You remind me of the space between our fingers that fit together perfectly





Today he said to me
maybe I will visit you again
in the winter
when the snow doesn’t
bare its teeth at me
and I agreed
because the last thing I wanted
to do
was to potentially burden you
I never
I would never want that
you don’t ask me
you don’t ask me what I’ve been doing
but as you kiss my forehead
you tell me that I’m yours
you tell me that you will
somehow
visit me again
you will not leave me
you give me all
all the promises and I
and I wish that I knew
If they are real, sincere and
and if you will carry them out

you don’t
visit me on
the first day of winter but
you visit me in spring
and no matter how many times I try to
remind myself that you do not
you may not really love me
but you remind me
of the cold wind that hits my face
or the leaves that float around me
in the dim autumn’s sunshine
or the sparkling ocean water
or the fizzy bubbles in the
lemonade water
or the way I feel my body tense up
or the way my stomach ties itself into knots
or the way my eyes light up when I see you
you remind me so much of the
of the daisies in the spring
the sunshine in the summer
the gentle breeze in the autumn
and the pure white in the winter
you are not what people
describe
you are not the hurricane
you are not the rain in the middle of summer
you do not melt
the icicles on the roof
nor do you slip up the pedestrians
on the road with your slippery ice
you are what so much more
and as I
fill myself with you
and as I
allow you to label me as yours
I know now that I am yours
and you are mine
if you leave me
it will be okay
because I will always love you
I will take care of you

today you told me
you would visit me in the winter
and as I
kissed your cheek
you grabbed my hand and
looked to me
with eyes so sincere
you said to me
you said
marr y me, sungjong-ah

marry me

surprising
but I cannot I say yes
I will never marry you
and he kisses me
we don’t need
papers and signatures
courts and approval
just say yes
just say yes

yes I whisper
yes

then we are
already married.

Today you said to me
I love you
and in that moment
I gave you everything.