My Unreachable Star
My Unreachable Star
A/N: I read this one-shot a few months ago on Wattpad. It was originally written in Taglish (partly Filipino, partly English) by happyshayne. If you can understand Tagalog then you can check it out: http://www.wattpad.com/9047090-my-unreachable-star-oneshot#!p=1. I just translated it in full English so that international fans can read this amazing story as well. I wanted to share this one-shot with you guys in celebration of SNSD's 6th Anniversary. Hope you guys enjoy this 
(FULL CREDITS GO TO HAPPYSHAYNE ON WATTPAD. I didn't write this. I just translated it ^^)
A one-shot in celebration of SNSD's 6th Anniversary.
Six years with SNSD.
Six years with SONEs.
August 5 is not just about Girls' Generation.
Nor is it just about the fans.
But August 5 is about all of US.
Both idols and fans...TOGETHER.
This isn't your regular story about SNSD
Because this is a story of SNSD........and SONE.
My Unreachable Star
September 2009
My trusty K-addict friend tells me that I need to watch some K-dramas. Not that I’m not really fond of watching dramas and such but I just don’t really like Korean-related stuff.
Wait, scratch that. Maybe Korean, Japanese, or Chinese-related. Because…you know…I just don’t feel them. Lol.
But apparently, my friend’s taste and standards in dramas are very high. As in really. So I thought if I should watch or not. I won’t lose anything if I do watch, right? So there. I called her and asked her what K-drama would be good to watch. She was surprised at first, actually. She didn’t expect that I would be watching stuff like that.
After calling her, I got dizzy because she suggested a LOT. I didn’t realize that there was a very long list of K-dramas on the paper that I was writing on. Hahaha! Here’s to hoping that my weeknights would get a little more interesting!
I randomly picked 3 dramas using a dart. (Yes. I taped the paper onto a wall and threw three darts at it. Hahahaha!)
October 2009
I have never cried this much my whole life! Yes, let’s say that I am emotional but.....I just seriously cried at Meteor Garden, Full House, and Unstoppable Marriage. I don’t care if the others didn’t cry at it lol. But....I was really affected.
After hours of exaggerating, I decided to call Sam, my best friend. Then I told her everything I felt. And there....we shouted at each other as I ended my ranting because I still found Dao Mingsu handsome. Aigoo!
November 2009
I’m at the mall right now with Sam. We were looking around the stores, looking for some DVDs. I really got addicted to K-dramas. You can’t blame me for that.
While looking around, Sam and I passed by an electronic store. (You know…where they sell TVs, washing machines, and stuff. Ah! I don’t know anything about this. Sorry.) I suddenly stopped walking when I saw one TV that was playing K-pop.
Is it really K-pop? Because there were some girls there that were sisters. Okay kidding. They looked so alike. They looked like mannequins and they kept dancing and dancing. The only thing I understood from the song was “Gee gee gee gee baby baby.”
I danced along with the song and Sam just laughed at me. “Summer, those two girls are the ones from Unstoppable Marriage!” Sam said as she pointed at the girls.
Then it hit me as I realized what she was saying, “Oh yeah!”
I think the others made a cameo so I couldn’t remember them much.
After that, we went home. I found myself humming the song earlier from the electronic store. And because of my curiosity, I immediately searched “Gee gee gee gee baby baby” on Google.
And there, the results were...*drum roll*...the video I saw earlier.
I clicked the link to Gee – Girls’ Generation at watched the whole video...
...And that was where it all started.
November 2010
I just came home from the hospital, and I received the most devastating news ever.
I have this illness...and it wasn’t just any illness. It was much more than that...
But whatever. I can deal with it.
God made this happen because He has a reason.
So be it. If it’s meant to be, it will be...
---
Oh wait! I’ve been a SONE for one year now! I’m so happy. Really happy. I never realized that I could be this much happy my whole life! I’m also content with what I have. Hahaha! Well, wouldn’t you know? I can be happy despite every painful thing I’ve gone through these past few months.
December 2010
How pathetic…I can’t believe that there are people who support this. This is why our country’s music doesn’t grow and progress. Kids these days listen to the music of other countries instead.
Tss. They are pretty, but do they have talent?
Hahahahaha! Beautiful? Seriously? They just had plastic surgery! It’s very obvious! And their pictures look photoshopped.
