STUPID! STUPID! STUPID!

I hate him, I hate him, I hate him!

He's such a jerk! I can't believe it, why did he do this to me? after TWO WEEKS? Two friggin' weeks? Fourteen effing days?! He's such a cheater! 

Tears streamed down my pale face as I stared down at my Iphone, my red eyes glared at the newly changed relationship status in my EX-BOYFRIEND's facebook profile (Yes, like every other exs', I was stalking his profile eversince our break up...) 

Lee Donghae's Profile Info

Incase you guys were wondering, I'm Jessica Jung. A not so gorgeous 24 year old woman whose currently wailing awfully in the middle of the central park because of her douchebag ex-boyfriend. (My mascara was a mess because of my tears. I looked like a crazy woman who had escaped from the mental hospital) I managed to caught the attention of a lot of bystanders which is really embarassing but I can't help it, the pain in my chest is to much to be kept inside. I needed to let this out

Well... You see, My boyfriend dumped me two weeks ago and I barely moved on. His reason was that our love for each other somehow lost it's "spark". Pfft... I didn't believe a word he said, I knew very well that his reason was he got bored of me and he wanted someone else to play with. (poor Yoong)

That's why after that day of our break up, I proclaimed myself as an official man-hater. 

They're all the same; es, erts, Selfish, Users and every possible negative adjective you can think of. I can't believe myself! Why did I let myself fall inlove with such disgusting type of human being?

And here I thought he was the one...

I cried louder, I was throwing tantrums like a child who was not given her favorite toy as a christmas present... and in public. I swear that my awful wails was even echoing through out the whole park.

God, this is so embarassing

Even so, I continued crying. I violently rubbed my cardigan's sleeve on my red face. Eventhough it was snowing, my face felt warm because my tears (and probably my anger). My memories of him comes back every time, I thought it was all real...that he really meant those things that he did to me. Those sweet gestures, those romantic dinner dates, oh and those wonderful kisses we shared. It's quite depresing 

Before I knew it, a lot of people were already watching me cry. Their quiet murmurs were barely audible but I know what they were saying. I'm sure they think of me as an attention who was ruining everyone's peaceful christmas eve stroll just to get attention. Who cares what everybody thinks? Being heart broken and everyone knew that. They might as well deal with it 

I hid my face behind my forearms as I cried with a muffled voice. I then heard heavy foot steps against the the snow that covered the gray concrete floor of the park, I slightly peaked between my forearms only to see a neatly folded PINK handkerchief which was offered by a manly hand.  I almost laughed, A pink handkerchief? seriously? What a !. Pardon my french but I'm too emotional right now to watch my tongue, Being heartbroken is like having PMS afterall...

Well for me atleast...

I refused to take it and continued crying. I could feel that he took a seat right next to me, I scooted to the other end of the bench to keep distance

"So It's you huh?" His deep voice said. "I though I heard a wailing dolphin somewhere" 

...did he just called me a wailing dolphin?

Actually...I can't blame him. I do sound like a dolphin when I cry... but what the heck is his problem? I raised my head from my forearm as I stared at him. 

"Yah. Can you just leave me alone, mind your own business arrasso?" I said while hiccuping in between words.

"I can't. Not while you're crying" He grinned at me. I won't lie, he's really hot. I think I was even caught off guard for a second there. Wait, WHAT THE HECK JESSICA JUNG? Don't you think of even falling for this guy! Eventhough he's hot, he's still a guy (Man-hater Logic)

"Get lost, you creep" I mumbled under my breath but I made sure that he heard it. I went back to my original posistion and cried again, for some weird reasons crying made me feel better yet sore at the same time. Well atleast it made me feel better. 

"I won't" I could hear a smile in his voice as he scooted next to me. What the heck is this guys problem? Is he flirting with me or something? Oh god, please don't tell me he is. Cuz if he is... 

"Y-yah! Go away, I hate you!" I shouted at him and pushed him to the other side of the bench

"You hate me? What did I ever do to you?" He asked with most adorable confused look--EW What?

I didn't answer. I felt my cheeks redden as I glared at him, alot of people were already watching. Heck, there was even a guy whose taking a video of me. Oh my god, I don't want to end up on youtube and be viral as the girl-who-threw-tantrums-at-centralpark-during-christmas-eve. Ughh... I knew going out was a bad idea. I should've stayed home and snuggled on Tibbers, a teddy bear given to me by... 

