Come back...be here               

 

    Seunghyun,                      I never knew how It felt to be broken.It never crossed my mind that you would do this to me.I know I'm not perfect...but I have loved you more than I ever showed.I never looked at anybody else but you.For me,you were the reason for everything.The reason of the slight curves of my lips,the glimmer of my eyes,the warmth inside me.I have loved you ever since I couldn't remember.No words can express how I feel.This letter is not even half an inch of what I want to say.I'm sorry I couldn't be enough for you.I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy.I'm sorry I can't give the world to you,but God knows how much I want to.I couldn't hate you after all the things we've done.Even after what you've done.Know that I can't talk to you because I can't bear to let my tears and be in front of you...crying in pain.But even though everytime I cry,I remember your face.Your smile.Your dimples flashing out of your cheeks.Your deep husky voice.I couldn't bear to hate you,and I hate myself for that.I don't want to let you go but I know in the end I must.I feel suffocated just thinking of the fact you can never be mine.But at least for a short time,you were...and I was yours.           I would give everything for you to be happy.I wanted to raise a child with you.Grow old with you.To hold your hands in times of your sorrow,and for you to hold mine as well.I wanted to stay in your arms,just now I feel so cold without you surrounding me.I need you,but we can't.I long for your kisses,your soft and gentle touches.Your presence beside me.Your existence ...the reason I open my eyes.I'm afraid to face the reality without you.I couldn't take in the truth,I don't want to wake up for in my dreams you're there...holding me.Kissing me.Loving me.         I dreamt of us one time.My stomach was huge,I was pregnant.Then you went home from work.We have a son.He came running towards you,he hugged your legs.You lifted him and swung him around our house.And then you looked at me like I'm the most beautiful woman in the world.You kissed me as you were carrying our son.My hands and yours caressing my huge belly.I smiled in my sleep.I thought it was real,I wanted it to be real.It was my favorite dream with you.                  You found a woman.I saw here.She's beautiful.I was hurt to see you hugging her...kissing her...having her in your arms like we used to.She was happy too,I saw the smile in her lips,the brightness of her eyes.Then I looked at you...I felt my heart skipped a beat.You were smiling...you were happy.Then I thought to myself,I wanted you like that.I wanted you happy.As much as it hurts me,I died a thousand times seeing you with her,it pains me.Tortures me.Rips me apart.  But I love you.I love you and I want to let go.Never think that I hate you.I never did.In my heart I only remember you loving me.        I think of the times you'd have with here.The chances you have with her.The future you would have with her.And my dream of us having a family would be really between you and her.I smiled.I know you would be happy.It hurts ,but I know in the end I should let you go.I must let you go.                        I have loved you and will love you forever.       Denisse       "She told me to give it you."said the immaculate vogue lady.       He remained frozen.All his thoughts scattered.He couldn't do anything but to tremble in a skittish manner.There he sits impatiently on the sofa.He looks around in hopes of finding divine.       Seunghyun couldn't look at her but to keep his vision at the written name immensing in front of his eyes.He never thought he would ever come to the circumstances of setting foot in her house after five years.Everything happened so fast.       "I'm sorry,we've never met ,you're her?"Seunghyun looks at the middle aged woman.       "I'm the caretaker.Her parents moved to England four years ago."She muttered.       Seunghyun's brows creased.His hands sligh