I' m tired being an option on everthing i do or every people i love but why can't i be the only one in tiffany's heart . I know it may be impossible like my parents adore my sister too much  and doesn't care a thing about me or my friends  who always makes me a 3rd wheel. I just wish that someday i'll be first and not an option then i can grow old happy.  But hoping or expecting to much hurts i know that because i alwayd been since my life . I cant control people so i just let them be., i want to be  selfish but i cant i love them so  muh.

You're the best option i ever i got. Since my girlfriend went to study abroad and i let her pursue her dream on being a painter i agreed ,it hurts but i can't be selfish knowing that my girlfriend have this one big dream that she can fulfill greatlfully. Sometimes you reminded me of her the awkward aegyo but super Adorable but your way different than her your jessica jung the one who is cold as an ice  but warmer when you get closer, and the most gorjess at everything you wear. I hate that you hug tighter and warmer than my girlfriend and the way you look at me and how we understand random stuff like my girlfriend or how bipolar and awkwardly funny you are  to me  but you know what i like about you the most is when you do cute fail romantic stuffs  and i still happy and laughing .