This is stupid. They’re just wannabes. Wonder Girls is so much better!
One word: P A T H E T I C!
Those are just a few things that I see every day on the internet. Bashers here, bashers there. I am the ones feeling the pain for my nine angels.
These people don’t know how much hardships and how much training the members of SNSD had to go through to become SNSD themselves.
Sometimes I think...was my decision right to become an SNSD fan? Did I do wrong? Sometimes it’s just so hard to become a fan. I’m wasting all of my time just for them. Should I have doubts? *sigh*
Sometimes there are just some people that we dream to reach...but not once did we realize that we cannot even reach their hands on stage...
January 2011
It’s already the year 2011 huh? Aish. Time flies...
As of the moment, I’m at the hospital right now. I’m lying on the hospital bed and my mom and Sam are right beside me.
Sam is watching SNSD’s performance on tvN right now. But I don’t have the energy to watch with her so I dozed off to sleep instead. Or do I really just don’t want to watch them?
“Hey Summer! Are you coming on February 10? There’s a birthday celebration of the GG fanclub for Sooyoung. Of course, if it’s alright with your mom.” Sam asked me.
Oh yeah…it’s Sooyoung’s birthday on the 10th. Should I go?
No.
I wouldn’t benefit anything from that. I’ll just waste my time.
“I don’t want to go. I’m sick, remember?” I answered coldly.
Sam and mom were shocked by my answer. Even I was surprised myself. Aish...
Why is my love for SNSD slowly fading away?
February 2011
“Please settle down!” the MC said as we all sat down after singing Happy Birthday. “Before we end this program we have a surprise guest speaker for today...”
Where am I again? Oh yeah. I’m at Sooyoung’s birthday celebration. Sam just dragged me here even though I protested. Aigoo.
“May I introduce to you one of the most inspirational SONEs ever. She is Soshified’s genius founder with a really big heart. She had exerted her utmost dedication in bringing us international SONEs together and making it feel like we’re one big family, simply because that the one common bond we share is such a strong one. Ladies and gentlemen, let’s give a hand to Ms. Soy!”
Everybody applauded as Ms. Soy went up the stage and took the microphone. “Hello! How’s everyone doing?” she asked us.
“Good.” Even though it’s not...
Ms. Soy told us how she became a SONE and how she discovered Soshified. The others even cried. Overreacting much...
---
“Before I leave, I would like to share something with you all. I stumbled upon this post that I saw on Soshified the other day, and heck I was touched! So, here it goes...”
Suddenly, Forever (A/N: You can click the link and listen to the song as you read) started playing…
“From sometime,
I started to love these nine girls called ‘SNSD’.”
“When I listen to their songs...
When I watch their stage perfs...
Unknowingkly, I was laughing and being energized.
As such, I was living with the name of ‘SONE’.
But one day, people said…
‘Your life is short,
Are you going to give away your ‘short life’ for them?
Are they going to recognize it?
They don’t even know where you live, how you live, and what your name is.
It’s all a waste of time and money.
GO AHEAD,
Follow them around, but think about what is going to be left.
You fool.’
Undaunted by those words, I confidently told them,
They…”
“…don’t know me.
But, since “I” know them,
I cheer for them.
They…”
“…don’t know me.
But since they know “me” under the name of SONE,
I cheer for them.
Because they are worthy
Enough to spend my “short life”
As a SONE,
I cheer for them.
It might be funny, but...
...they are our hearts,
And we are their hearts,”
“We can remember each other.
When the girls cry over hardships and loneliness,
SONEs will be there for them.
When SONEs are tired and exhausted,
The girls will be there for us.
I desire for endlessness,
But, because I know it’s an impossibility and a mere greed,
I carefully pray,
May they, Soshi,
Not lose who they are,
And healthily live on…
May So Nyeo Shi Dae
And SONE,
Live forever in each other’s hearts.
Right now….
Tomorrow….
Forever….
It’s Girls’ Generation.”
Little did I know, I was already crying without me knowing it. Oh wait, I wasn’t the only one.
It was a very touching and meaningful message. And because of that...
...everything I felt for them had returned.
July 2011
I haven’t told Sam exactly what my illness was. All she knows is that my head always hurts and it’s just a common sickness. *sigh* I don’t know what was worse: the fear of not living enough to achieve my lifetime goals, or the fear of painful medical treatments and dying young. It’s even a miracle that I’m alive right now.
