Prologue

He doesn’t understand how can love form and destroy lives. He had lost the chance to feel how wonderful love is and it was tainted with the feelings of being betrayed right before his eyes. He discarded it when that person become selfish enough to leave him behind, when that person leave him sprawled on the floor catching his breath due to too much crying, when that person killed his dreams, his life and his hope for love.

He wanted to forget but when he remembers that innocent, childish smile his heart cracked. It resounded through his consciousness, his brain. But as usual he will be alright, as long as he dont come back. For him, he was dead, along with his memories.

The more you love the person, all the more reason you have to hate him when he betrays that love.

He had hoped that they won't see each other in that lifetime.

“Hyukjae? Is that you?”

And just like that, when Lee Hyukjae stared on that widened beautiful, innocent eyes he had not seen for 8 years, standing as tall as him when he remembered the other was smaller, dark brown locks swaying through the wind as the cracks in his heart started to trace open the pain one by one.

“Hyuk?”

The voice scared him. If possible he didn’t even want to hear it anymore. He hated it, despise it, and curse it. Maybe it was immature to hold grudges after 8 years but he was young back then, and the only love he knew turn on him and threw him to a dump of misery, self-pity, and hopelessness.

As if the seal he made through the cracks all over his heart begun to retrace its way, opening up wounds that were forced to close.

He closed his eyes to the image of the boy who made him give up everything in a blink of an eye but it was a bad choice, he remembered the image of begging, the image of pathetic attempts, the images of turning backs and betrayal.

“Hyukjae…”

“Shut Up.” Hyukjae’s harsh reply, gathering his courage to look at the brunette who made him regret ever loving someone.

Brows were as thick as he remembered, eyes that hid the childishness and sweetness, lips that glistened under the light, face that describe manliness at the same time it revealed his vulnerability.

“Don’t come near me.”

“Hyukjae… it’s been 8 years at least…” the man pursed his lips in hesitation.

“Why did you come back?!” was the words of pure loathing Hyukjae bellowed without a care to the bystanders that is starting to recognize him as a famous actor.

The man who’s clutching his bags lowered his gaze, obviously hurt by the words  he had just received.

Hyukjae’s anger came pouring and he stride heavily towards the flinching man, grabbing his arm harshly and hoisting it up painfully.

“Listen to me.” The actor whispered through gritted teeth. “I don’t care what the s are you doing here or what the hell is your drama, but I warn you… leave me the alone! I don’t even want to see your shadow what more your face. Do your purpose here and return to the hell where you came from.”

At those words he angrily shoved the man’s hand and let it go, making the cringing man remained frozen.

With a huff of his breath Hyukjae gave him a disgusted look before he walked hurriedly away.

“Donghae Oppa. What’s wrong?”  a young woman tapped the man’s shoulder  but it was no use because the brunette were delved deep into heaps of tears.

**TBC**

A/N: If you noticed, it was the continuation of Hyukjae meeting someone at the airport on the first part of 'When The Film Reeled.' Welcome everyone to the Book 2 of 'Holding On' Series.^^