Fat Cat - Is Being Pretty Everything

Oh oh oh ohohoh 
Oh oh oh I'm beautiful You're beautiful

Men are all the same these days
They only like pretty faces
Why is every single guy like that?
Other parts of me are prettier
But they're not parts that can be seen
And everyone says that I am ugly
I want to be in love now
I want to be obviously in love

I want an honest person
Is being pretty everything? Do you only look at the outer image?
Please stop now and look at my heart (look look look)
Am I good-for-nothing? Am I that unworthy?
That's so not cool, look at my heart (look look look)

Oh oh oh ohohoh 
Oh oh oh I'm beautiful You're beautiful

Do pretty faces feed you?
They become the same after a month
Why, why are guys like this?
"It's always the ugly ones who complain more"
Jerks who say that, please piss off
The outside and inside aren't always the same
I want to be in love now
I want to be obviously in love

I want a person who will only care for me
Is being pretty everything? Do you only look at the outer image?
Please stop now and look at my heart (look look look)
Am I good-for-nothing? Am I that unworthy?
That's so not cool, look at my heart (look look look)

I am the Fat Cat - are you curious about me?
Do you even know about the scars you gave me with your toenails?
Look at my eyes, look at my crying heart
Look at my two eyes that are waiting for your love

Are you a hotshot? Are you that much of a hotshot?
That's so not cool, look at yourself (look look look)
Is being pretty everything? Do you only look at the outer image?
Please stop now and look at my heart (look look look)

Oh oh oh ohohoh 
Oh oh oh I'm beautiful You're beautiful

 

Sulli laughed at the clip she was watching on her tablet, startling the other girls of f(x) that were resting in the practice room during their break.

Victoria sat up and pulled the headphones off Sulli’s head. With one eyebrow raised, she asked, “What’s so funny, Sul?”

“Just this clip of oppa,” she answered and giggled again.

Luna sat up and looked over at Sulli. “Which oppa and which clip?” she asked.

Sulli pulled off her headphones all the way and unplugged the headphones. “This one of Heechul oppa from when he was on X-Men, playing Of Course.”

They all crowded around her and the tablet… as they watched her replay the clip.

Krystal, Luna, and Sulli laughed, each holding on to their stomachs as even tears rolled down Sulli’s face.

Amber looked over at Victoria and frowned. Victoria reached over and smiled, gently patting her leg… though remained quiet. She stood up, shrugged and pointed towards the door. “I’m going to go get a drink. I’ll be back,” she said.

As Amber left the practice room, Victoria glared at the three youngest. “You three know better than that,” she said and walked out after Amber. She found Amber in front of the vending machine, standing there lost in thought. “You ok, Amber-ah?”

Amber turned to look at her unnie and forced a smile. “Ne, unnie. I’m fine,” she replied and deposited some money to get herself a drink.

“You know he’s out right?” Victoria asked, as she accepted the can of orange juice Amber handed to her.

“Ne unnie, I saw the reports yesterday.” Amber tried to still her expression. “H-he’s looking like the army didn’t affect him too badly.”

“Ne… you’re right,” Victoria said and held in a sigh at the dejected expression on Amber’s face. “He still hasn’t called or contacted you?”

Amber looked up at Victoria and shook her head, blinking to hopefully keep back the tears from falling. “Ani… he hasn’t. But it’s ok… I mean, he just got out and needs to focus on his fans, and s, and family and… I’m just a labelmate.”

Victoria frowned at the crestfallen tone of voice the usually chipper, happy-go-lucky rapper rarely used. She dragged her into an empty practice room and sat her down, sitting next to her. “You still love him don’t you?”

Amber adamantly shook her head. “Of course I don’t… I mean, I never did. It was a crush… just… nothing but a… crush.”

Victoria raised a hand and brushed back Amber’s hair. “You’re thinking about it, aren’t you?”

Amber looked up, eyes wide. “Thinking about what?” she asked, her head tilted to the side.

“His last words to you before joining the army?” Victoria asked, biting her lips at the memory of the crying Amber two years ago.

“I… I don’t recall speaking to him about anything before the army,” Amber answered as she moved to stand up, Victoria following suit.

