That evening.
Make You Minenote: the entire fic is on Hyosung's POV. :3
Breathing out heavily, I talked to the moon with meaningful eyes as the stars glistened the dark nightsky.
Darn. I miss Joon.
Apparently, my oh-so-handsome boyfriend left Korea to pursue his studies abroad. I greatly understand everything. I mean, I shouldn't be the selfish one who wants him all by myself. I'm not scared that he would look at other girls. Caz you know, he's the only person who owns my trust too much. He will never cheat on me.
"BUT STILL I MISS HIM!"
I unknowingly whined out too loud as I gripped on the metal bar on the balcony. The air was still, yet it was shiverring. After all, it's February so it sure is snowing. But not this night as there are quite a number of stars above.
"Hyosung-ah~!"
I heard a familiar voice call my name. And I knew where to turn my head to face that guy. Kikwang.
Apparently, we'd been on same neighborhood since we were little babies. Our moms have a good relationship with each other but unfortunately, us, their sibs, really don't err.. get along that well. Hmm. Sometimes, yeah. But most of the times, not.
He's the one to blame. So don't give me that look.
"Mwoh? I'm not in the mood to be pestered around, Kwang." I told him before fixing my gaze back to the sky. Aishh. Why do we happen to have the same balcony meters apart?
"I heard from ahjumma that that guy already left you." He said with a mocking tone of voice. Glowering him a really awesome glare, I saw him hold up a peace sign as he flashed me a smile.
"Yah don't get mad. I was kidding." He said. I was about to turn around and leg back to my room when he called my name again.
"Jun Hyosu-"
"Really, Kikwang. If it amuses you to make fun of me because my boyfriend left me here alone, quit it." My eyes blurred a bit as I looked at him dangerously. I know I shouldn't be like that to him. Especially that he really hadn't done wrong at all. After a couple of years of being together, I'm actually used to him being like that.
"I wonder what is wrong with me." I inwardly heaved as I jumped to my bed and buried my face on my fluffy pillow, damping it with tears just a few moments after.
***
"Oh Wow! You sure you're giving this to me?" Sunhwa asked as she looked at me in beam. She was holding the fireworks show ticket Joon had given me before he left. It was a pity though, since I would enjoy the event if we're together.
"Yeah. I don't have anyone to go with anyways." I drooply said as I clasped my palms together. Sunhwa was looking at the tickets in awe but after awhile, her smile dropped as she handed the invitations back to me.
"Oh. It's going to be on the 14th? Mir and I already have plans. I don't think I can come to that event." She pouted, disappointed. Aigoo. I already asked Jieun and Zinger. Why do they all have to go out on that day?
Oh of course, I forgot. It's Valentines' and they all flippin' have their boyfriends with them.
Tightening my muffler, I crossed my arms as Sunhwa had already left me alone here in the park. Shouldn't I just ditch the event? Oh angels! I can never do that! The tickets cost gold.... Aish. Why did Joon have to give me these if he's just going to let me go alone?
***
Wearing a cocktail dress of my mom's taste, I slowly walked alone to the hotel's main hall.
I figured that it wouldn't hurt to go alone, right? So yeah. I took the elevator as it brought me to the rooftop, where the fireworks event was going to take place.
I tried hard not to get affected as I roamed my eyes around me. Apparently, all are in pairs. And it was as if, I was the only one who doesn't have a partner that night.
A lot of tables were arranged on the roofed area as droplets of snow fall lightly from the dark sky. Handing the butler my invitation, he was kind of surprised that I don't have my boyfriend with me.
"Where's Mr. Lee Joon?" He asked, but I just returned him a polite smile and told him that Joon is coming in just a short while. I seemed to have convinced him as he led me to a uniquely arranged table as I immediately noticed yellow tulips beautifully placed on the center of the table. The butler handed me a bouquet of the same kind of flower as I looked at him inquisitively.
"Did Joon do this?" I asked, my heart was racing as I couldn't help but to blush deeply. The man just shrugged as he gave me an unreadable smile.
"Enjoy the night, Miss."
***
So I did enjoy it somehow.
"One more glass, please." I asked the waiter and just as soon, there's another glass of red wine for me again. I was a little dizzy as all the couples dancing to love songs on the dancefloor looked like faltering on their steps. My eyes were withering as I gulped in huge amount of alcohol again. If I remember rightly, it was my second bottle if you sum all the glasses I'd drunken.
"Hyosung-ah, is that you?" I heard Kikwang asked. Omo. Kikwang? Oh gosh. I'm clearly hallucinating.
