What is Love

One Shot Fiction

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The best things happen unexpectedly.

 

 

WOAH

I’m finally here at the land I’ve wanted to visit. I feel so hyped up! OMGee~ I giggled at the back of my head trying to suppress the excitement inside me. Okay, what to do first? I asked myself and pulled out my mini notebook that turns to be my to-do list.

Day-1

1. Bring luggage to the hotel

2. Stroll in Myeongdong

3. Go to Boy Who Cried Wolf exhibit

4. Visit Han River

5. Contact the freak at the end of the day

Oh my Gaaah. I want to live here forever! I shouted mentally while I’m strolling in Myeongdong. I see lotsa items I want to buy!!! Asdfghjklasdfghjkl. My Day 1.1 and 1.2 is already accomplished and so… the Exo exhibit please! I checked my egg phone which I rented from the airport (they call it egg though it’s not like one, idek why anyway) to locate where is the friggin exhibit. I took the cab and tried my best hangul to instruct the driver. But it doesn’t take me a lot of effort when I mentioned EXO. Lmao. Does he have a lot of passengers like me? Kekeke. Exo is so popular though.

I walk inside the building and I see fangirls giggling on the items displayed. OMG I need my friends now! I want to spazz here with them! Ugh. Ppalli chingudeul! I talk inside my head. I can’t help my smile reach my ears the moment I saw my favorite guy on earth, Kyungsoo. ASDFGHJKLASDFGHJKL. I saw his wolf drawing too! I touched the wall where it was drawn as if I can feel Kyungsoo. His image drawing this wolf is running in my head. Fudge, am I now hallucinating? Gaaaah.

I feel my stomach is rumbling as I stroll from the first floor to third and from third floor back to first. LOL. I could just stroll up and down here in my five days of stay here in Seoul. I decided to go to the cafeteria in the first floor but gah, izzo crowded! But I don’t care! I want to eat here! And try Exo’s menu! As I checked the menu… holy asdfghjkl.

Heechul.

I’m sure it’s him. From the side profile, I know him well. It’s him and he’s freakin’ beside me trying to place his order at the counter. FML. I can’t move or even open my mouth.

“Annyeong haseyo”

The counter boy greeted me. , I need to order now. Stop spazzing with Hee, I’m here for Exo.

“Hi! Sorry I can’t speak Korean much. But I want to try that D.O’s sandwich?” I smiled big time hoping that he understood me clearly. I even point at the menu.

“Okay!” he gestured an ‘o’ shape. Thank God I don’t need to use my egg phone for translations.

“Hi miss!” I heard from my side.

OMG HEECHUL STOP. NO.

I turned to my side with a smile and look at him casually.

“Are you a foreigner?” He asked. OMG he speak English to me.

“Yup!” I replied delightedly, “Oh wait, you are… Heechul?” I innocently asked. Lmao

“Wow! You know me? Awesome!”

I want to laugh so hard. Gah. But no. I need to keep my decency. LMAO. “Yes, I’m a fan.”

“Ah jinjja?”

“Ne.” Kekeke.

“Where are you from?” He asked in English again. I could die right now.

“Canada.”

 

 

My Heechul encounter was really crazy. He was very cheerful even if he’s not on stage or no camera is rolling. It was fun! But gah, D.O’s sandwich is the most delicious sandwich ever!!! If only I could preserve one and bring one back to Canada. OMG fangirl feels.

I noticed the surroundings are still lit up by the sun. What time is it? I feel like I’ve done a lot of things already but still it looks early in the afternoon here in Seoul. I was wrong in writing only five things in my Day-1 to-do list. I thought it will be enough for a day. I fished out my egg phone from my jean’s pocket and see the time.

7:30 pm

What? Seriously? No!

I took the Korean subway with my egg phone as my guide. I was on the right track and reached my hotel in no time plus less expense. Whew. Life’s so good. Everything here in Seoul is awesome! I made it to my hotel room and start packing my things off. I opened my laptop and put a blog in my site.

Annyeonghaseyo yeorobun! Guess where am I now? [Picture of Han River] Yep! I’m here at Seoul right now! Just for five days though but I will make the best out of it! Please anticipate on a surprise activity I’ve been working on. I hope some of you could join me and let’s meet! I want to see my followers here in Seoul and hang out maybe? Hihihi. In four days, let’s meet guys! ~XOXO.

After I posted, I received replies that fast! Wow. I’m so overwhelmed. I managed to reply to some but I’m so friggin tired. Some already know what I’m up to here in Korea. And some of them recommend some places to visit. OMGee. I hope I have much time to visit all of it! Sigh.

Ring Ring!

My egg phone suddenly comes to life! It’s the first time I hear it ring!

“Hello?” I answered cheerfully leaving my dead tired body lying on the bed.

“It’s me.”

I recognized his voice right away, “Oh! Luke Song seonsaengnim!”

“So how are you doing?”

”Seoul is the awesome-est place ever!” I told him with a hyped voice.

“Great you’re having fun then.”

“Yep, I told you I can manage by myself. And this egg phone that you recommend, gah, amazing!”

“Hahaha! Okay, I just checked on you. I’ll see you in four days!”

“See you my jjang seonsaengnim! I can’t thank you enough!”

“You deserve everything. Bye.”

Then I hung up.

I open my Kakaotalk and sent a message to Freak. It’s the last thing on my to-do list and after, I could go to sleep and finally rest my body and fangirl soul.

Ssup Freak? See you in front of your SM Building after your Show Champ performance tomorrow! XOXO.

