Luhan pov

I don't know when did I started to notice you. I don't know when did I started thinking about you. I don't know when did I was starting to like you. i don't know when did I started to realize that handsome face, that soothing voice, and that charming smile. i don't know when did I feel it all, all I know is, now I really love you. love everything you do, love everything about you. I know I was wrong to love you, I'm not supposed to be in love with you, my bestfriend. I know you'll never love me back. I know you just see me as a friend, nothing more. So, I decided to forget you, but, don't you know that it's very hard to do? Especially with you always being around me. When I say that you're my bestfriend, you look so happy. Do you know that I want us to be more than just a 'friend'?

I decided to pretend going out with someone, as a reason for me to stay away from you. So I can forget you. When I tell you that I have a girlfriend, telling you how beautiful she was, her melodious voice, her charming smile, you just smiled and congratulated me. Do you know that I just pretend to be happy? Did you know that I hope you will be angry and told me to break up with her​​?

A week has passed since I told you about my relationship with her. We still play together, talk about unimportant things, study together. Although I mostly hang out with my girlfriend and let you go with our other friends. Don't you know that is very hard for me to pretend that my girlfriend asked me to accompany her and cancel the appointment with you? But that's all to forget you, so you wouldn't know this feeling.