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I saw the rain as it poured down.

I can remember those tears streaming from my eyes.

There was no light for me to hold or grasp.

There was only the darkness; the darkness that clouded  my memories and life.

Only the rain would cry with me, crying with sorrow and pain.

........

 

All my life I had felt that I had done something wrong, that I was always making the wrong choices.

I had no one I could truly trust, no one I could truly talk to, and no one who would accept me the way I truly was.

My heart locked all the ugly things I didn't want others to see.

I had created a barrier around myself so nobody would be able to reach me.

My heart wants to let go of everything and let my soul go free, but I can never open that door.

To smile and laugh like everyone else and to belong with everyone is a dream that can never be reached.

Too many things have happened and too many secrets have been spilled.

I can't go back to the life I once had.

And I can't move forward.

…...

The rain keep pouring.

….

I feel the pain and sadness falling

From all the broken and lonely hearts,

Wanting to be set free

And to find their light.

….

But someday the rain will stop.

And a new day will come.

And maybe when that day comes

I will be able to see myself

And be set free.

 

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