"Uwa~" I cried louder. I hate memories! I friggin hate them TT^TT

"H-hey Miss, stop crying" The creep started to panic as he scooted next to me again, he wiped my tears away. I didn't protested anymore, my brain was too busy trying to forget everything about Lee DongHae(My Ex-boyfriend). I couldn't stop crying, I loved him. I loved him very much

I was still crying loudly when a police man approached us, he used an ear piercing whistle that snapped me from my emotional breakdown as my spectators made way for him. This only means that I'm already making a scene, Oh god he's going to arrest me! What should I do?! Aish...

"Is everything alright?" The police said with a stern yet calm voice. I got intimidated and tried to quiet down my sobs, Uwaahh! I don't want to spend my christmas in prison.

I took a glance at the creep who was also looking at me with eyes that said what-should-we-do?. He then cleared his throat

"O-officer! I'm terribly sorry for the trouble . It's just that..." He paused and gave me a long glance, I just raised a brow. His arm then made it's way around my shoulders "M-my g-girlfriend here is mad at me for being late on our date. She has been waiting for thirty minutes and I just arrived a couple of minutes ago. Now she won't talk to me, We're really sorry for the trouble" He bowed at the officer and to the people around us, I did the same (What else could I do?)

"Is this correct, Miss?"

I nodded after a sniff

"Well then, I suggest you two young lovers to deal with this problem of yours in somewhere private. A lot of people are burdened" The officer said as he scratched the nape of his neck

"We will. We're very sorry" He tugged on my arm as we stood up. Since there were still alot of people watching us after the officer left, I played along his act and followed him until those people were already out of sight. It turns out that he led me to this part of the park called "Milky way". It is a place designated for the sky lantern festival which is annually held during chirstmas eve. Since the forecast predicted heavy snowfall that day, they postponed the event and was to be continued the next day

"Wh-Why are we here?" I asked while rubbing my face with my other sleeved arm (My other hand was held by the man)

"I dunno. Make you stop crying I guess?" 

"But I can't" Tears started to stream down my face again. We found a bench and sat there in silence, the festival was postponed so we got the whole desserted area to ourselves. It was slightly dark there because that area was for the festival, there were only a few streetlights there since skylanterns are best viewed in the dark

I sobbed silently as the man gently patted my shoulder. Why must forgetting someone be this hard?

"Why can't I just forget him..." I accidentally said outloud

"I knew it..." The man smiled showing off his white teeth and healthy gums. "A girl who's alone on christmas eve, crying her heart out? Heh, I should've known"

Silence followed. I sobbed some more, the memories kept coming back. In everything I see, there was always something about it that reminds me of him...of us. My eyes, it's started to sting. I whimpered because of the pain of it, not because of my heart. It's been hurting too much to endure the pain, it already went numb. 

"You know? A quote once said,'Forgetting someone you love is like remembering someone you never knew'" My head snapped to his direction, I stared at him as I tried to process what he just said. It kinda makes sense, but I think it wouldn't help much in my current situation. Though, I can really relate to it.

"Yeah, you're right..." I forced a smile. It was really clever of him to think of such quote, I almost believed that men are not so dumb afterall... but then again, He IS a guy 

"You think so? To be completely honest, I never really proved that quote, nor relate to it. I never wanted to forget someone. That quote was actually from this Facebook fanpage that randomly appeared in my news feed. I can't even understand the logic behind it" He said with a stupid grin

I just stared at him. I take it back, they're dumb.

"You just killed the moment" I had the strong urge to roll my eyes but decided against it since it stinged. He laughed at me as he started to swing his feet back and forth as it's soles brushed ontop of the white snow on the ground. 

"What I'm trying to say is, why would you want to forget someone? I mean, even if he did something unpleasant towards you doesn't mean that you should permenantly delete him in your memory bank"

"You're wrong. It DOES mean that you should permenantly delete them in your memory bank"

"Well actually you can't. You can't permanently delete something from your memory bank. You can't completely forget about something specially if it was once precious to you"

"Then what do you suggest I do? Huh? Smartypant? Live with this pain forever without doing somethi--" He didn't understand. He would never understand. He is a guy, he can never feel the pain of losing a lover because he never loves truly.