 

Day-2

1. Eat Korean Breakfast at the hotel (No chili please!)

2. Shopping!

3. Meet the Freak!

4. Check my friends if they arrived safely

 

Why did I put to eat breakfast here in my day 2 to-do list? Keke. I’m crazy. After my no-chili breakfast from the hotel, I went shopping in Myeongdong! There are a lot of fashionable clothes in this place and if I will convert the price in dollar, it’s actually not expensive! OMG life’s really good in here. As a fangirl, I could live my life here and even die here. Seoul is jjang!

I took a cab to go back to the hotel coz I can’t ride a subway with these shopping bags at hand. I place the bags in my room and swiftly go out again. I checked the time: 7:00, Show Champion must end soon. I took a cab again and asked the driver to bring me to SM Ent building. The driver gave me a wary look from the rear mirror. Duh? Does he think I will audition or whatever? Can someone audition with a tee-shorts-sneakers attire? Whatever.

“Yeogi… SM.” The driver points the building at my right.

“Oh, thank you.” I told him and give the exact bill.

I surveyed the area, I see no Freak. And miraculously there are no fangirls! They might not be here yet, I thought. If they were here already, there will be cars parked in front and fangirls are waiting already. So I assume, Exo did not arrive yet. Hm, should I act like a fangirl if they arrive? Kekeke. That’ll be fun!

Katalk!

I heard my message alert tone in my Kakao. I checked my egg phone.

                Come inside.

Wow, the Freak sent me a message. But wait, come inside?

                Where?

I replied.

                Inside the building! Duh. You silly head!

Me? Silly head? Your dead Freak!

I confusedly walk near the entrance and incredibly, the guards did not stop me or even questioned me. I slowly walk inside the well-lit building unknowingly where to go.

“Mwoya, Are you real?” I saw the Freak appeared on sight.

I smiled big time. After a year, I’m able to see him again. I can’t even explain how I feel right now. I just know I’m happy.

It’s payback time freak, “What do you think of me? A ghost?” I mouthed as he come near me.

“You’re real!” He exclaimed and immediately put me into his arms. “I miss you so much Ace!”

“I miss you too, Kris! It’s been a while.” I said.

He released me from his hug, “How come you didn’t tell me you’re coming? I mean, I’ve been sending you emails and stuff. And you are not even replying! I thought you were dead!”

“Whatever! I’m still alive freak!”

He guide me to have a seat along the isle, “So what are you doing here? How long will you stay here? And who are you with when you came?”

“Can you just ask me one question at a time?” I demanded laughing, “I’m here to visit you. Why? Am I not allowed to see you now?”

“Of course not! I always want to see you, Ace. It’s just you, who didn’t contact me!”

“Stop! Now I contacted you and we even meet. Stop the drama Kris, you’re not even an actor!” LMAO

He poked my forehead like the old times whenever I . “Fine, thank you for contacting me. Happy?”

I rolled my eyes and lay my eyes onto his face. He has not changed. It’s still the face of Kris I knew back in Canada. “You did not change, did you?” I asked in blue.

“I guess not.” He shrugged. “So where are you staying now?”

“Hotel.” I answered.

“I guess you’ll be here in a couple of days?”

“Hmm.”

“Let’s hang out!” He said excitedly.

“Do you even have time? You guys are promoting Growl.”

“I will make time, of course!”

“You already!” I teased.

“I want to tour you here in Seoul. And let you taste good food.”

“Wow. You speak like you’re a native here in Seoul already!” We laughed. “No worries, I can manage. I’m actually here since yesterday—“

“And you just contacted me today?!”

“Yes,” I responded on his reaction. “I even went to BWCW exhibit and stroll in Myeongdong and Han River.”

“Really?!”

“Yup!”

“You’re a big girl now huh?”

“Yup! Sorry, you’re getting old ajhussi.”

“WHA—“

“Hyung!” Someone appeared in front of us before he could poke me again.

I sit upright and I become rigid. It’s Chanyeol.

“Ah, hyung, nugu?” He asked.

“Ah, she’s my friend.” He answered Chanyeol in English. He’s crazy. “Let’s go Ace, I’ll introduce you to my members.”

“What? No. Why?” I’m in panic.

“Coz I want them to meet my long lost friend from Canada.” He pulled my wrist and dragged me upstairs. I see Chanyeol’s smiling face behind us as he follow.

Oh please. No.

“Yorobeun!”  Kris mouthed calling everyone’s attention from the room. I can hear Growl on play. They might be practicing? Oh please stop Kris. I hide behind Kris as I saw everyone turn to us. Kris turned and face me.

“You don’t need to introduce me, you guys are practicing. I’ll just see you tomorrow.” I tried to explain myself but I failed.

“Your face is red.” I heard him whisper.

“I’m shy!” Ugh

He laughed at me. Your laugh is not helping Kris!!!

“Guys! This is Ace.” I heard him say from his back.

I can hear reactions from the members. Ugh. Fine! I can handle this like what I did with Heechul yesterday. And besides, why I feel so shy? I have nothing to be shy of! Fighting Ace!

“Annyeonhaseyo Exo membedeul. Jeo neun Ace imnida. Jeo neun Exo fan imnida.” I successfully introduced myself in a decent way.

“Woah.” I heard Chanyeol’s deep ocean voice beside me.

“Exo fan?” Kris questioned, “You’re only a fan of me right?”

What? “Anyo!” I raised a brow at him, “I like Exo.”

I heard giggles from the members.

“What? You said you’re my number one fan.”

“When did I say that? It’s the first time we meet again and I did not say those things earlier.” He’s hallucinating!

“You said that.” Kris insisted.

“Okay, I like Exo and that includes you. Happy?”

He nodded. I heard laughter inside the room.

“Mianhaeyo~” I lowered my head as I apologize with our behavior.

“Kwenchana~” Chanyeol responded. “You guys are cute together!”

What?

