Just a silly one shot.

 

Hope it's not that .

 

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Is this what love is?
Does it hurt the more you do it?
The more I get closer to you
My feelings grow bigger
It scares me

 

 

Love…

 

What is love actually?

Before this I used to think that love is what you want it to be…

In any shape, form, expression, words, emotion…

Love is a billion different things for a billion different people.

 

Love…

 

For me, love is when someone can make you laugh at random moments…

 

Love is…

When you just need someone there to understand your sadness

And wrap their arms around you,

To tell you everything’s gonna be just fine…

 

Love is…

When you can stay up for hours and hours into the night,

Just talking, talking about nothing that means anything.

 

Love is…

When you can be your complete self around the other person,

Without worrying they’d judge you,

Because they already know and love you for whom you are.

 

Love is….

When you make mistakes, when you fight, when you argue,

When everything goes wrong, when you .

 

Love is…

When you realize through all that,

You still know you couldn’t live without the other person,

So you apologize and make everything better,

Because life’s too short to not see what went wrong and fix it.

 

Love is…

When someone means so, so much, words don’t even begin to describe what you feel.

 

That was before…

Before everything went south…

Before everything went crashing down…

Before everything went falling apart,

 

Unknowingly...

 

And now I had wished that I’ve never been in love.

 

Love…

Suddenly love becomes something so horrible.

It makes me so vulnerable.

It opens my chest and it opens my heart,

And it means that someone can get inside me and mess me up.

I built up all these defenses,

I built up a whole suit of armor,

So that nothing can hurt me…

 

But then…

That one stupid person, no different from any stupid person,

Wanders into my stupid life…

 

I give her a piece of me, she didn’t ask for it.

She did something dumb one day,

Like kiss me or smile at me,

And then my life isn’t my own anymore.

 

Love takes hostages.

It gets inside me.

It eats me in and out and leaves me crying in the darkness,

So simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’,

Turns into a glass splinter working its way through my heart.

 

It hurts….

 

Not just in imagination.

Not just in the mind.

 

It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-me-and-rips-me-apart pain.

 

And I come to hate love….

 

Such a precious person to me
That person, who won’t ever come again
That’s it for me, that’s enough
Just the fact that I love you

 

 

Such a precious person to me,

I used to think that the fact that I love you would be enough for us…

That we would be together come hell or high water,

Come sorrow or laughter…

 

But I guess I was wrong….

 

Nothing last forever.

Not even us.

 

So close but yet so far….

Our bodies are in the same place,

 But our hearts are miles apart.

I’m sitting right next to you,

But I feel so alone…

My tears are about to fall but…

You never see right through me.

 

My knees are numb,

To think about all the time and what we had become.

I wouldn’t move, my hands were shaking,

And I could hear my heart is breaking.

While tears are about to fall on my cheeks,

I wouldn’t speak.

Because I know nothing I could do to bring us back again.

So I hold back my tears,

And face my fears.

 

Alone… without you…

 

 

The one person who can’t see me though I am looking
The one person who can’t hear me though I am calling
Do you even remember me?
Do you even think of me?
Just once, please

 

 

We’re close, but yet we’re so far.

But the closer we are,

The distance I feel,

It seems our fate is seal.

We walk by one another,

Like we don’t know each other.

We were once lovers,

But now, we’re total strangers.

 

You can’t even see me though I am looking.

You can’t hear me though I am calling.

 

You never even remember me.

You never even think of me.

 

And I suddenly become a nobody to you.

I suddenly become invisible to you.

 

 

The only thing I can do is cry but
Like a fool, I am waiting
Please come to me now
Come to me just like this
My last wish is that one person, you

 

It hurts the worst when the person that made me feels special yesterday,

Makes you feel so unwanted today.

 

It’s tough when someone special starts to ignore you,

It’s even tougher to pretend that you don’t mind.

 

I understand that feeling now.

 

Completely!

 

My heart is broken,

My words are unspoken.

My tears are saying all that need to be said.

Different thought and feelings are echoing through my head,

How dare you do what you’ve done to me?!

How can a girl cause all this misery?!

 

What is heartbreak?

