Dear diary,

They treat me like a pest. Avoided me like plague. They cursed at me like I was the devil itself. They said that they didn't need fans like me, that I will just hurt their oppas. What can I say I guess I can't control myself around them, my world started to revolve around them, I may have liked them in a whole new level. I am not satistfied by just watching them from afar, I want them for myself. Maybe I am one of those people they call as saesang fans.