“Hyung! Is he from Canada?”

“Ah yes, she’s my friend from Canada.” Kris sounded like a leader. Joah. “The one who pushed me to audition and succeeded.”

I elbowed him on his right. Can he just stop talking about me?

“Ace-ssi neun, you know our names?” asked Chanyeol.

OMG he’s good in English eh? “Yup! Chanyeol ssi, Baekhyun ssi, Leader Suho, Maknae Sehun, Luhan ssi, Lay ssi, Tao ssi, Xiumin ssi, Chen ssi—“ OMG next is Kaisoo my OTP. “Kai ssi and uhm…” I tried my best to prevent my face to get red again. “…Dyodol!”

Everyone laughed. Me too! Haha! I can’t help it. Kyungsoo is too cute to handle!

I walk near Kyungsoo and bow ninety degrees, “Mianhae D.O ssi.”

I feel so lucky meeting the whole Exo members. Thanks to Freak, Kris. I was also able to see them practice Growl live. I see no difference from their live performance though. These guys are amazingly talented. And I’m so happy that Kris is one of them.

I also met their manager hyung. If I don’t know Exo, I might mistaken him as one of the Exo members. LOL. He’s also handsome, OMGee. Feels. He invited me to join the party tonight at Hongdae. I willingly agree coz I want to know what kind of nightlife Seoul can offer. Kris, Chanyeol, Kai and Kyungsoo also joined. My awkwardness with Kyungsoo was lost like a bubble after I called him Dyodol. LMAO.

 

 

Day-3

I get up on the bed with a throbbing headache. Where am I? I asked myself seeing the room I’ve never been to. This is not my hotel room. I stand up and began to panic until I saw Kris’ photo at the study table and a doll that seems to be like him too. Cute. Wait, what happened last night?

I was at the bar last night with Kris and some of the members. I can only remember Kris and I are having battle. Battle of what? Ugh, my memory. Oh, I remember now. We’re testing who has more alcohol tolerance between us. Yes, that’s it. But who won? Ugh. FML. In short, I was drunk last night. I walk near the door and peek what’s outside. I see a living room. I pushed my head out from the half opened door and saw Tao and Luhan watching tv.

“Ace ssi!” Luhan noticed my head popped from the door. LMAO

“Oh, you’re awake?” I saw Kyungsoo from the kitchen holding long chopsticks. What was that for?

“Ah, yeah.” I mouthed and give them a smile.

“Please sit here.” Tao assisted me. “Are you okay?”

“Meori appayo” I tried my best Hangeul.

“Headache?” Tao translated. I smiled at him. “Wait, medicine.”

I heard commotions from the kitchen and saw Tao and Kyungsoo having an argument. I’m curious what are they arguing about but my head… ugh. I call this hangover. FML.

“Ace ssi, eat first.” Kyungsoo placed bowls with food on the table the put the medicine aside. I see Luhan’s face brightened. My sense of taste was stimulated. This is good food, I guess.

“Wow” I mouthed. “You cooked these all?”

“He’s our chef.” Tao declared that made Kyungsoo smile. So cute. “This is Kimchi fried rice and Kimchi omelet.”

I noticed Tao’s English, “Wow Tao, you’re good in English eh?”

“Yes, thank you. I study hard.” He shyly responded.

“Keep it up! Fighting!”

“I prepared Kimbap too, Ace ssi.” I heard Kyungsoo at the other side of the table.

“Thank you Chef Kyungsoo.” I said playfully. Kyungsoo izzo adorable!

“Meokja!” Luhan started eating being the eldest among us.

“Ace ssi, how old are you?” asked Kyungsoo.

“Me? Shall I say you should drop ssi when you call me coz we’re at the same age.”

“Jeongmal?” He was taken aback.

“You are 1992?” Tao cut short.

I nodded as I munch on my kimbap. “This is delicious! This is the best kimbap I ever tasted!” I exclaimed.

I see shy Kyunsoo. Omo.

“Ah, DO ssi—“

“Ye Ace?” He acted cutely cutting me off.

Does he mean to.. “Oh, Kyungsoo-yah!” I blurted out impolitely and we all laughed.

“Mianhaeyo.” I apologized. “I mean, ah, oryeopta~” I can’t call Kyungsoo, just Kyungsoo. Ugh.

“It’s okay, call me whatever you’re comfortable with.” He said.

“Kyungsoo chingu.”

“Ah kyeopta~” Tao uttered with a full mouth.

“I like it.” Kyungsoo commented. OMG my knees are turning to jelly.

“Okay,” I agreed casually, “Kyungsoo chingu, what happened last night at the bar?”

“Last night?” He repeated and typed something in his phone, “You were drunk. You and Kris and Chanyeol.”

“Jeongmalyo?” I feel embarrassed. Of all the people, Kyungsoo’s the one who told me I was drunk last night! Dang! “Mianhaeyo~”

“You were drunk so manager hyung decided to bring you to our dorm. Coz we don’t know where is your hotel.”

Oh my, I think I don’t want to face them all. This is so embarrassing. “So who’s room I slept?”

“Kris” Luhan answered.

Ah, that’s why he has a picture on it. “Where did Kris sleep then?”

“Suho hyung room.” Tao mouthed and point at the door next to us.

“Jeongmal mianhaeyo for causing trouble in your dorm.”

“Kwenchana Ace chingu.” Kyungsoo uttered.

Am I now his chingu? Gah.

Ring Ring!

I heard my egg phone.

“Ah, your handy phone. Someone’s calling since morning.” Kyungsoo handed me the phone.

“Hello?” I picked up.

