Hatred,

that's all that Dongwoo can see in Myungsoo's eyes everytime they look at each other,

never Dongwoo found a person with such a hateful expression towards him, only Myungsoo.

everytime Dongwoo make funny faces and jokes, all the members will laughing their asses off and

giggling like a 5 years old boys, except this particular person who keep his oh-so-cold poker face,

Kim Myungsoo.

He thought, all about him is so negative for Myungsoo to the point that Myungsoo even ever left

the room while Dongwoo pouring his heart to the members, mumbling

 

"Stop exagerrating things, you idiot"

 

It hurts, it felt like a hundred kilograms of stones are falling and hit his chest hard until his heart

shattered into a million pieces.

But Dongwoo is Dongwoo. He didn't give up, yet.he keep on talking to Myungsoo, asking Myungsoo

out for lunch or ice cream, complimenting his outfit, and all the time, all of these times, there's one

and only absolute answer from Myungsoo

 

"Get lost".

 

"Never give up on anything or someone, even if people mocking you around, even if people didn't appreciate you,

even if people didn't even care about you, keep on going, then people will realize that you're worthy enough"

 

That's what Dongwoo's Mom always told him, and he always hold on to it no matter what.

 

 

 

To: Visual Baby

From: Handsome Dinosaur

 

Myung~

where are you? (o^^)o

 

 

 

5 minutes...

 

 

 

To: Visual Baby

From: Handsome Dinosaur

 

Myung are you busy?

answer me~ ㅠㅡㅠ

 

 

 

Still no reply...

 

 

 

To: Visual Baby

From:Handsome  Dinosaur

 

Myungsoo-ya!

this hyung of yours is worried now :'(

where are you???

 

 

 

Dongwoo is really worried about the younger's whereabout, eventhough the younger never seems

to understand why Dongwoo always asking about him, he continued to ignore him, but this time it's

getting on Myungsoo's nerves.

 

 

From: Visual Baby

To: Handsome Dinosaur

can you please just shut

the up?! You don't

ing need to know

where am i Hyung, so

stop ing pissing me off!!!

 

 

 

 

There's nothing more painful for Dongwoo than reading these words coming from Myungsoo,

the dongsaeng that he likes,

the younger guy who always wandering around his heart and mind,

the guy who makes him experience how painful unrequited love is.

 

Instead of trying harder, Dongwoo finally decided to give up, giving up on Myungsoo.

 

Now, Dongwoo never send those encouraging messages to Myungsoo, no more voice mail, no funny

jokes to tell Myungsoo, there's only silence and more silence hanging on the air.

Again, they're stranger for each other, the only interaction they had is when they're on stage, performing

to entertain the fans.

 

He tried, he tried so hard these past few months, to let go of his precious Kim Myungsoo.

 

When Dongwoo starting to let go of his feelings, he found something that change his whole life for that day.

 

 

 

Myungsoo's diary.

 

 

 

 

 

12 October 2013

 

 

 

There's no messages from him, no voice mail either, what happen?

what happe to him?

and the most important thing, why do I care?

Why do I feel uncomfortable? I feel really really unwanted.

 

 

 

20 October 2013

 

 

I steal glances at him on today's flight to Korea,

I see nothing in his eyes, there's no spark in it,

Nothing but sadness, why?

It's just not him, I don't knpw what to do.

And I think I just realize,

He make me feel the way I feel right now.

Something that people always call...

Love.

 

 

 

Dongwoo let the book falling to the floor, his eyes are b with tears, he keep on asking why.

Why am I crying? Why did he do this to him? Why he just realize he loves me when I,

trying my hardest to let go of him forever? Dongwoo crying on his knees, clutching his chest painfully,

it feels like someone punching his chest over and over and over again,

but nothing more shocking than what's going on later...

 

"I'm sorry hyung"

 

Dongwoo froze when he felt hands on his waist, wrapping him tightly, he know the voice,

he know it to well, it belongs to Myungsoo.

 

"So-sorry for w...what?"

 

Damn Dongwoo, stuttering? now? nice.

 

"Everything, I don't know it was love that I'm feeling, I'm on denial"

 

Myungsoo nuzzling his face to Dongwoo's hair, sniffing the vanilla essence of Dongwoo's shampoo.

 

"I like you hyung, I love you, it hurts me when I know I cause you so much pain like this, I don't

know how to deal with my feelings, I... I'm just so stupid to realize th-..."

 

His confession cut off by Dongwoo's index finger on his lips.

 

"Stop it, I know what you mean, it's okay, just come to me, even if you're running away,

it's okay to coming back to me, even if it's too late, I will always be here, waiting for you to

finally realize that I'm the one"

 

Dongwoo give his best smile, the smile that can light up this whole town.

And today, all of his hardwork, all the waiting, all the tears and pain, are over,

sealed by the sweetest kiss from his one and only.

 

from Myungsoo,

Kim Myungsoo,

His angel,

His love.