“I do…” came a voice.

Amber and Victoria both turned to face the door, both frozen in shock at who stood there.

“I remember it well.”

“O-oppa,” Victoria said and bowed quickly. Her eyes went from the frozen figure of Amber to the man leaning against the doorframe.

“Annyeong, Song Qian-ah… can I borrow Amber for a bit?” Heechul asked, his arms crossed. Victoria looked at Amber and saw her shake her head… so was torn with what to do. “I promise… five minutes.”

Victoria slowly nodded, knowing she was going to get an earful from the younger girl later on that night. But what was she to do? She couldn’t exactly say no to her sunbae. “Hurry though oppa… Amber has to come back to the practice room soon; our break should be up soon.”

“Araso… I’ll have her back as soon as I can,” he answered and gestured towards the door. He closed the door once Victoria stepped out and paced his way towards Amber. His eyes looked over the young girl, wishing she’d turn to face him… but knew it wouldn’t be easy to have her do so. He watched her fidget… eyes looking out the window, her chest raising with the little breaths she was taking. Look at me… turn around so I can see your face… the face that’s haunted me the past two years…

Amber closed her eyes, took a deep breath and opened them to zone in on the clock on the wall. “I… I need to get back to practice,” she said and walked around Heechul towards the door.

Heechul held out a hand and stopped her when she was a foot away from him. “You’re… not going to look at me, Amber-ah?” he asked as he placed a hand on her chin, gently turning to face him. “Haven’t you missed me?”

Amber tugged her face away from his grip and forced a smile. “I’m glad to see you back, oppa. A lot of fans and SM family have missed you,” she answered and tried to step away from his hold.

“But you haven’t?” he asked, pulling her a little closer. His eyes roamed her face… a soft smile appearing on his face. “You’ve not changed, Amber-ah… your face is exactly the same as it was two years ago…”

Amber scoffed and pushed at his hands. “This ugly face? No oppa… it hasn’t changed,” she angrily said and turned around. “I need to go back… the members will worry.”

Heechul rushed forward and wrapped his arms around her, burying his face in the crook of her neck. “Miahne Amber-ah… miahne…”

Amber froze, unsure of what to do with his arms around her. “Wh-what are you apologizing for?”

“I never meant it Amber-ah… I never meant to say you weren’t pretty,” he said, his eyes closed as he breathed in the scent of the girl who had been in his thoughts the past two years away from the public eye. He had spent time with other people, some from their mutual friends, but made himself stay away from her.

She remained quiet, her heart in .

“I know how much it took for you to confess to me before I left for the army… I thought forever if I should have accepted it. I was surprised that you, someone who had so many friends and men fawning over you would choose to confess to me,” Heechul said, tightening his hold on her. “You truly shocked me Amber-ah… I had been considering how to confess to you before that.”

“Wh-what?” Amber squeaked out.

Heechul softly chuckled and turned her around so they could face one another. “I wanted to confess to you Amber… I did. I even asked manager hyung and your Donghae oppa about it… but they said that I should wait. You were only twenty… and have never really dated. It would have been unfair to suddenly confess to you, and make you wait while I was gone.”

“What… are you trying to say, oppa?”

Heechul took a deep breath and raised a hand to her neck, and one on her cheek. “I’m trying to tell you that I liked you Amber… still like you. But because of the circumstances… I couldn’t accept your confession. I had to remember my promise to manager hyung and Donghae… I had to promise to wait until I came out of the army to confess to you. But when you suddenly confessed… I had to… had to reject you.”

His eyes roamed her face… her lower lip between her teeth, her eyes wet with unshed tears.

“I was so wrong… I apologize Amber. What I said… just came out. I had hoped to make you angry and not feel that way towards me. Those words…” Me? Kim Heechul? Handsome, world-famous and loved by many women from everywhere… be with you? Ha… how can you expect me to date someone not even pretty? “They were so different from how I was feeling Amber. Please believe me,” Heechul said as he wiped a tear away from her cheek.

“I… I’m not sure I’m understanding oppa,” she softly said, only remembering the hurt she had felt when he had called her ugly –even if not using that exact word.