“ACE, WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU? WE’VE BEEN CONTACTING YOU SINCE LAST NIGHT AND YOU ARE NOT ANSWERING AND THE RECEPTIONIST TOLD US THAT YOU DIDN’T COMBACK TO THE HOTEL LAST NIGHT! WHERE ON EARTH ARE YOU? ARE YOU OKAY? WHERE ARE YOU!!!!”

I put the phone 1 inch from my ear coz my caller shouted really hard! I see wtf faces of the three Exo members with me.  And I just realized that I didn’t accomplish the number four in my to-do list.

“Claire?” I asked the person from the other line.

“NO IT’S ME GRACE. CLAIRE IS SLEEPING NOW.” Her voice kind of calmed down.

“Can I say sorry?” I waited if she will respond from the other line but I hear nothing, “Sorry I wasn’t able to pick up your calls last night. I was with Kris last night and we drunk are out. But I’m okay. I’m eating breakfast right now. Thank you and sorry for worrying about me, Grace.”

I heard a sigh. “THANK GOODNESS. WE THOUGHT… ah. Nothing!”

Wait, Grace is a fan of Tao. WAIT. “Can I video call you? I want to see you! I miss you!”

“Okay wait.”

I hold the mic of the phone, “Tao ssi, this is my friend Grace. She’s a fan of youuuuu~”

“Ah jinjja? I want to see!”

“Wait, let’s surprise her! Kekeke” I started to giggle that spread among us.

“Can you see me now?” Grace asked from the other line.

“Ah yes!” I faced my egg phone. “I miss you Grace! Look what I’m eating now for breakfast!” I put the camera to the kimbap I was eating a while ago. “It’s soooo delicious! I hope I could send you this through video call. Hahaha!”

“Don’t tease me, Ace. I’m getting hungry!”

We laughed.

“And guess who prepared this awesome breakfast?”

“You?” She guessed.

“Nope. Wait.” I slowly move my seat beside Kyungsoo. “Tenen!” Kyungsoo’s face visible on the screen now.

“D.O?!” She almost screamed.

“Hello! I’m Chef Kyungsoo.” Kyungsoo introduced himself cutely. I can’t help myself to fangirl beside him. OMG.

“And yep, Kyungsoo chingu prepared the delicious breakfast we’re having now.” I send her eye signals to calm herself down coz there’s more!

“We?” She asked.

“Yep!” Then I moved the cam for her to see the three Exo members. Then I gave the phone to Tao.

“Ah!” I heard her and she was lost from the screen. LMAO. So this is how a fangirl reacts? HAHA.

 

 

I wasn’t able to wait for Kris to wake so I decided to go back to the hotel after breakfast. I just wrote a letter to Kris and to manager hyung. I also thank Kyungsoo for the amazing breakfast and Tao for having an early morning fan service with my friend, Grace. I left the Exo dorm while the others are still in their dreamland. So I just bid farewell to Luhan, Tao and Kyungsoo.

I meet Claire and Grace at the hotel and as I promised, we went shopping in Myeongdong and we visited BWCW exhibit. My second time, but the feeling is like my first. We spazz on the items of our biases. And this is how I wanted to do during my first. I realized that spazzing alone is no fun. Everyone needs someone to be with them and enjoy!

Claire and Grace went somewhere in Insadong to meet a friend so I decided to go to SM Ent to visit Kris as I promised in my letter early this morning. I found them practicing Growl for their M Countdown performance. Manager hyung invited me to go with them to the music program and watch them live. I can’t agree more with him. I’m an Exo fan!!!

I settled myself one of the audience and feel everything that I’m watching. During rehearsals, Exo members are all so dorky and chatting with their fans. I’m so happy to see them on stage! Then the next performer rehearsed. I felt my egg phone vibrated (PD nim asked everyone to silent our phone) and I saw Freak is calling me thru Kakaotalk.

“Why?” I picked up.

“Can you come to our waiting room?”

“Why?” I have a good seat here! I don’t want!

“Please!”

Ugh, “Fine!”

Manager hyung guide me where is Exo’s waiting room and as I open the door, they were all playing around.

“Hi Ace!” Baekhyun greeted me.

“Hi! You guys were awesome during the rehearsals!” I blurted out cheering them.

“Kamsahamnida~” They chorused.

“Ace, let’s have a bet.” Kris walk near me.

“What bet?” I asked. Why is he so random? He asked me to go here just to have a bet? I gave up my good seat from the audience just to have a bet?! Ugh.

“If we win today in M Countdown, you’ll treat us dinner tomorrow.”

Everyone in the room cheered upon hearing Kris.

OMG. I don’t have any choice! As if they will not win? Duh. Growl is big time!

“Okay, if you guys win, I will treat everyone dinner but you guys should do an aegyo during encore. And the most aegyo member will have an additional special treat from me.”

Everyone goes on a chaos.

 

 

And as expected, they won in M Countdown 130905. I have to treat them tomorrow’s dinner and Luhan will have an additional special treat from me coz he’s the aegyo king this day. I. Cant. Handle. His. Cuteness.

We went back to SM Ent Building and they started to practice again. And I just watch again. Do they really need to practice even after their performance? I mean, the show already ended and there’s still tomorrow.

“Do you guys really practice every after the show?” I asked Chanyeol during their break. I can’t handle my curiosity whether they really need to practice or it’s just their own will to do it.

“Yes, we sometimes make mistakes on broadcast so we need to perfect the dance.” He replied cheerfully.

“Oh, daebak.” I commented.

He giggled.

“Ace,” Kris called, “I have a broadcast on Simsimtapa tonight with Lay. Do you want to come?”

I was tired from their M Countdown schedule and now, Kris and Lay still have schedule? “I don’t think I still can, Freak. I feel tired already from your broadcast.”

“Aish, you are still so weak silly head.”

