It was dark and I unknowingly found myself stuck in a huge master bedroom.

Fear didn’t strike me; usually I’m someone who will automatically go into panic mode in this situation. Who wouldn’t be right?

Not sure whether I was in someone's room or what, my feet began to wander about the spaciously quiet room.

Everything was tidy; nothing out of place, no soul, and the only strange thing was I being in this room alone at this timing. Wait the room was enclosed; the windows could not be seen so I had no idea what time of the day it was.

As I turned my body to face the bed, there he was…

All covered up as usual, with his hair gelled up, everything that he was spelled charisma. TOP occupied half of the super single bed.

Up till now he hasn’t notice me since his face was buried in a book in his hands. Then an ahjumma opened the door and said in a loud voice, “Don’t stay here too long, you two better come out soon.” And then she closed the door. This time the room looked clearer as the moonlight or streetlights made it’s way to the room.

“Why did she say that?”

“Hey” TOP smiled at me.

Still baffled, I walked towards the bed and casually sat beside him. There was a sense of assurance when our skin made contact. Not in a ual way but a “I have known you for quite sometime and we are comfortable with each other” feeling.

Seems extremely weird but without a shadow of doubt I knew in that dream that he is the TOP from Big Bang. However no spazz happened at any point of time.

Our conversations were hilarious, deep, romantic and exciting. From a rigid sitting position to a lying down, messy hair kind of position as time passed.

That feeling where you can talk to this person forever without feeling bored or awkward. I was feeling it and I believe he was too.

In fact in reality, I get bored easily even with people I’m close to. And I’m not okay with that. Why is it difficult for me to have that kind of effortless, non-awkward, forever interesting relationship with someone? Now how can I find a soul mate with this issue of mine?

Yes nobody is perfect. A relationship will always have its flaws but that’s what makes it beautiful. Just by embracing his or her flaws and making that decision to love that person.

I’ll be waiting… but for now lets make the best of what we have.