I just listen to the songs of SNSD so that I’ll feel okay.
Sometimes there are just moments when I feel so down. But whenever I hear one of their songs, I feel so alive again.
Even if I simply see them on video, I jump around in happiness.
A simple “Hana, dul, set. Annyeonghaseyo SoNyeo ShiDae imnida!” is already a beautiful song to my ears.
Even when I just stare at the posters on my walls, I suddenly smile like an idiot.
Even just 5 seconds of Sunny’s aegyo, I become happy.
I just hear Jessica and Tiffany speak in English, our house explodes because of my craziness.
Do you know that? Even with the simplest of things...they affect my emotions. At first I’m so happy, then suddenly I cry. For me, those are just one of the simplest things that define me as a SONE.
August 2011
GIRLS’ FREAKING GENERATION. SO NYEO PACKING TAPE SHI DAE. SO OH SWEET SHI.
SOSHI
IS
COMING
TO
OUR
COUNTRY
WHAT?
WHAT!
WHAT?!
Somebody slap my face! Is this real?! Or just another rumor? I don’t want to get my hopes up! But I also saw the other fanpages post it too. Our country is included in SNSD’s WORLD TOUR! Am I still alive?! Lord, are you serious?!
I was already about to smash my laptop and party real hard when suddenly...
I found it hard to breath. My head was throbbing with pain.
Oh God, please not now. I don’t want to die just yet.
I h-have to attend t-the c-concert...
J-just a l-little more t-time...
P-please...
---
Sam’s POV
“You are Summer’s mother, if I’m not mistaken?” the doctor asked Summer’s mom.
We’re at the hospital right now. My best friend was rushed here because she was found unconscious in her room.
“Yes, Doc. But um....is my daughter okay? How is her condition right now?”
“Well as you can see, miss. The pills that you have been giving her aren’t effective anymore. It’s getting more and more difficult because the tumor in her brain is growing. So as of now, she’s not at her safest state. She’s in between the thin line of life and death. We don’t know when, but Summer needs surgery as soon as possible.” The doctor informed us.
We cried together.
We cried because maybe tomorrow or the next, Summer might just be gone...
November 2011
Sam’s POV
“Hey Summer! You’re so stupid! You never told me that you had brain cancer and now you’re just sleeping there?! You just came out of the hospital last October and now you’re in a freaking coma?!” I cried while shouting at my unconscious best friend on the hospital bed.
I kept on crying until my eyes had gone bloodshot red as I laid my head on Summer’s hospital bed.
Summer’s POV
Huh? What’s that? Somebody’s crying...
Slowly, I opened my eyes until I realized that I’m at the hospital again. But there’s someone beside me who was crying. Who’s this?
*poke*
*poke*
*poke*
The person suddenly lifted her head and..........................smiled?
“Summer!!! You’re so ugly!!! Why did you only wake up just now?!” the person shouted as she hugged me to death until...
“Who are you?”
Sam’s POV
My jaw suddenly dropped open when I heard Summer’s question.
Oh my God.
Then she suddenly started laughing hysterically as she pointed at mockingly. “Oh my God, Sam! You should’ve seen your face! I was only kidding! It was just a joke! Hahahahaha! Are you on high or something? Hahahahahaha!”
What the effff?!?!?!
“WHAT THE HELL, SUMMER! I ACTUALLY THOUGHT THAT YOU DIDN’T KNOW ME ANYMORE! I HATE YOU!”
After my outburst, I don’t know how in the world I ended up laughing along with her.
December 2011
1 week and 2 days before the concert. I’m still lying here in the hospital bed and Soshi is already here in our country.
Wow! They arrived here so early.
But you know what, that’s fine with me. We’re breathing in the same air. (Bottle the air, guys! Lol.)
Oh yeah. There are so many flowers, albums, tickets, backstage passes (Yeah, that’s right! You heard me!), get well soon cards, and a lot of other things here in my hospital room. Almost all SONEs from my country and international SONEs helped together to trend #PrayForSummer on Twitter. Their reason? The hell I didn’t know why. Lol. It’s a long story. But all of that was possible because of my best friend, Sam. Really, what a great friend. I am so thankful to God because He gave me such a nice friend like her.
Sam and I are watching the news right now. So that we could be updated even though we can’t go to the concert, right?