“Whatever! Have fun on your SimTa broadcast then. I’ll just listen to it. Kekeke”

“How about you, going back to hotel?” He asked in a concerned tone, no teasing this time.

“I could just take a cab.” I replied.

“We will send her home, hyung.” Kyungsoo appeared on sight. Really Kyungsoo-ah? Feels. “Kokkjongma”

“Okay, bye! Take care silly head!” Kris bid farewell together with Lay.

 

 

After the practice, Suho invited everyone to have bubble tea and it will be his treat. OMG I love freebies! Some of the members go with Suho to buy the tea and the others lazily lie on the ground. I see Tao being vain in front of the studio mirror. LOL. Kai still on his dance moves even the practice already ended. Chanyeol walking near me with a guitar together with Kyungsoo. What’s up?

“While we wait for Suho hyung, DO and I will make a unit.”

I don’t understand a single word.

Chanyeol started strumming the guitar.

                If I told you I was perfect I’d be lying

                If there’s something I’m not doing, boy I’m trying

                I know I’m no angel but Im not so bad

                If you see me at the party conversating

                That doesn’t mean telephone numbers are exchanging

                I know I’m no angel but I’m not so bad…

                These beautiful girls all over the world….

 

My heart. It’s now melting. The moment Kyungsoo opened his mouth, I’m so into it. I. Cant. Even. It was beyond awesome. Kyungsoo’s voice is angelic. Chanyeol’s deep down ocean voice is heart melting. Please. Someone save me. I’m falling onto the pit. These two guys caught me and now burying me six feet under.

               

 

Day-4

I woke up with a smile from my bed. The Nothing on you song by Chanyeol and Kyungsoo last night is still echoing in my head. If this is called a hangover, can I have it forever? I could’ve recorded it. Gah. I want it on my playlist. Now and forever. Please! I will make those two sing again and I will surely record it in my phone.

I opened my laptop and check out Kris and Lay’s SimTa’s bora last night coz I wasn’t able to listen to it live. I was so drowned with Chanyeol and Kyungsoo’s song. OMG. I feel guilty with Kris. I watched some cuts with subs.

Shindong: You have no connection to Korea, so how come you decided to go here?

Kris: One of my friends was really interested in Kpop. Honestly, I like basketball, sports, a lot. I didn’t have any interest in being a singer.

S: So you come to Korea to become an athlete?

This is so funny! Shindong, OMG epic.

K: My friend told me about SM audition and pursued me to audition.

OMG he even shared that story on air! Ugh. Anyway, Kris is so adorable. Even he’s from a very tiring music broadcast and practice. Ah, I can’t deny I still like him. He hasn’t changed. And my feelings doesn’t change even it’s already a year I cut my contact with him. I guess, heart cannot be really taught how to stop liking someone.

 

S: So you have this doll similar to you given by a fan?

K: Ah yes. It’s so cute. I always bring it whenever we go overseas. And whenever there’s no one beside me in the plane, I place it there. It’s so cute.

I think I already saw that doll.

S: What did you name it?

K: Ah... Ace.

 

Seriously Kris? You named the doll after me? You’re crazy! Of all the names? You’re dead when I see you later!

Ring Ring!

“Hello?”

“It’s me, Ace.”

“Oh Luke seonsaengnim!”

“I arrived 1 day earlier to check everything.”

“Ah really? Shall I meet you today?”

“Are you not busy?”

“Yes, this afternoon maybe? I still have a dinner with some friends.”

“Oh. Did Grace and Claire arrive already?”

“Yep. They arrived safely yesterday. And we even had our shopping in Myeongdong.”

“Wow! You girls already!”

“Kekeke. You know, we only have limited time here.”

“That’s right; make the best out of it. So I’ll see you in the afternoon then.”

“See you at the shop.” Then I hung up.

Katalk!

I read my message:

                Ace, can you come in our music broadcast today? So we can have your dinner treat afterwards.

I replied:

Ah sorry Kris, can’t make it this time. I have someone to meet. I’ll see you guys on dinner! Just tell me what restau, okay? My treat. ^^

 

Ring! Ring!

The room telephone ring for the first time! Why is everyone trying to contact me eh?

“Hello?”

“Hello ma’am Ace good thing you’re already awake. There is someone looking for you here at the reception. His name is Dyodol?”

“Haha! Really? Okay, I’ll be there in a while. Thanks!”

 LMAO. Why did Kyungsoo used that name? Keke. So cute. And oh, what is he doing here anyway?

 

“Yo! Dyodol chingu. What brought you here?” I greeted him.

He eyed me from head to toe, “You just woke up?”

Isn’t it obvious? “Isn’t my pajama fashionable?” I giggled.

“Cute.” He commented.

DIE NOW KYUNGSOO. PLEASE STOP IT.

“I brought you these.” He handed me a container.

“What’s this?” I asked curiously as I open it. Woah, “Kimbap!” I can’t help myself from getting one and put it into my palates. The taste is no difference from the first time I tasted it!

“You can share it to your friends. You said you wanted them to taste it.”

Did I? “Sure!”

“There’s also kimchi omelet in there.”

“OMG thank you so much Kyungsoo! You’re my angel this morning!” I blurted out and suddenly become conscious that everyone is looking at me. Yay! “Aren’t you busy? You even come here.”

“I have nothing to do in the dorm and I think you would want a breakfast.”

“That’s so sweet of you. Thanks again! Ah wait, you want to go in our room? Let’s have breakfast together with my friends.”

“Can I?”

“Of course! You’re very much welcome. Let’s go.”

We started to walk to the elevator doors.

I pity myself for not dressing up. I look like a beggar beside Kyungsoo. He wore a black pants, a shirt and a black cap. I stare on our reflections on the elevator doors.