I chuckled to myself as I buried my head to my crossed arms against the table. And that's when I felt a nudge on my shoulder.
"Yah. Hyosung-ah."
Oh, that's Kikwang again.
"Stop bugging me, will you?" I mumbled against my pursed lips as I kept my head lowered. But Kikwang wouldn't just stop!
Sighing, I held my head up as I looked at him with my eyes half-opened. And indeed, he was there... Sitting on the seat where Joon was supposed to be... His eyes were looking worried as he gazed back into my own eyes... His surprisingly looking so handsome with that suit he was wearing.
"Oh, so you're real. Did you come here with your girlfriend?" I asked before holding the glass of wine but froze as Kikwang held my wrist and took the glass off me. He drank it all before returning me the now emptied glass.
"YAH! Why did you do that?" I scoffed as I glared at his direction. He wasn't smiling like what he usually does. Instead, his eyebrows were knitted as if I'm a child who did something unforgivable.
"You're drunk."
"No, I'm not!" I rolled my eyes as I coughed a little. It was getting a bit chillier as the icy air of the open area breezed to my very skin. Kikwang stood up and I was relieved that he's leaving me alone.
But guess I was wrong as I felt a comfortable feeling as heat followed after. And it's a little too late when I realised that Kikwang's coat was covering my shoulders.
"You might catch a cold." He whispered as he settled back to his seat again. I sniffed as I looked at him suspiciously.
"Why are you here?" I asked as I raised an eyebrow. He let out a sharp cackle as he peered back at me. "Because you're here."
"You're not making any sense at all." I snickered as I raised my hand to order for another glass of wine. And before the guy could protest, I immediately blurted, "Promise. It will be the last glass for the night." And then I pouted. I know how irresistable I can get.
"Hyosung-ah, did you ever consider breaking up with Joon?" He asked out of nowhere. The violin was playing a relaxing music on my ears as I hummed to it. Kikwang was waiting for my response and I could just laugh at his face.
"You look funny." I spat as I carried on laughing out loud. Kikwang glared at me and I was surprised when he stood from his seat and towered over me. "Let's dance."
"I don't know how." I honestly said as I looked upon him, shaking my head. But I was left with no choice as he tightly gripped on my wrist and put me into a stand. He removed his coat from my body as he held my hands this time, making me blush for a short fraction of second.
His soft hand led me into the dancefloor where only a few couples were dancing to a certain love song. I felt my head hurt all of a sudden as my eyesight was faltering and blurring which made me dizzy nonetheless. Kikwang directed both of my hands to his neck as I felt his wrapped around my waist.
"Can I lean on you? I'm dizzy." I asked as I buried my face on his warm chest and closed my eyes right at that instant. I wrapped my arms even more to his neck as I appreciate the warm feeling this closeness was giving me.
"You can always lean on me. Even if you're not feeling dizzy." He mumbled, hugging me tighter. We didn't even sway to the music, we just stood there, embracing each other like we're a true couple. While I kept my eyes close, I was surprised when I noticed how fast his heartbeat was. I mean, really. It was beating so rapidly I thought it was going to explode.
"Kwangie, your chest is pounding so hard." I told him with a mocking voice. I pulled away from him as I snickered back at his shy face. But he just lowered his head and was about to speak when suddenly a whistling sound cutted him off.
"Fireworks!" I chimed as the fiber glass roof was filled with different colors. The sight was blurry but still, it was beautiful. As the sparks of the fireworks covered the whole place, I couldn't help but to excitedly turn back to him as I held his hand tightly.
"Isn't the sky pretty, Joon?" I smiled brightly at him but was surprised when I realised that it wasn't Joon at all. Kikwang frowned in rather disappointment and that's when I took the initiative to unclasped our intertwined hands.
"Oh 'm sorry." I muttered apologetically as I avoided his sad eyes. It was weird how he's acting that way. I mean, it's like, I've done something that hurt him too much.
The fireworks illuminated his plum face and that's when I my heels and pranced back to my table to get my bag and exit this really awkward scene.
But I was suddenly twirled around when I felt a hand holding my waist. Kikwang pulled me closer until our faces were just an inch apart from each other. I swallowed as my eyes most probably bulged out from their sockets. I didn't noticed that my hand was on his chest as I was busy studying his features. His eyes.. His nose.. His lips.. Why do they look so perfect tonight?
"Jun Hyosung, don't you ever noticed how much I like you?" He whispered with sincerity all over his voice. It was still noisy as the loud sound of fireworks was still present. But I'm never deaf to hear those words. Did he just confess on me?
