If only I was there for you, 

with you,

next to you... Maybe you wouldn't have died. It's all my fault. I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... I.. I'll die too...

'But it's not what I want.' Disappointment was obvious in the voice that seemed to echo throughout the room. 

LIES!

'I'll show you. I'll show you everything. I'll show you that.. you have everything even though I'm not there with you.' The voice seemed to be fading. And the image of his late lover flashed repeatedly and his lips seemed to be moving, but he couldn't understand what his lover was saying. His lover then slowly turned around with the most agonizing face Kris wanted to unsee.

Tao! TAO! TAO!!

Kris shot straight up screaming Tao's name. He wiped away the tears that never stopped flowing from his eyes. 

For Kris, every morning was a nightmare. Just knowing the beginning of a new day that seemed to never pass was extremely exhausting. He didn't work or even go out.

All because of that one terrifying nightmare. But the nightmare was also a memory. A memory Kris wanted to forget, but couldn't because he treasured it.  

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a/n:  Yeah.. I know.. lots of stories =.='' anyways, this storyline belongs to me but not the characters!