“You wear that cap to hide your face?” I asked curiously.

He nodded.

“Is it hard to be an idol?”

“Sometimes.” He replied one word.

I don’t know what he meant by that. And I don’t want to elaborate more.

The elevator reached ground floor and we are on 7^th floor in no time. I lead the way to our room. Room 709, indeed.

“Come in, I’ll check my friends—“

“Where were you Ace?” Claire cut me. “Oh”

I see her eyes gone wide as ever. LOL.

“Goodmorning Claire. We have a visitor and he even brought us the best breakfast in the whole world.” I introduced him.

“Annyeonghaseyo Claire ssi.” He greeted her.

“Oh goodmorning, DO ssi.”

“Is Grace already awake?”

“Not yet.” Claire responded as she prepare the dining area.

“I’ll wake her—“

“Ah, no. Kwenchana Ace chingu. Don’t wake her up.” Kyungsoo stopped me.

“Okay.” I can’t agree more with him. I so want to eat now! “Let’s eat!”

 

 

“Thank you so much DO ssi for a delicious breakfast!” Claire exclaimed as we finished.

“Yeah, Master Chef Kyungsoo kumawo~” I start to feel more comfortable with Kyungsoo.

“Ani, kwenchana.”

“Can I bring you to Canada? I want a chef in my house.” Claire joked. We LOL-ed.

Oh please. I want a Kyungsoo in Canada too. Exo members are so lucky to have Kyungsoo in their dorm! I envy them. Or can I just live with Exo to have a Kyungsoo breakfast every day? AAAAAAH~ Stop, Ace.

“Ah, Ace can you come on Music Bank broadcast?” He asked.

Why you and Kris asked the same? “Sorry I can’t Kyungsoo. I have to meet someone. I’ll see you guys on dinner. My treat, remember?”

“Ah, okay. See you then. Kalkke~”

“Thank you so much DO ssi!” Claire bid farewell.

“Thank you Kyungsoo-ah~ Exo fighting!” I mouthed playfully.

He smiled and waved.

“HOLY EFFF ACE! D.O IS SO GORGEOUS!” Claire burst out spazzing as soon as I close the door.

“I know right? If it’s not Kris, I would probably fall for Kyungsoo. He is so adorable!” I second emotion.

“Wait, so you mean… you still—“

“Yes.” I sighed. “After a year of cutting our communication and trying my best to forget him, I still ended up liking him ‘till now.”

“You think you should tell him that?”

“I wanted to but I’m afraid. And besides, he only see me as his little sister.”

“I feel you but I still hope Kris would know about what you feel.”

I sighed big time. Idek why. “I need to meet Luke Song seonsaengnim later. You guys want to check the shop before it opens tomorrow?”

“Ah no. I don’t want to be spoiled. We’ll see Luke seonsaeng tomorrow on the show.”

“Okay then. Let’s have dinner with Exo laters? My treat.”

“Really? You rich kid!”

“No! So are you going?”

“I and Grace will go somewhere important. Can’t make it.”

“Ugh, you guys always go wherever without me! Seriously Claire? You guys are up to something! Are you?”

“Huh? We just need to meet a friend in Insadong.”

“Again?”

“Yep.”

I rolled my eyes. I don’t even know who that friend is. Whatever.

 

 

 

I met Luke Song seonsaengnim at the shop and he even let me try the dress I’m going to wear at the show. It was perfectly fitted on me. That’s why I really adore him. He can make simple dress look perfect on someone. He’s one of the designers I look up the most. I was able to see the other clothes and everything is looking good. And I hope, tomorrow will be fine.

“Are you nervous?” He asked.

“Yes, seonsaengnim. You know it’s my first time. But I always tell you that I’m much honored to do it with you.”

“You’re a very talented youngster, remember that. And I bet this will not be your last.”

“Thank you. I love you seonsaengnim.”

 

 

 

 

I received a Katalk message from Kris that says they’ll meet me at the hotel lobby after the broadcast for dinner. But gah, I’m not in the hotel! I called him immediately.

“Hey Kris, I’m not in the hotel.” I told him.

“Where are you then?”

“Somewhere here inMyeongdong.”

“Are you shopping again?”

“No! I told you I met someone.”

“Who is that?”

“You don’t need to know. So where are we going to meet?”

“Uh, are you done with your meeting?”

“Yep.”

“We’ll pick you up there.”

“What? Are you sure? This place is crowded. Ask manager hyung first.”

“He already agreed. Just wait in a while there. We’re on our way.”

“Seriously?”

“Yep!”

 

 

“Order whatever you guys want.” I told them. Let’s just say it’s my treat for them being a winner in every music program they promoted. “This might be the last meal with me.”

“Why? Are you going back to Canada?” Kris immediately responded. Funny how fast he reacted when it comes to me, flying back to Canada.

“Tomorrow is my last day here. Sept 8^th in the morning, I’ll be flying back to Canada.”

“AWWWW Kajima Ace ssi~” I heard some say.

“Please stay more days. Kris hyung will be sad.” Chanyeol mouthed.

“I’m really happy to meet Exo. And also manager hyung. Thank you everyone for taking care of me.”

“I want to cry.” Baekhyun uttered.

“Please, no cry babies.” I teased.

“Ace ssi, what will be Luhan’s special treat?” Lay asked diverting everyone.

“Ah yeah, whatever Luhan wants.”

“Ah Jinjja?” Luhan looks more excited.

“Yep.”

“Will you sing for us?” He requested.

What?

The food came. Everyone changed their mood and forgot about me going back to Canada and Luhan’s request. Saved. They all look excited. Kris stood up suddenly and walk out of the room. I didn’t mind him though. He doesn’t look upset anyway. I gestured everyone to start to eat. And so they started.