I tried to let out a chuckle as I squinted my eyes repeatedly. "H..hey.. I think you're-"
"No, I'm not kidding you. Seriously, Hyosung. I'm going crazy because of you." I was looking at him with my eyebrows furrowed back. Taking in what he just said, all the butterflies on my mom's garden seemed to fly on my empty stomach. It was weird. awkward. and yet, I can't help but feel affected.
"But Kikwang, I already have-"
"Don't say his name." He told with a firm voice as he inched closer, his breathings sent a tingling feeling as it touched one part of my cheek. The sky was still lighted colorfully but I decided to shut my eyes close.
All of it happened in just a matter of ten seconds but it seemed to last just a second. Kikwang's lips touched mine as we shared the sweetest static kiss which made me forget about Joon for a short period of time. Kikwang locked my waist in a hug as I my feet automatically tiptoed the whole time. The butterflies in my stomach had all gone crazier as my heart hammering its way out of my chest.
This is wrong. But how come it feels so right?
I half-heartedly pulled away as my eyes went all teary. I felt like a cheater.
"I.. I'm sorry, Kikwang. Let's just.. forget about this night." I told in a squeaky voice as I wiped some imaginary sweat on my forehead. This is all wrong. And it's so wrong to like that kiss.
The fireworks show halted the moment I started walking away from Kikwang. He was seemed to be frozen on his knees as I hadn't sense him following me. My finger trembled the moment it touched the bottom of my lip. Clasping them together, I quickened my pace as I found my way to my table.
Aish. That Kikwang!
Does he even know what he's saying? And it's not like I'm convinced with what he said at all. I mean, he's always the type who would play on my feelings all the time. He loves making me cry. It amuses him when I get pissed. He'll always laugh whenever my mom scolds me publicly.
See, it's impossible that he likes me.
But that kiss, I must admit, doesn't seem to belong to any of his big jokes.
"Why am I confused?" I questioned myself as I reached for my bag and took a glimpse of Kikwang's coat which was hung freely on the edge of the crystal chair.
"It's only Joon in your heart.." I told myself. A kiss wouldn't change anything.. Especially if it's a kiss from that guy who apparently has been my forever friend-enemy since birth.
"Hyosung. Let's talk."
Darn that voice... I breathed heavily as I firmly closed my eyes. I honestly don't know what will I do if I see his face this soon. All I know is that, he made me all confused which really doubled the dizziness of my head.
I heard my phone rang despite the noise surrounding me. I quickly rummaged my bag for my phone as I slowly walked to the exit of the hall. I don't care about Kikwang. Joon is on the line and he's the only one for me.
While waiting for the elevator ride, I answered the call as I composed myself as if nothing happened.
"Hey, Joonie! How-"
I dropped my phone as I heard it loudly banged against the tiled floor.
"Y..Yah. Why the hell did you do that?" I tried to heighten up my voice but it turned out in a rather low croak. Kikwang sighed before smiling bitterly at me. I was seemed to be left frozen as he stared at me so intently that I didn't have any guts to get angry at him.
"Can I hug you?" He asked but he didn't even wait for my answer. He just wrapped my whole body with his warm arms as he compressed our bodies together.
No words escaped my lips as I felt myself engulfed with his sudden mystic charm. As his soft breathe touched the exposed skin on my shoulder, I couldn't help but to get that tingling shivers down my spine.
"Are you serious when you said t..that you l..like me?" I mumbled as I heard his chest pounding all the while. I just let myself be embraced. It's like, my heart was all softened like a fluffy cotton candy with just a mere hug.
"I love you." He lowly voiced out as my eyes automatically widened the moment I heard it. Kikwang pulled off as he carried on gazing at my face like there's something amusing on it. His smile wasn't as bitter as a while ago.
"I love you ever since you put that bandage on my knee when we were still kids."
"W..What? Just because of that?" I laughed as all of it came flashing back on my mind. Okay, let's say that he may err.. loved me because of that freaken bandage..but really, that was a long time ago.. and I already have Joon now.
"Yes. So blame the bandage." He snickered before holding both of my shoulders and peering at me so closely that I felt my heart skip two beats.
"And I swear, while that Joon's not around, I'll steal you away from him."
I was speechless. He's totally back to that playful guy on my neighborhood. I was about to protest but was muffled when his face had gotten dangerously closer to mine.
"I'll make you mine."
And by that, he closed the gap between us as he laid a long, heartquaking kiss which started all the confusion in my life right now.
MY VERB TENSE WAS A CRAP. I know. >< but i'm so lazy to proofread! lol
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