*knock knock knock*
Someone’s knocking on the door. Aish. I don’t like being disturbed.
The door suddenly opened, a wild mother appearead! Lol.
“Summer, you have some visitors.” Mom told me as she smiled a smile that went all the way to South Korea.
She went inside and sat on the sofa. Then, behind the door, someone was hiding. I wonder who this is?
Correction. I wonder who these are?
They came inside. All of them were girls. They were wearing pink jackets and I couldn’t see their faces.
I counted them one by one. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9...
Oh my God.........could it be...
“Hana
Dul
Set
Annyeonghaseyo! SoNyeo ShiDae imnida!”
It was too much to process……………….
Oh dear God, am I still even alive?
December 2011 (Concert Day)
Sam’s POV
“Summer, they’re going to sing the last song now. It’s your favorite.”
We were at the backstage right now.
“Sam, don’t cry. I know it hurts but I’m enduring the pain also. I’m sure that she’s happy right now...” Summer’s mother took away the photo of Summer from my hands. “Just enjoy the show, okay? That’s what she told us before she left, remember? We should enjoy the show for her.”
I nodded as I let my tears fall down from my face. I quickly wiped them away and smiled as I glanced back on the stage.
The music was being played while the girls started singing, when suddenly......a video came up the screen.
Wait a minute....it’s Summer!
“Hello to the people who are watching this right now!” Summer smiled as she waved at the video camera. There are subs in the video. Maybe so that SNSD can understand it.
“One day after the lovely SNSD visited me at the hospital, I made this video because maybe sooner or later....I won’t be here anymore.”
“So here it goes....ANNYEONGHASEYO, SONYEO SHIDAE! I know that you may not understand me right now, but I know that someone made subs for this video so I’m sure that you’ll be able to understand me.” Summer laughed.
“It was 5th of August 2007 where it all started. You guys have been together for 4 years now huh? Wow! Who knew that you’ll last this long? Hahaha! 4 years of sweat, tears, laughs, smiles, sorrows, sleepless nights, hardships, and everything. 4 years since you came together. 4 years since nine angels came to this world. 4 years you’ve been carrying the name ‘Girls’ Generation’ on your backs. Funny, isn’t it? Because when you first started a lot of people were saying ‘Will they last?’. And look where you are now! Doing a concert and performing in front of SONEs!”
“The year 2009 came. That was the year I became your fan. That was also the year when your career reached its highest level. You’re at the very top! People thought that after that, nothing. Well, you proved them wrong, of course. During 2010, you were still at the top. It’s already 2011, and after a very long hiatus, people doubted again. ‘Will you still be at the top? What took you so long?’. But after we have waited for so long...BOOM! Again, you proved those people wrong. You guys are still at the top. It’s just that you climbed higher. World domination! It’s like you climbed up the stairs and we don’t know which is the highest floor.”
“Despite the fame, the money, you NEVER forgot your fans. Every day, you still proved to us that it’s still YOU GUYS. All of us knows that the Soshi Bond is forever. Maybe the next 5 years? Or 10? Who knows? You guys will always and forever will be GIRLS’ GENERATION. In every second that you guys are together, it just proves us that the Soshi Bond is getting stronger. And if it wasn’t for us, the fans, you guys wouldn’t be together. And if weren’t for you guys, SONEs can’t be together as well. The SONEs and Soshi is like a heart with a half in the middle. The other one can’t function without the other.”
“All my life, did you know that being a SONE was one of the best things that ever happened to me?
Oh wait, let me rephrase that. It IS the best thing that ever happened to me. And because of that I am very thankful.”
“Hey! To all the SONEs out there! Don’t lose hope, okay? You’ll reach your star!”
“It doesn’t matter if you weren’t there from the beginning. What matters is that you’ll be there...until the end.”
“And before this video ends, I want to apologize to Soshi because I may not make that come true...but here’s one thing that I’m sure of and that I can promise you...”
“I may not be there from the start,
I may not be there until the end,
But I promise you, my nine angels,
That I’ll be there…
Always.
Right now.
Tomorrow.
And forever.
It’s Girls’ Generation.”
THE END
A/N: I cried when I read this the first time............and the second time. I don't know if this made you cry or if it affected you somehow. But if it did then please share this to other SONEs. Let them feel how great it is to be a fan of SoNyeo ShiDae
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