Seeing their eating manners, it can really be my appetizer. It makes me drool to whatever they are eating. OMG. Feels. I can say that I’m still not immune to Exo feels though I met them several times already.

“Ace” I see Kyungsoo giving me a bowl of noodles with chopsticks.

“Thanks!”

I stare at my meal and really don’t know how to start eating it. This will be my weakness -- chopsticks. I can’t use chopsticks that much. I swallowed my saliva as I see Kyungsoo and Luhan are eyeing me waiting for me to taste the food. PLEASE. I. NEED. HELP. I bravely hold the chops and pretend that I’m stirring the noodles. Holy, I see chili peppers. I forcedly swallowed a bunch of my saliva again.

I tried my best to pick up the noodles using my chops and I succeed! I did taste the noodles. Ugh, it’s so spicy to the point I swallowed it right away. But I like it. I check everyone; they are enjoying the food except for Luhan and Kyungsoo in front of me. They seemed to look suspicious of me not liking the food. But no, it’s not that I don’t like it, I just don’t eat much of this kind of food.

“Are you okay?” I heard Kyungsoo.

“Ah, ne!” I fake a smile. Gah, my tongue is burning with spiciness! I took another taste of the noodles and successfully swallowed it right away.

“ACE!” I was taken aback when I heard Kris. He run to me and check my food. “Did you?”

“What?” I asked confused. Everyone’s eyes on us.

“Did you?” He gestured eating with his fork on his right hand.

“Yes, why hyung?” Kyungsoo answered for me.

“Aish.” He checked my bowl of noodles once again. “This is Jjamppong, do you know?”

“I don’t know.” I replied bluntly. “But it tastes good Kris. I never tasted this kind of food before.”

“Yes because you’re allergic to chili, remember?”

“I know. But can’t I try just once?” I asked him irately.

“Remember what happened to you in Canada when you secretly eat ramyun?”

Yes. And I will never forget it. I was almost killed.

“I don’t want that to happen again, Ace. So please. I’m worried.”

I feel guilty, “Sorry.”

“I ordered something you might like. Here, samgyeopsal.” He handed me a plate of meat. “And here’s your fork and spoon. I know you can’t use chopsticks.”

“You still remember.” I mumbled.

“I never forget.” He mouthed, “This is how you eat this.”

He put the meat on the cabbage, add some onions and garlic and rolled it. “Say ah” He open his mouth widely.

Huh? I do what I see. Then he put it inside my mouth.

My heart. Please. Stop.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day-5

My Last Day.

1. Make the show Daebak.

 

Today is the day of the fashion show Luke Song seonsaengnim produced with me, in charge of the accessories. This is such an honor for me to collaborate with a known Korean Fashion Designer. I even got a chance to place my self-designed accessories in his shop in Myeongdong opening also today after the show. I’m nervous too coz I will walk with him after the show and he told me that he’ll officially introduce me to the fashion world.

“Are you ready?” Luke seonsaeng asked. We are both positioned at the backstage as the models have their final walk on the ramp.

“I’m really nervous.”

“Everything will be fine. Be yourself on every single bit of the time. Let’s go.” I linked my arms around his left.

I walk with my mentor on the ramp with a very bright light focus on us. I can’t see people from the ramp but I hear cheers and sounds of camera taking pictures. As we reach the end of the ramp, the bright light toned down and it’s the time I saw a lot of people, audience, watching the show.

“Hello everyone! Thank you for coming over to my fashion show entitled Goodbye Summer!”

I hear applause as seonsaengnim greeted everyone.

“And guess who is with me?”

I smiled and make a bow.

“This young lady collaborated with me to accessorize my creations. Did you all see the drop dead necklaces, rings and earrings? That was made by this pretty lady beside me. She’s also the one who named this fashion show as Goodbye Summer. Everyone, this is Ace Chan!”

I hear cheers and applause.

“Annyeonghaseyo, thank you everyone for coming here at the show. I’m really thankful to Luke Song seonsangnim for bringing me and my designs here in Seoul. It’s such an honor for me.”

“And as I pronounced earlier, we will be opening a branch in Myeongdong where you can find all the clothes and accessories from the show. Ace Chan’s designs will be displayed there too. Please anticipate the opening later after the show.”

My nervousness disappeared. My stage fright was also gone in an instant.

I read the words what is written on the paper PD nim is holding, “Also, Luke seonsaengnim and I will have a signing event at the opening of the shop in Myeongdong.” Seriously a signing event? “I don’t even know I will have a signing event later. Haha.” I giggled.

“Why is that Ace Chan ssi?” A reporter asked below the stage.

“Ah, coz I’m not an idol to do such thing? Kekeke. I don’t even know if there will be anyone who wants my sign.”

LOL. I heard laughter from the audience.

“Of course you’ll have! Look over there, Ace Chan ssi, you got followers.”

I looked where seonsaengnim pointed.

Omo. Is that for realz? Wow! “OMG! I didn’t know! Thank you guys for coming over here! Let’s meet later! Keke”

“Ace Chan ssi, are you aware of the Kpop Music?”

“Ah yes, I listen to Kpop music.”

“May I know who are the idol singers you’re listening nowadays?”

“Currently I’m interested in EXO but FX’s Goodbye Summer feat. EXO D.O is always on repeat in my playlist.”

“Oh, is that why the show is entitled as Goodbye Summer?”

“Somehow it influenced me. But Korea now is about to say goodbye to summer, right?” I chuckled.

“True, you’re a witty young lady.”