"Try not to remember him"

"Isn't it the same as forgetting him?"

"Actually it's not the same. Forgetting him is like forcing yourself to delete him in your memory bank. Which means you would focus on forgetting him causing you to keep on remembering him, which wouldn't work at all. Trying not to remember him is a fun and an effective way to move on. Do you get what I mean?"

"Then how do you 'try not to remember him?'" It was only then that I realized that I've already stop crying

"Well... You should try to replace those unforgettable memories you shared with him with a new memory that would be equally unforgettable but with a different person." 

"I want to try... But I don't have anyone right now" I sniffed as I pulled my red scarf up to cover the lower half of my pale face. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to try...

He then smiled at me

"Can I volunteer?" He said while beaming at me. God! He's so cute-- OMG JESSICA JUNG say NO! N.O NO!!

(this is what is going on in my brain)

Man-hater Jung: Jessica! Don't you dare say Yes! Don't break the Man-hater oath, they are disgusting creatures! 

Hopeless Romantic Jung: Say Yes please! Maybe he could help you in moving on! And maybe you two could date!

M.H. Jung: Tch... Don't listen to her Jess. That disgusting, dumb creature would not do any good to you. Let's just go home and snuggle with Tibbers

H.R. Jung: And remember Lee Dong Hae again? No! Try not to remember him... Be with this guy! He seems...*blushes* Nice

M.H. Jung: You don't even know his name! Can you trust him?! He's a guy Jessica, think about it

H.R. Jung: He's nice! I can feel it in my bones...

Me: But you don't have any bones, you guys are just a figment of my imaginations. You guys are my conscience

H.R. Jung: ...

M.R. Jung: Man-hater, 1. Hopeless Romantic, 0

H.R. Jung: Gah! Whatever do what you want to do! Don't blame me if you lead a miserable life. hmp

M.R. Jung: Haha see ya Loser

Me: I'm going crazy -_-

(Aaaaandd back to me)

"Uh... so, what do you say?" Before I knew it, he was already standing infront of me. Offering his hand with a grin. What should I do? Should I just go home like what M.H. Jung said? Or should I follow H.R. Jung's unexisiting bones?

I took a deep breath as I stood up and took his gloved hand, his smile grew wider and brighter

"Sure"

** 
It was suprisingly fun. We went to the most unforgettable places Dong Hae and I visited throughout our relationship. Though I admit that I shed tears (and lots of them), I created memories with this guy and it was tons of fun, he wasn't that bad after all. But then... there were just some memories that are to valuable to be replaced...

We've been here for almost two hours now. Here I am, still crying as this guy (whose name is appearantly Kris) pursuaded me to ride this gigantic rollercoster. We're currently in Lotte Amusement Park and we're on the 8th unforgettable moment Lee DongHae and I shared. We rode this exact same ride on our first date, and this was the time he told me the most sweetest thing anyone has told me when I'm scared

"Don't worry, I'm here. I'll keep you safe"

I didn't want to replace it. It was too precious.

"Yah! Sica, do you really want to 'not remember' Lee DongHae?" Kris said as he tugged at my sleeve

"Yah! Who told you that you can call me Sica?" I pulled my arm back to shake his hand off of my sleeve. 

"For goodness sake, stop crying. You've been crying for two hours straight just because of a friggin rollercoaster ride"

"Kris... please... stop... I beg you" I plead in between my sobs. 

"Tsk... fine! I will if you stop crying"

"But I told you, I can't"

"Aish! I can't believe you, Woman"

We then sat together in a bench, this time, in a noisy and happy amusement park. Eventhough everyone was happy, I wasn't,and felt like I would never be as long as I'm in this place. As long as those sweet words would linger within those gigantic loops the rollercoaster made

"Hey, Man-hater, Wanna hear a Joke?" He then said out of the blue. He looked at me with a serious face (which is weird because he was acting the exact opposite of what he is saying)

I just nodded while rubbing my sleeves on my face (again)

"Okay... so here it goes... Why are fishes so smart?"

"Why?" 

"Because they go in schools! haha" Honestly, I didn't know why did I laughed. It was a very corny joke and yet it made me smile

"Haha! I knew I had a good sense of humor" He said proudly

"Whatever dude" I chuckled

"Oh oh oh I got one again... Why are fishes so smart?"

