Obsession

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ANNYEONG ANNYEONG ANNYEONG~

 

this is based on jonghyun oppa's song in their new album lucifer kekeke~~~

 

i was orginially gnna dedicate it to my eonni, newjongki but when i read the lyrics i was like,

 

"nope. NO. WAY."

 

coz the lyrics r like...sad and tlks bout breaking up and i dont want tht to happen to my eonni and her hubby kekeke~~~

 

so anyways...

 

i wont b officially starting this fic till i finish my onew fic called your name.

 

kekeke

 

once again its a song fic based on onew oppas lyrics keke~~~

 

anyways...

 

if u wanna read tht in the mean time then feel free keke

 

but i gotta say...it mite not b good ><

 

anyways...i hope u will subscribe anyways..kekeke~~~

 

 

***

 

Love is something that is unpredictable,

 

It can cause great happiness and care,

 

But it can stab with hatred and disdain at ones heart.

 

 

It can show someone's true identity in the eyes of another,

 

It can betray the eyes of their peers,

 

It can remain in someone's heart forever and yet not be there at the same time.

 

 

Hate is a spark that can flair in a moment of indecision

In that very moment, everything is forgotten.

 

Love, pain, care, disgust.

 

Everything.

 

 

A tear that causes pain and despair,

 

A tear with sadness filled to the brim,

 

A tear with the past inside it the is coming out, longed to be forgotten.

 

 

*

 

 

Why must things always turn out this way?

 

I ask myself again and again.

 

 

My love for you is suffocating,

 

My love for you is overwhelming.

 

My love for you is unbearable.

 

 

You make me smile so wide.

 

You make me laugh so loudly.

 

You make me love you so very much.

 

 

But..

 

 

You make me cry so hard,

 

You make me hate you like I've never hated someone before,

 

You make me want to kill you.

 

 

I love you.

 

I love you for your kindness.

 

I love you for your caring.

 

I love you...for loving me.

 

 

I hate you.

 

I hate you for your idiocy,

 

I hate you for your honesty,

 

I hate you...for leaving me.

 

 

Obsession...

 

Maybe I'm obsessed with you.

 

Maybe I'm just wanting to be loved.

 

Maybe I want you to be mine forever.

 

Obsession.

Foreword

My hands tremble more]


I’ll lose my focus shortly
 

Why my broken legs standing here


I can’t even remember, I become scared
 

Where are you, who has laughing until just now

 

 

(Why) Have fun noises left me? You’re far away
 

(Why) Is it getting dim? These scars are like shackles

 

 

*Curse me, curse me for letting go
 

Don’t leave me, my collapsed heart
 

Don’t leave me alone, I’m screaming
 

Want you, I want you like crazy
 

Your lips that left me shouldn’t love
 

Don’t love me, I threw you away

 

 

All I wanted was simply to give you an endless love
 

I had no idea that more excessive love would strangle you
 

Those days when I was torn from my wounded heart


A love that lost its way, I fill up with tears

 

 

(Why) Is it that I still only bring out sad hellos
 

(Why) Just until today, don’t push me away

 

 

*Repeat

 

 

I hope that you’ll catch on
 

That I’m a different you
 

I even embrace your
 

Nightmare from last night
 

Don’t let go of my hand

 

 

*Repeat

 

 

Your side, your side that has become cold
 

Don’t leave me, my torn heart
 

Don’t become even further away
 

Although I’m holding your hand
 

Remember, end it, I can’t forget you
 

I won’t forget my pain of being thrown away
 

I can’t forget it, you gave it to me

 

 

Even the reason I love became a sin


The deep wounds slowly
 

Burnt up and turned to ash
 

But to forget will be more painful than to lose it
 

As I kill my breath, I’m going to die
 

From the agony of goodbye
 

Bring it back to that moment

 

 

Don’t throw me away

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squishy-lamp
#1
this story is just....
i wasn't actually expecting to cry HARD...
ShawolMBLFT #2
OMYGAWD!
No fair! This story made me flood, like seriously.
My best friend barges into my room and sees me crying. I told her to read it. The next thing I know both of us were bawling out like crazy.
Anyway, this was an amazing story, not to cliche and all.
Keep up the good work (v ^ ___^)
seoulchae
#3
this is so saaad TT^TT<br />
i can't believe i cry reading Jin's letter to onew ><<br />
great job bgt :)
angelcity #4
T__________________________________T<br />
this story made me cry
IHeartSHINee0525 #5
i think this may be a reality .. because all reality has a sad ending... i mean not all..
Rosesbydozen
#6
@marsh same my tissue box ran out too!!!! <br />
im so sad now!!!! :(<br />
this is such a good story!!!!<br />
WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE AN AWESOME STORY?!?!?!?!?!?!
marshielisa12 #7
my tissue box just ran out of tissues
ldyxdavil
#8
omg... that is sad.<br />
T__T yeah, i finally had time to read the story over my hectic skool life.<br />
but wow.. it's sad.
Nurarara #9
OMG!!!! :(((((( WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!! *sobs*<br />