So Sick...Someday... 

Yixing is cleaning his house. It is the same house he once called 'our house' with his boyfriend, Kim Jongdae. But the house is his alone now. Jongdae is gone. He left Yixing.

Yixing is putting his things on boxes and taping them shut. He is moving out the house. It is an attempt to move on from the past, a big step to his new life without Jongdae. He tells himself that he should have move out of the house months ago. He needs to move on because Jongdae is not coming back home. Jongdae has a new home now.

The house phone rings. Yixing lets it go to voicemail.

"Zhang Yixing" Jongdae's cheerful voice pronounce Yixing's name through the phone speaker. Yixing's heart cracks a bit at the sound of Jongdae's voice. He still has not change the answering machine.

"And Kim Jongdae" Yixing hears his delighted voice through the speaker. He was so happy then. They were so happy then.

"Are not here right now. Please live a message after the beep." Their voices announce in harmony, happiness and love lacing at their every words.

Yixing remembers the time they recorder the voicemail for the answering machine.

"Hyung~ guess what Baekhyun gave me?" Jongdae cheerful asks Yixing as he walks in their house/apartment.

Yixing is sitting on the couch folding his clothes he will need for his Business management class is going to. Yixing looks up to his young lover with a small smile, scanning him for any clue of what is his lover is hiding behind his back.

"A new bottle of lube?" Yixing asks knowing that Jongdae would furiously blush. And he does.

"No." Jongdae is so shy that Yixing just wants to do something not so innocent to him right now. "Tada!" Jongdae brings a digital (very tech-suave) answering machine from his behind his back. Yixing looks at it with furrow brows because he does not know what the square-tablet-looking-thing Jongdae is grinning so widely about is.

"It's a tablet." Yixing finally guesses. Jongdae laughs at him, his laugh sounding like a wind chime. Yixing likes his laugh so much.

"Yes it is, but not like the other typically tablets." Jongdae explains as he sits down beside Yixing, both turn to face each other and knees touching. "It's a voicemail or answering machine." Jongdae tells him and Yixing nods.

"But our home phone already has a voicemail." Yixing reminds his excited lover.

"Yes it does but this can hold longer messages." Jongdae informs and Yixing nods, impress at the machine. "It is also a gift from Baekhyun. Plus, it is easier to navigate without waiting for the female machine thing/person to tell us the options and 'press 7 to delete message.'" Jongdae mocks the answering machine female director's voice.

Yixing laughs and agrees to the new technology although he knows he will have to work really hard to master the new piece of technology.

"Don't worry I'll teach you hyung~" Jongdae cutely pecks him on the lip before he stands up from the couch to set up the new price of technique next to the home phone.

But before he can take a step away from the couch, Yixing wraps his arms around Jongdae's waist and nuzzles his face on the standing male's lower back. Jongdae turns around and Yixing smiles up to him as the younger smiles down to his hyung.

Yixing takes the new technology from Jongdae's hand and set it on the living room table. Jongdae watches Yixing as Yixing pulls him closer. Jongdae is now sitting on the older's lap, his legs folded into a kneeling position on the older's sides next to his firm thighs.

Jongdae smiles, as he comfortable wraps his arms around Yixing's neck. Yixing tightens his embrace and kisses Jongdae's soft tender lips. The two lovers taste each other's delicious lips as if it is their first time kissing each other.

"YAH!" Lu Han's yelling that is coming from the answering machine snaps Yixing from his memories of his ex-lover. "Yixing! I know you're in your house. I have been talking to this machine for years now but you still not picking it up!" Lu Han exaggerates his minutes of talking to himself about his and Yixing's new house in Gangnam.

Yixing gets up from his the floor where he was sitting when he was packing before he got lost on his memory of his ex-lover. Yixing picks up the phone and smiles as Lu Han continues to talk about being very excited of their new house.

"I'm sorry ge." Yixing finally answers the blabbering Lu Han followed by a small soft laugh.

"Are you done packing?" Lu Han asks, noises from his side of the connection can be heard. Yixing looks around the living room and the kitchen and nods.

"Yes, I'm done." Yixing smiles, knowing that Lu Han is probably still worried of him.

"Okay, the moving truck and I will be there in half an hour. We are still loading my stuff in." Lu Han informs him. 

"Ok. I'll start moving my things in the lobby." Yixing tells him and they hang up after a small farewell.

Yixing looks at the phone on his hand, debating if he should take the phone and the machine. Or should he leave the machine and take the phone? The machine is expensive; he should take it, right? He can just change the voice greeting. Yes, he should just change the greeting. He can hear Jongdae's voice through the radio anyway.

"No Yixing." Yixing tells himself. "You're supposed to move on." He packs the two pieces of technology though.

Yixing knows that the reason why he has not erase the voice greeting of the answering machine if because that piece of technology is the only way he can hear Jongdae's voice. For eight months since Jongdae left him, pressing a button to hear the greeting have been a habit of Yixing. By the third month, he stopped. But every time he is at home and someone calls for him or Jongdae, he hears the greeting. He smiles at their happy voices but then frowns when he remembers that Jongdae left him. It hurts for Yixing to hear Jongdae's voice but he does not want Jongdae completely out of his life either.

He knows he should move on, that is why he moving out of this house. But he just cannot. Eight months and he still loves Jongdae.

It's ridiculous

It's been months

And for some reason I just

can't get over us

Yixing and Lu Han are now unpacking their individual boxes in their new house. They bought the house a month ago because their work is in Gangnam. They have been promoted.  Lu Han is the new team leader of the Design Department of the Kim Empire while Yixing is now the new Director of the Promotion Department of the same company.

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