Zico glance at you for umpteenth time since you arrive at studio where Block B is rehearsing their new song ‘Very Good’ he bite his lips watching you interlock to their manager discussing about their concept for tomorrow show, you are their outfit designer for this album, you’re older than him by 3 years but this isn’t stop him for liking you, actually for loving you. Jiho confess his love at you many times but you keep rejecting him, He is nice dongsaeng to you, always asking if you already eaten and worries about your health, he was sweet and kind to you always jokes around making you smiles. He might look tough and cool but he is the most childish member of Block B, he jokes around making fool of s but also taking care of them that makes him amazing leader and person. Jiho snap on his thought when he saw you waking out of room, he stops on his track making the others look at him confuse, they follow where his eyes are fixed and chuckles, knowing that he what to talk to you. “Alright, let’s take a break” Taeil announced, Zico look at him and nod before he dash out of room, he glance from right to left and saw you walking towards your office room, he quickly run to catch you “Noona!” hearing your name been called you stop on your track and look around, only to find Jiho running towards you, he abruptly stop and stood in front of you with big smile on his lips, he still sweating because of practicing and running to catch you “Ye? Why are you here? Are done practicing?” you asks hugging your folder at your chest, Jiho shake his head “We’re in break; I just want to asks if you want to go out for dinner later? After your work?” he asks, eyes are full of hope that you will accept his invitation but to his dismay you shook your head, making his shoulder drop in disappointment “You have schedule tomorrow it’s best for you to rest” you said turning around ready to leave but he caught your arm stopping you “why you can’t just give me a chances?” he whispers glaring at the back of your head “I’m only asking for one chance, for one night why can’t you give that to me? Do you really hate me that much? You really see me as a dongsaeng? Or it because of Jiseop hyung? You like guy older than you right?” he swallow hard, you turn around and almost feel guilt when you saw his eyes glints in restraining tears “Zico, we already talk about this right? Please, don’t make this hard for both of us. You are an idol, you can have any girl you want” you sighs putting one hand on his hand that still holding your arm “But all I want is you, I only love you, only you why can’t you get that?” you hate seeing him like this, but you can’t do anything, you just don’t want to put more burden to him.   “Jiho, please” you reach out but he took a step back, he release your arm “Maybe you’re right” he sighs and look up, biting his lips stopping himself for crying, he don’t want to cry in front of you, it only shows you how childish he is “Jiho---“ “I’m just the one pushing my feeling for you, don’t worry I’ll stop now” he look at you again, but now his eyes we’re dark, his face is blank and persona changed in  front of you, not the usual Jiho you like to see, but the Zico that  everyone loves, the tough and cool leader of Block B “Have a nice day, Designer-shi” he said and turns around and left to practice room       ===========     It’s been weeks since Zico talked to you, you two meet at Company but there’s no words exchange on both of you, whenever he need something on his outfit he would asks one of the stylish noona or his manager but not you, he been avoiding you in any way he know. Taeil and Jaehyo was the one who’s talking and discussing about their outfit on you, but not Zico. You are not going to lie to yourself, seeing him interlock and talk to everyone but you hurts you, your heart clenched inside your chest, you are the one who want this, you pushed him away so many times, rejecting his sincere feelings for you, he just follow what you want him to do, that’s why you have no right to feel hurt, because your pain is nothing against the pain he feel every time you reject him. You want to asks if he’s alright, if he had enough sleep despite of their schedule, you want to hear his voice again, but you can’t. You pushed him away   There’s a rumor around the company that Zico is going out with a trainee, the rumor is not clear but you heard that the girl is Four years younger than him, it really hits you hard in chest, Since that day you stop worrying about him, you focused yourself on your job, it nearly Christmas and the CEO want you to design new clothes for Block and Other staffs for Christmas, you worked hard, staying up late just to keep your mind, thinking about him again, But everything you go only reminds you of him. In corridors where he usual wait for you patiently and asks you if you need ride, on canteen that you go every launch, in practice room, on your office and studios, everywhere reminds you of Jiho.   Block B’s had a whole week to rest, after their hectic schedule the managers decided to give them a reward, some of them went to their parent’s home or girlfriend, some of them stays to practice and for workshop, You didn’t heard about Jiho, he might spending time with his girlfriend you thought.   Late at night you decided to call it for today and clean your office, you save and print some of your design before you turn your computer off, grabbing your coat and bag you headed