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Seungri and Jiyong, the best of friends, the Tom and Jerry of their group. Of course, it's all for show... a facade for the camera

Feelings can't be carried over to the other side but sometimes feelings aren't that easy to control...

[A GRI story ^-^ based on real events somewhat?.. ]

 

 

Foreword

The sun was setting and Jiyong was still in the studio. His eyes were threatening to close on him but he was determined to get this song finished by tonight. Youngbae had already been and asked him to finish up and go eat, but to no avail, once Jiyong was in the zone there was no getting him out of it. Silence encaptured the room as he hit play on the one section of the song he had been editing and slaving over for hours.

"Baby~ I hate you - no no no no no

Baby~ I love you"

Hate and love weren't far from each other he thought to himself. Glancing at the clock he saw that it was already gone midnight. He sighed reluctantly as he rose from his seat, deciding that he was finished for the night and  he felt drained, both emotionally and physically. His mind began to drift to the person whom he missed most, the one he always missed most and he ruffled his hair aimlessly in a failed attempt to clear his thoughts.

"Going somewhere hyung?"

"Seungri-ah? What are you doing here? I thought you were in Japan."

"I've been back since yesterday, I just didn't tell anyone. I prefer to come with an air of surprise. You look like you could do with some company." The smile that lit up his features triggered the pain in Jiyong's chest that he had felt mere seconds before Seungri's entrance but for a different reason. The familiar man with dark sullen circles under his eyes walked towards Jiyong who took it upon himself to sit back down, mesmerized by Seunghyun, though keeping a nonchalant look on his face.

"Hyung you should really get some sleep, you look like you've been here for days."

Snorting, he glanced at the youngest member stood a few feet from him. "Not far from the truth. You know me, I'm a perfectionist."

"You'll get bags like me." Seungri perched himself on the main desk much to Jiyong's annoyance.

"Your bags are cute though." His soft tone faded as he continued. "Mine are just an example of me not completing what needs to be completed. I have a deadline for this album and I'm not even close to finishing!" He hit the wooden desk in front of him letting out some pent up frustration but startling Seungri in the process.

"Sorry.." Jiyong muttered.
 
"Hey it's ok hyung." Seungri slid off the wooden desk and moved behind Jiyong placing his hands on his shoulders loosely, as his leader let out a sigh in his revolving chair. "You just need to relax oppa."
 
Jiyong's gaze shifted upwards at the word "oppa" and his eyebrows shot up. It wasn't the first time he'd heard the word come from Seungri's lips but he assumed it was just fanservice. There were no cameras in the studio.
 
A red tint shaded Seungri's cheeks from the intense eye contact which Jiyong broke by looking straight ahead again; he could sense his stare was making his maknae feel uncomfortable. "You should call me that more often."
 
"I do!" Seungri protested.
 
"Off camera."
 
"Oh. Don't get carried away hyung, it was just a slip of the tongue," he laughed off his own mistake. 
 
Truth to be told he hadn't meant for the word to slip out so easily but that didn't mean it wasn't genuine.. Seeing his hyung in such desperation brought out the side of him best kept hidden, or rather best preserved for the fangirls when they were on stage. "Don't let it get too personal.."  The words of his manager, boss and guide, Yang Hyun Suk reiterated through his brain, as did his bright response of "Yes, Sajangnim." At the time he had been young and innocent, with no idea how difficult it would be to keep his promise. It was all harmless skinship, why was Papa YG worried? .. It was no longer just skinship. Well maybe it was, but not to Seungri. Everytime he felt the touch of his hyung he longed for it to be real, yet he knew it wasn't so he shut himself off from it and played along, pushing him away and pretending to be embarassed, all for the fans. He had built an attachment, but somehow Jiyong was the possessive one. Seungri wouldn't mind belonging to him if it meant really belonging to him but all it entailed was skinship. Too much of it, so much, that Seungri sometimes felt he was suffocating, suffocating in the skinship that he so craved but not in the way he should. Yet despite this, nothing would stop him going back to Jiyong, again and again, for more of his sugar coated skinship and Jiyong knew this all too well, when he would sometimes crawl into bed with the maknae, thinking he was asleep. He stopped doing this ever since Ri began to bring girls back. They served their purpose well, they were never long term relationships, just mere one night stands but they stole him away from the loneliness.
 
Both lost in their thoughts Jiyong had closed his eyes leaning back towards Seungri's touch however light when Seungri suddenly leaped back as if he'd been burnt.

"Waeyo? Ri?"

"Ah hyung- I just remembered something I h-have to do. A prior appointment. I hope you finish up here."

Within five seconds he was gone.

"Probably gone to one of his Japanese girls..." Ignoring the pang of jealousy that followed his uttered statement, and the realisation of how bitter he sounded he turned back to the computer and repeated the chorus of "Who You?" for the 68th time.

Outside the studio, once he felt he was a safe distance away from the building Seungri leant against the wall silently cursing himself for letting his emotions control him. "I really hate you Kwon Jiyong." His head shook of it's own accord in denial as he muttered, "but I love you."

 

 

 

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TisyaZEA
#1
Chapter 1: Woah, its really good ~ can't wait for more from you ;)
thejitomyri
#2
Chapter 1: This is just amazing I just wow, I'm going to look forward to every single update. Your writing is just amazing and it's so mesmerizing. Poor Ri and poor GD >.< ........ I hope they drunk ;)
clockworkangel151
#3
this sounds wonderful, although it's only the foreward you still did an amazing job, I especially like the part where Jiyong leaned back into Seungri's touch tat was jus so cute^^, can't wait for the first chapter:D
tarepandasan #4
can't wait! ^^
leahisdaname #5
this sound exciting !! :D
ILoveHyung
#6
Jiyong and Seungri why so miserable? XD Who You sounds like it fits this story well! A love and hate type of relationship, huh? I like it~ Can't wait for more.