Who Am I to Say [I'm Always Yours]

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Originally written for thenewlondoner as part of TheBrownieBunch B.A.P Fic Exchange on LiveJournal. 

 

Jongup isn't sure that Himchan is as invested in this as he is.

Foreword

The hotel room was warm, the Canadian sky was alight with the colors of sunset, and Moon Jongup was staring into space while his best friend and best man, Choi Junhong, hung up their tuxedos on the back of the hotel room door. Junhong was in the highest of spirits, happy to be halfway around the world and happy to be supporting Jongup; Jongup, however, was considerably less cheerful, which was unusual considering it was his situation that was cause for celebration.

“Tomorrow's the big day,” Junhong sang, turning away from the tuxes. He bumped Jongup and gave his arm an encouraging squeeze. “How do you feel?”

Jongup brought his attention back down to Earth. “I feel good,” he said. It was a complete lie, though. Good was about the farthest thing from what he was really feeling right now. He felt more like someone had dumped his stomach into a tub full of ice water and waited until it was frozen solid to shove it back into his body. Not to mention nervous, anxious, and terrified, besides.

“Just think,” Junhong went on. “This time tomorrow you'll be a married man.” He laughed at the idea. “Who would have thought, huh?”

“Yeah, who would have thought,” Jongup agreed. Who would have thought that at age twenty-six he'd already have a steady job, be renting his own apartment, and be getting married—to a man, no less. He was willing to bet no one would ever have thought up that last bit. 

“Are you sure you're okay, hyung?” Junhong asked, a concerned look on his face. “You look a little peaky.”

Jongup shook his head vehemently. “I'm fine, Junhong-ah, I swear.”

Junhong didn't look convinced, but he shrugged anyway. “If you say so,” he said, flopping onto his bed. To keep in line with western wedding superstitions, he and Jongup were sharing the room until tomorrow night, when Jongup would be moving into the honeymoon suite with his fiancee. “Just remember to enjoy yourself. This is your wedding, after all.”

“Of course.” His wedding. His and Himchan's. This was supposed to be a happy time.

So why couldn't he shake this feeling of dread?

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gingerlovesasians69
#1
Chapter 1: awh that was so cute!!!
suitofarmour #2
!!!!!!!

ehehe i'm so happy to see you've posted it all around~
Meakapike
#3
Chapter 1: I liked this! I like how Jongup was worrying that Himchan didn't want to marry him after all but when he voices his worry it turns out that Himchan was feeling the same way. Or more that Himchan was waiting for Jongup to realize he didn't want to marry Himchan after all. oxox
jongup_leejoon #4
haha, I just realized that it said complete. Nevermind about the update. lol
jongup_leejoon #5
Chapter 1: This is awesome.
Update soon.
SooWook13_SK5HaeSica
#6
Shaking Jongup xD
Update soon~!