"Why?" I asked again hoping for a different answer

"Because they go in school!" I laughed again. Yep... It's official, I'm officially crazy

I seriously don't know why it made me laugh, maybe it's just how he says it

"Haha You're weird" He managed to say after a good laugh

"Says the guy who repeated the same joke"

"Okay I have another joke. If you laugh, we'll ride the roller coaster, If you didn't I'll take you somewhere else, deal?"

"Sure"

"Why are fishes so smart?"

"Why?"

"Because they go in school"

I didn't laughed anymore. Seriously, who would if they heard a corny joke like this for the third time?

"Did you laughed?" He asked in a serious tone 

"No" I replied in monotone

"Why?"

"Because you told the same corny joke for the third time"

"Then tell me, Jessica. Why are you still crying eventhough it's the 8th time we went to your most memorable places." He scooted close to me and reached  for the hem of his own thick scarf, he then wiped my tears with it. I didn't protested, I'd let him do it. 

"Crying and corny jokes are two different things"

"My point is don't waste your precious tears on the same things over and over again because if you did, you'd be a crazyperson who'd laugh at the same joke over and over Again." He then smiled brightly at me. Snowflakes gently landed ontop of our heads but it strangely felt so warm. That smile of his made me feel so warm."C'mon, Let's go somewhere else and make the most memorable moment together, Arraso?" 

I nodded as we stood up and made our way out of the amusement park. We then called a cab and went back to the central park. I watched the bright lights that adorned the houses and buildings the cab passed by. I admired them, they all looked so beautiful. It would've been great to watch the skylantern festival if it wasn't postponed...

Upon arriving, Kris suddenly covered my eyes with his girly pink handkerchief. I tried to take it off but he held it firm 

"Yah! What are you going to do to me? Yah! Seriously, I would call 911!" 

"Relax! I'm going to show you something. It's a surprise" He guided me to walk forward. He held both of my shoulders as he guided me to our unknown destination.

M.H. Jung: Omg Sica! Run! Kick him in the crotch or something! I knew this would be a bad idea!

H.R. Jung: quit whinning! It's obvious that Kris is only planning something romantic for Sica here. Oh god! *squeel* my feels

M.H. Jung: *looks at H. R. Disgustingly*

Me: Shut up, both of you -_-

​We finally stopped and he finally let go. I braced my self

"You can open your eyes now"

I removed the handkerchief and I was greeted by a breathtaking view. Warm lights were all around me, skylanterns floated everywhere. It was warm, very warm. It felt nice

I then stared at Kris, he grinned at me in return. I suddenly thanked god that he existed, that men like him still exist. I absent mindedly walked towards him

"H-how...?"

He shrugged and then giggled 

"The snowfall stopped about five minutes ago and it turns out that everything was ready for the skylantern fest." He said his eyes on the floating lights around him."Heh. Wonder why the snow stopped, The forecast said that there would be heavy snow fall till tommorow"

"Maybe because you smiled" I accidentally said. 

"Should I feel flattered?"

"You should" I smiled a genuine smile for the first time in two weeks. We stood there together, admiring the warmth and the coziness the view made. I didn't even noticed that our fingers began to intertwine "Already an unforgettable memory?" 

"Not quiet" He said as his manly hands found it's way on the both side of my neck. He then leaned down on my small frame and whispered on my hear with a husky voice, "Can I kiss you?"

My eyes widen but then, for some weird reasons I nodded

He leaned closer and closer until both of our lips have pressed against each other. His lips, They felt soft and warm. God! Why must everything about him feel nice and warm. It was quiet awhile when our lips finally parted. I blushed at the thought of kissing a total stranger on christmas eve. Well, if you think about it, It would be an unforgettable thing >///<

"Is this memorable enough for you to forget the rollercoaster?" 

"What rollercoaster?" I smirked. He laughed and we went back to watching the skylanterns, I clinged at his lean shoulders and close my eyes as a single tear trickled down from it. I knew very well that pain wasn't the cause of that tear, it's a tear of happiness that was frozen for a quiet sometime.

His warmth had caused it to melt

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It's finally done!! My first ever oneshot! 

A/N: This actually supposed to be an entry for a contest but I think I didn't made it on the deadline :((( 
Iwannacry! ;_; coz I did this for quiet a long time

I don't even celebrate christmas... ah welll :D

Thank you for reading :))