“Yifan…I just– I can’t leave my job easily…I know I make you worried even now, please just let me explain–“

“I don’t think I’m going to need any explanation from you. I saw it clear as crystal in front of me,”

“You could’ve died! Why didn’t you run away when you have the chance?!”

“How the hell should I know the kaiju was behind me!? Maybe I would be grateful if you just let me got crushed by it instead of rescuing me!”

That did it.

The urge to shed his tears rushed back into him and his heart clenched painfully when Yifan said the last sentence. It felt like his heart was cut in deeply and pricked by hundreds of poisonous needles all together. His chest felt heavy and his breath picked up slightly faster and ragged than he was before. He was still tired and his adrenaline was slowly calming down. Working together with Yunho-sunbae inside the Jaeger was fun and all because the senior always tell him jokes whenever both of them were nervous.

It was easy for Yunho-sunbae, G.D-sunbae, Lee Minho-sunbae and the others for not worrying about their family because…they have none. The crew of Jaeger were their friends, teammates, and also their family.

While him?

…he had someone waiting for him at home.

Waiting for 5, almost 6 in a few months, years and still…he never came home.

“Yifan…”, he whispered brokenly as his voice chord closed momentarily when his breath hitched.

Was it wrong for him to save Yifan’s life?

He was still wearing the black and tight leather costume for Jaeger pilots. He was never comfortable wearing it and now, even felt worst. He felt weak and vulnerable. He never felt anything like this when he faced a kaiju. His hands were shaking; his lips trembled slightly. Hands balled into tight fists and his heart hammering inside his ribs almost painfully.

He was scared.

Scared dearly because he was afraid of…afraid of…Yifan’s feelings to him now.

This was the story behind one of the heroes of South Korea, who had rescued hundreds and even thousands citizen from Kaijus with their loyal Jaegers.

This was the story of Kim Junmyeon, a 26 years old pilot of the newly made Jaeger for 2 years namely Midnight and an ex-pilot for the very old and rusty yet still combatable Jaeger called Starry Flight, the last son of Kim clan and a husband of Wu Yifan. A pathetic one, he always thought these past years.

Even heroes have their own pasts and heart-clenching life story.