 

After the interview, we transported to the shop in Myeongdong for the cutting of ribbon in the opening. The outside of the shop is already crowded, waiting for the shop to open. The staff gave us scissors and signaled us to cut it at the same time. Everyone cheered and a song played from the inside of the shop. Luke seonsaengnim invited everyone to come inside the shop and I also followed. I did not notice the small table at the corner yesterday when I came here. The staff led me to that corner to do my mini signing event.

I learned that the people who cheered for me from the show are my blog followers. They found out about the event from the event schedule posted in Myeongdong. They are really awesome! It’s my first time to meet my followers and also do this kind of signing event! We also took pictures with their cam and also, I need to capture this kind of moments with my own cam too!

Suddenly, the song inside the shop played XOXO. I freeze for a while and so my followers tease me. Yeah, they know me being a fangirl of Exo.

The staff gave me a mic and asked me to go to second floor where I could see everyone from the top view. It’s so crowded, OMG. A lot of people came over. I’m really glad they make time. Am I going to host the event now? I feel like I’m going to host with this mic with me. LOL

Then Goodbye Summer played.

OMG. Feels.

I saw Kyungsoo appeared from the fitting room. Is he hiding there all the time?

Wait. Are we… going to sing? He started and gestured me to sing. Oh please! I did not even practice!

Gieokhae bokdoeseo tteodeulda gachi honnadeon uri dul
Beolseomyeonseodo wae geurido jeulgeowonneunji arasseo
Geunal ihuro… urin neul …
Ssangdungi byeoljaricheoreom neon na naneun neoyeosseo

Joreophagi jeonnal manhi uldeon neo namjarago kkuk chamdeon neo
Hago sipeotdeon mal motago tteugeowotdeon geu yeoreumcheoreom annyeong

Chinguraneun ireum eoneusae miwojin ireum
Gamchudeon gamjeongeun jigeumdo apeun bimirui gieogil ppun
Uri sain jeongnihal su eomneun sajin bomyeon gaseum arin story,
I’m sorry yeoreuma ijen goodbye yay-yeah

What do I say we didn’t have to play no games
I should’ve took that chance I should’ve asked for u to stay
And it gets me down the unsaid words that still remain
Sijakhajido anko kkeutnabeorin iyagi

Chukje majimak nal neoui noraedo areunhan yeoreum badado
Hamkkeraseo sojunghaetdeon mam neujeoganeun bam haneulcheoreom annyeong

Chinguraneun ireum eoneusae miwojin ireum
Gamchudeon gamjeongeun jigeumdo apeun bimirui gieogil ppun
Uri sain jeongnihal su eomneun sajin bomyeon gaseum arin story,
I’m sorry yeoreuma ijen goodbye yay-yeah

Baby oh no oh oh honjatmariraseo mianhae
Oh sasireun neol saranghae yeah
Sumgigo itdeon oraen bimildeul
Charari deulkyeotdamyeon neoreul pume anajultende

Chinguraneun ireum eoneusae miwojin ireum
Gamchudeon gamjeongeun jigeumdo apeun bimirui gieogil ppun
Uri sain jeongnihal su eomneun sajin bomyeon gaseum arin story,
I’m sorry yeoreuma ijen goodbye

Chinguraneun ireum eoneusae miwojin ireum bomyeon gaseum arin story,
I’m sorry yeoreuma ijen goodbye ya-yeah

Lalalalala lalalalalalala
Lalalalala lalalalalalla

 

OMG. This, I don’t even know how. I hear cheers from the first floor. I didn’t dare to look at them coz I’m so friggin embarrass! Who planned this? I’m not aware of this! No one told me this will happen!

“Congratulations, Ace.” I heard a familiar voice.

“Kris!” I was surprised to see him and Kyungsoo here at the opening.

“Why didn’t you tell me about this? If it wasn’t for Grace and Claire, I will not know.”

Grace and Claire? So they planned this?

“Congratulations Ace.” I heard Kyungsoo.

“Thank you. Thank you to both of you.” I can’t thank them enough for coming for the launch.

“I’m so proud of you Ace.” Kris gave me hug that I welcomed.

This is my weakness. Please Kris, if you do this—

“Listen, Ace.” I heard his serious tone.

I do what I told to.

“Why did you not contact me for one year?”

Why? “I was busy.” I lied.

“I know what the real reason is.”

“No you don’t.”

“You know what kind of emails I sent you?”

“No.”

“Of course you don’t. You don’t even care to check your email.”

“Sorry.” I feel his disappointment. Apologizing is the only thing I can do.

“I miss you so much, Ace. I miss you so bad.”

“Stop Kris, you don’t know what I feel—“

“I don’t care how you feel now. I will tell you now, I like you. I love you.”

He let go of me and hold my face with his bare hands. I can see his sincerity through his eyes. I left with no words to say.

“And I am so upset for not contacting me. I came to the point of hating you.”

Tears started to flow from my eyes. I didn’t know. I really didn’t know Kris.

“But the moment I meet you again, my hatred was gone in an on the spot. I still like you. And I even love you more.”

“I’m really s-sorry, Kris.” I tried to contain my tears, “I didn’t know. I really didn’t know.”

“I don’t know how it started. I just know I started to care about you and I always want to be with you when we share dorm back in Canada. I want to take care of you. And as you get old, I want to be with you.” His words are heating my heart up. “I didn’t tell you yet coz I think you’re too young for it and I promise to myself to wait for the right time. But I think it’s too late.”

“It’s never too late, freak.” I uttered slightly smiling.

“What do you mean?”

“I don’t really know what is love until this day.” I gather my courage to start confessing, “I dared my heart to stop beating for you for a year. I didn’t contact you. I suppressed any thought of you. And I thought I conquered it already. But all this time, I was just lying to myself coz my heart still beats for you. I can hold back thoughts of you and pretend but I can’t perjure my heart. I love you. I love you too, Kris.”

 

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