 

Heartbreak is lying on the bathroom floor,

Trying my damn hardest to breathe,

While at the same time wondering why it all went wrong,

And how I’m gonna get up,

And pretend like everything is all right,

And what the hell am I I gonna do about the hole inside my chest?

 

Yeah, that’s heartbreak.

I completely can relate to it now.

 

 

 

To you, I’m a small person
Just someone you know
That’s it for me, that’s enough
Just the reason of love

 

 

True pain is when you look into the eyes of someone you love

And they look away.

 

It hurts.

 

Like hell.

 

I miss you and how close we used to be.

I miss how much you used to care about me.

I miss the time we spent together.

I miss everything…

 

But I guess it doesn’t matter to you,

As it does to me.

 

 

And now you’ve got me sitting here,

Replaying every memory inside my head.

And I can’t help but wonder,

If you ever meant anything you’ve said.

 

When you said Sica-ah, saranghamda…

Did you ever truly mean it?

I gave you my heart

But you broke it.

You choose her instead of me.

 

 

The one person who can’t see me though I am looking
The one person who can’t hear me though I am calling
Do you even remember me?
Do you even think of me?
Just once, please

 

Do you ever miss me?

Do you ever miss us?

I surely do.

I miss you.

I miss us.

 

How did our relationship become so bad?

 

It breaks my heart,

When people I know, become people I knew.

When I walk right pass you,

As if I was never a huge part of your life.

Now we can’t even look each other in the eyes.

It breaks my heart to know good things change.

And there is nothing I can do to bring us back.

 

If there is a time machine,

Do you wanna go back in time?

 

Can I get a second chance?

I want you to be mine.

Do you want me to be yours again?

 

 

That one person, you
You are my only love
My heart can’t let you go
Just as much as I love you
Each minute and each second hurts so much

 

You don’t like me.

I’m trying to be okay with that.

 

But it still hurts to see,

That you’re doing completely okay,

Without me…

 

I fool myself telling that I should forget about you.

I’m not going to stress over you anymore.

It isn’t worth it.

I tried to work something out,

But you just ignored it.

I’m not trying to say I don’t want you,

Because I definitely do.

All I’m saying is I’m done chasing after you.

 

How stupid am I to believe that I could do that?

 

 

The one person who appears even when I close my eyes
The person who is next to me even in my dreams
Do you even remember me?
Do you even think of me?
I miss you, please

 

 

I miss you when something really good happens,

Because you’re the one that I want to share it with.

 

I miss you when something is troubling me,

Because you’re the only one who understands me so well.

 

I miss you when I laugh and cry,

Because I know that you’re the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

 

I miss you all the time,

But I miss you the most when I lie awake at night,

And think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other,

For those were some of the best memorable times of my life.

 

Sometimes when I really, really miss you,

I just want to sleep forever.

Because you are always in my dreams.

So close to my heart,

But yet so far in reality.

 

 

The only thing I can do is cry but
Like a fool, I am waiting
Please come to me now
Come to me just like this

 

The fish said: I can’t see my tears because I’m in the water.

The water said: I can feel your tears because you’re in my heart.

 

Lesson: We may hide our own hurts and pains but never can we lie to the person who cares for us.

 

But you never see when I cry.

You never care even if I cry.

 

Do you know the worst type of crying is the silent one?

The one when everyone is asleep.

The one where you feel it in your throat and your eyes become blurry from the tears.

The one where you just want to scream.

The one where you have to hold your breath and grab your stomach to keep quiet.

The one where you can’t breathe anymore.

The one when you realize the person that meant the most to you,

Is gone….

 

 I’ll never forget the days we once had.

The days when you were everything to me.

My mind used to tell me we’d be together forever,

But now I realize that was all a big dream.

 

The feelings I have for you will never go,

I wish I could take back that regretful day,

The day when we let each other fell apart,

Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets,

That I would once have to live through,

The sight of you in someone else’s arm,

Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces.

 

I sometimes wonder if you still think of me,

Or if to you, I’m just a face in the crowd.

I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back,

But for now, I’ll sit here silently,

Remembering all the memories we once shared.

 

Every day my love grows much stronger,

Hoping that one day, you will feel the same,

And put back the pieces of my broken heart.

 

My last wish is that one person, you

 

Taeyeon-ah…

Just tell me what I need to fix,

So you will love me again…..

 

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