Heechul gently shook her, his emotions all over the place. “Are you still single, Amber?” he suddenly asked, his breath held waiting for her answer. He had spent most of the night looking up things about Amber that had happened in the past two years –he had forced himself to not pay too close of attention to news of the young girl in the two years he was away, otherwise it would have only killed him. He had seen all the fancams of her interactions with the numerous idols… some even from SM.

She raised her eyes to his, unsure of what was going on –she was thoroughly confused. But she silently nodded. “N-ne…”

Heechul smiled. “Do… you still love me?” His smile faltered when she looked back down and remained quiet. “I… I love you Amber… I’ve always been attracted to you… even before you debuted. After spending more and more time with Jinri and seeing you… I started to fall for you. Please trust me, Amber…”

Amber raised her eyes back to his. “Are… you playing with me now?” she asked, her voice quavering.

Heechul released an exasperated sigh and pulled her closer to him. He raised both hands to her face and leaned in to kiss her deeply… hoping to express every emotion he had held in for the past few years. After minutes, he pulled away and looked at her face. Her eyes, wide with shock… her lips, bruised and puffy from the kiss. “I am so not playing right now Amber… if you still like me, I would like to have a chance with you. I want to prove to you that I never meant those words… prove to you that my heart will only be yours… that I-“ Heechul stepped back and almost fell as Amber reached up and pressed her lips against his, startling him quiet. As he realized she was kissing him, he hugged her tighter and felt the hold on his heart loosen.

“Oppa… you wouldn’t shut up,” Amber said as she pulled away to look at his face. She placed both hands on his cheeks and smiled at his handsome grin. “I love you oppa… still do… and will always love you.”

Heechul chuckled and twirled the younger girl around and then groaned. “That was so… cheesy,” he said as he stopped twirling them around. “Like a scene out of some drama.”

Amber laughed and punched at his chest. “This whole confession thing… the one from two years ago and the one now does sound like it could have all been from a drama, oppa.”

Heechul raised an eyebrow. “Perhaps you’re right… but like most dramas… at least we have our happily ever after, ne?” he asked as he held out a hand.

“Ne, oppa…” she answered and placed her hand in his. “Are we going to have a happily ever after, oppa?”

He pulled her quickly to him, placing a kiss on her lips and smiled. “Of course… the princesses and princes always live happily ever after, pabo.”

She pushed at him. “Who are you calling a pabo?”

He smirked and reached to poke her cheek. “You… pabo…”

“Oppa!”

He chuckled and held on to her hands. “All right… you’re not a pabo…”

“Hmph,” she replied, but allowed him to intertwine their fingers together and walk them towards the f(x) practice room. She watched him open the door, and stepped in before turning to face him again. “Wait… am I the princess or are you?”

He glanced at the f(x) members and their surprised expressions before turning back to look at his girl. “I’m prettier, so of course you’re the prince,” he answered, pulled her in for a quick kiss on the lips and then ran out of the room as fast as he could.

“Yah! Opppaaaa!” she shouted, as she turned to face the giggling f(x) members. Her cheeks reddened and felt her pulse race… but was so happy. She raised an eyebrow at Sulli when she held out a hand and Victoria placed something in her hand.

Sulli laughed. “I bet unnie that you and Heechul would take longer than ten minutes and that you’d come back looking like you’d been kissed,” she answered and giggled. “Obviously, I was correct.”

Amber hmphed at her members and turned to head towards her spot, but couldn’t help but raise her fingers to her still-swollen lips. Ne, Sulli… you were correct. She bent to pick up her towel to wipe away the wetness of her hands and tried to calm her heartbeat.

“I mean,” Sulli continued… “I’m not good friends with oppa and not know some of his secrets.”

Amber rolled her eyes and threw her towel at Sulli… but laughed along with the others.

They all turned to face the door as it opened again and a familiar head poked in. “Oh, Amber-ah? I’ll be waiting to take you to dinner later, so wait for me,” Heechul said with a smile. “Saranghae.” He quickly smirked at the others with a nod, and as quick as he popped in, popped back out.

Amber blushed but couldn’t help but smile. Saranghae oppa… saranghae…