can make me not burden Taeyeon.....it's broke up

6 May 2012

I make it...i'm broke up with Taeyeon....with my heavy heart i leave her.i need to say that i'm not love her anymore ..only this can make her hate me...after i say like that she cry and begging to not leave her..Taeyeon..i'm so sorry...if i'm still with you i'm still will leave you..i don't know how long i can survive??

8 May 2012

Now I'm in hospital...my friend bring me here..he say I'm faint at home ..after i meet Taeyeon...Taeyeon.....what he doing now?? it she still crying..or she doesn't care anymore..I hope she will forget me...I know she strong girl..because she my Taengoo^^

10 May 2012

I'm still in hospital..doctor don't want let me go...haha doctor really love me..I'm alone now ..my friend work..hmm..I wish Taeyeon with me right now..if she here maybe she will chating with me...i don't know if i with her i'm always happy only her smile make my day...she really an angel she really miracle for me..only her smile make me spirit....erghh..I can't write anymore.ergghhh..i'm pain...bye

28 June 2012

I'm sleep to long right?? my friend say I'm coma 18 days..haha..so tired my body not easy to move right now...maybe i'm to long sleep also eat medicine too much...but i'm don't care anymore because Taeyeon with me right now....she sleep.. shhh!!! maybe she tired waiting me...my friend told me when I was coma ..she crying alot...mianhae Taengoo^^..ouhh Taeyeon is wake up..

29 June 2012

Taeyeon feeding me.and clean up me..haha she just like wife for me..so caring...she say want celebrated my party..haha I'm forget my birthday is near 1JULY  ...i can't remember..because my mind only eat medicine and take a rest..I say to her we should make biggest party for me maybe it my last year to celebrated..and you know Taeyeon angry...she don't like what i'm say..she want me alive.hmm i hope...

1 JUly 2012

Saegil chukkae for me!!!haha...i'm feel gulity to Taeyeon because celebrated in hospital..most of our guest was doctor and nurse.haha...at least i'm happy ..Taeyeon too.she smile brightly on my birthday...for me her smile was a precious gift...Taeyeon give me a beautiful pen..that pen has our name on it.."TAETEUK FOREVER"..haha..she told me that I like write diary..so she want me write diary with this pen..ok Taengoo i promise.^________^

3 oct 2012

I think i not long live because everyday i'm pain and sometimes can't breath..but i hope i can alive until the new year i want celebrated it with Taeyeon..please...God give me chance to live just few month...

FYI leeteuk still in hospital...

31 Dicember 2012

now almost 12AM...new year ...2013..Taeyeon with me right now...she busy preparing party in my room...haha,,,look at her ..she so cute..she preaparing a lot but only us celebrated it.hmm maybe this last year I will celebrated with her...and I hope she will remeber this day....

Taeyeon close book..and cry because in that day Leeteuk last day after they clebrated together Leeteuk suddenly faint and die.Doctor can't help her anymore.Taeyeon still flick that book and found a letter that wrote by leeteuk

(Leeteuk letter)

Dear my baby boo,Taengoo hehe I'm like to call you Taengoo.I made a promise I'm wrote this letter with your pen that you give to me as a gift.I write this letter because I want to tell you something that I never tell you.You know i'm shy man.I m shy to tell you that I really love you only God will understand how my love to you.Maybe you read thisI'm not here anymore and I'm warning you don't cry because no one will persuade u than me.haha...Taeyeon the grls that I really love when I'm in hospital I'm lonely and I hope you there with me.I'm so sorry if I hurt you feeling before to be honest I really not mean it.If I'm not here I hope you accep it that I'm gone.please don' cry anymore i know you are strong girl that i know.You are angel that God bring it to me.If you sad and no one with you close your heart and imagine I beside you.Remember I always beside you.If I gone I don't want want you lonely find a new partner.I know there has alot man are better than me.If don't have I will tell a God to bring it out so you not lonely.Don't forget me because I never forget you until my last breath .I will wait you in heaven

FROM:LEETEUK

THAT MAN REALLY LOVE YOU UNTIL MY LAST BREATH

KEEP SMILE MY BABY BOO^______^

2 july 2012

After read Leeteuk letter Taeyeon never stop crying

"I miss your smile"

"imiss your voice"

"i miss you when you say you love me"

Taeyeon close her eyes and imagine LeeTeuk will hug her.