Our Eternal Neverland
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Does fairytale really exist? Not in my world.
I am who I am today because of the choices I made yesterday. But was it a right choice? I chose to love you, I've changed because of you. Never in my life I became like this, not until you appear.
Just another girl in the crowd, that's who I am to you. Too tired to hold on, too in love to let go. If this love only exist in my dreams, don't wake me up. I act like I don't care, but deep inside it kills me. You are one of the reasons why I smile. They say everything happens for a reason, but do I really matter to you? A smile on my face has been replaced by a fake smile. A laughter that used to errupt from my mouth became silent. If only, you know how much you've hurt me. but you didn't even bother, At least a 'goodbye' was said before you left me. I should've known. As I paced back and forth 'cause I honestly believe in you
Holding on the days drag on, stupid girl I should've known, I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale. I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up to the stairwell. I was a dreamer before you went and let me down. I was naive, got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance. My mistake, I didn't know to be in love, you have to fight to have the upper hand. I had so many dreams about you and me happy endings but now I know, I'm just a mere stranger that happens to cross path with you once. and maybe never again.
Foreword
Peterpan, Wendy and Tinkerbell
Dear my peterpan, I still can't choose my part in this story. I want to be Wendy, the girl you fell in love with. but I want to be tinkerbell too, the one that will always be by your side. Wendy appears in some of the chapters, and once in your heart. But you didn't end up with her. Tinkerbell is the main character, she always appear in every single chapter, but never once in your heart. Why is it so complicated?
Everytime I close my eyes, I see you. You never crossed my mind, you stayed in it. But why?
You came into my life, you made me smile and then suddenly you left me without a word. We never knew each other, just names. Never even talked. I lost someone who wasn't even mine. We were never friends, nor a lover. Should I be happy because we never actually know each other? Or should I be sad because I never got the chance to. Well you're the peterpan in my story. And I'm still confused about my character here. But who am I to your story? only a friend of tinkerbell who you don't even know? A mere stranger that happen to cross path with you and you forgot her? A toy you can play with?
You walked in and stole my heart. You break my walls, but you left it just like that. like a wound, my heart starts closing. And as it closes, the walls become sttronger and taller than it was before. You make me smile and suddenly you left me. You left me hanging. Without a Word, you left. Maybe you suddenly woke up and realized you love me no more.
If, a word that contain possibilities, dreams, questions but mostly, regrets.
If I knew falling in love would hurt this much, I wouldn't fall.
If I knew loving you could hurt this much, I wouldn't let you in for the first time.
If I knew my curiousity could hurt me, I would stop searching.
If I knew you wouldn't catch me, I won't fall.
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