Miracles in December (sequel to goodbye summer)

I drive mindlessly all I want is just to have you back in my arms. Hoping to catch you, hoping to fix all the mistakes I’ve done and lastly hoping to say my true feelings. I reached the airport at the fastest speed I can. I ran towards the entrance when suddenly “miss you can’t go in there, only passengers are allowed” The guard said while stopping me from entering the airport. “BUT sir, pls. I beg of you I really, NO I desperately need to catch someone please.” I said while kneeling in –front of the guard I don’t care if it hurts my pride but what I really need to catch the one I love. The guard just looked at me and softly said “my dear, may I know what flight you’re catching?””It’s a korea air bound to america sir” I looked at him. I can see his face hesitating to tell me something until “I’m sorry my dear but that plane already left” Time stopped, the world stopped. I just kneeled there without saying anything. It started to sink in my brain, she left. I’m late; it’s too late. A tear fell in my cheeks, one by one until it became a gushing of tears. This can’t be happening she already left. I’m too late.

after 8 years

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot see
I’m struggling to find you who I cannot hear
I see things that I couldn’t see before
I hear things that I couldn’t hear before
After you left me, I have grown a power that I didn’t have before

hi, it’s kim taeyeon again. I’m the owner of the kim enterprises. Fast huh? Well, I worked my off for this to reach my dream. And because of her, up to until now my heart longed for her. Her beautiful face, her soft voice; My heart, My soul, my mind is still struggling to find her. How I wish that I confessed to her, maybe we are together now or strangers. I see world in different perspective now. It is true that you will always regret everything in the end. World is cruel if you don’t fight for what you want. Fight for your heart wants but don’t forget to sometimes use your mind too. I hate to admit that every night I hear her voice in my dreams, her soft yet angel-like voice. How I wish I can hear that in reality. How I wish I followed my heart back then. How I wish I didn’t regret everything now. She left me with a power that is very precious to me that I never thought that I will have and that is the power of love. I did everything for love, I worked day and night just for her; so that when we meet again. She will say I’m trustworthy for her. I’m the KIM TAEYEON that is a coward that who cannot express her feelings very well. But I’m the kim taeyeon who is brave especially when it comes to love

The selfish me who has only thought about myself
The me who didn’t know your feelings and ignored it
I couldn’t believe myself that I have changed this much
Your love can still move me like this

I still regret everything that happened, I only cared of how will I feel if you distance yourself away from me if ever I confessed my feelings for you. I didn’t care about of what might happen. I’m young and fool back then. The one who ignored her feelings and let it grow to something bigger as time goes by; you changed me, without a doubt our promises our love. It changed everything that I had. And I’m very thankful for that

If I just think of you, I can fill this world with you
Because each snowdrop is one tear drop that belongs to you
But theres just one thing that I can’t do and it’s to make you come to me
I hope I don’t have this miserable power

You’re my world, my everything, my love. Just thinking of you makes my world exciting and lively, you make my world complete. How I wish I have the power to turn back time to make you come back to me. I know leaving me and everything in this country is very hard for you. How I wish I was the one who will be wiping your tears. If I just don’t have the power of hope. Maybe I will not be regretting things now.

Stopping the time, (I) go back to you
I open this book of memories and I open up your page
And in the book I’m in there, in there with you

I remembered the time when we are still together laughing, nothing to care about the world. Time stopped for me as I continue to remember it. I opened my mind to dig up all memories I’ve shared with and I can say that I can write a whole book with only the memories of we are together

The small and weak person, because of your love
Just like this for everything (my whole existence)
I changed the whole world
The me who didn’t know how to be thankful for love
The me who thought that the end was the end
To the image of you who wanted me to be, I fixed myself everyday
I think my love will continue on forever

I changed everything in myself because of you but I know there is only one thing that won’t change and that is my LOVE for you. At the past I used to curse love for making my life so confusing but because of you. I started to see in a different way. I started to thank it for making my life livelier than it is for making my life happier than it used to be. I started to think positively, in the past I thought everything was a dead end but I realized that with you, your memories, your existence. Nothing is going to end for me it is going to continue eternally because of you I learned how to love

I smiled as I continue on remembering all our memories together until a knock broke me out from my thought 
“miss kim taeyeon, the advertising manager is here woud you like to let him in?” “Yes, thank you very much” A middle aged man came into my office and greeted me “good morning miss kim. I’m here for your request for an advertisement for you products” I answered him with a smile “yes, of course; I would like to be personally present while having the shoot for the commercial” “yes of course miss kim that will be an honor” “so where is this commercial going to take place” he smiled at me and said “we decided to shoot it in America ma’am”