“Let’s break-up”

“Why??”

“...I don’t love you anymore.”

“But, I love you!!!”

 

I opened my eyes with sunrays of bright morning shining onto my face.

 

“Ah.. Just a dream..”

 

I checked the time and CRAP!! I’m sooo late for work! I hurriedly took my towel and went to the bathroom. I showered fast, dressed myself, packed my uniform and left. So yeah, I left without eating breakfast and I wouldn’t be surprised if someday I will develop gastric ulcer. But right now, I’m thankful I didn’t have it.. yet. Lucky!

My name is Lee Sungmin, 22 years of age.. plus one on the following week. Yes, it’s my birthday next week. I work as a nurse for almost 2 years and counting in one of the tertiary hospital in the city. Do i have a boyfriend? Opseo! ‘cause i’m enjoying myself more.. loving myself more.. Single and happy!

After a week i’ll become.. something.. I hope i won’t age.. Arrggh.. Why time flies so fast?! Anyways, I think my phone just beeped. I checked my phone and read my message.

 

‘Do you have time next week? Can we meet? I’ll wait for your answer.’

 

I thought about it for a second... I just had a dream about you this morning and now your texting me. What. A. Coincidence.

 

‘Alright. Let’s meet up.’ I replied.

 

Okay. I regretted my reply as soon as I sent it. But, part of me wanted to see him... again. He is Cho Kyuhyun, my ex-boyfriend. Yes, my ex-boyfriend. We’ve been together for almost two years. He is a good guy but I guess fate didn’t want us to be together.

I admit, it was a bit awkward when we met again after a year, I think.

 

“Hi! Did you wait long?” I greeted him

“No. And I already expected you to be late just like the old times...” He teased. Okay. Memories.

“Yeah, right.!”

“Have you eaten?” He asked. He knows it very well... My weakness.. FOOD.

“Yes but my tummy is still growling like a tiger.”

 

He laughed first then invited me to eat. We went on a Japanese restaurant since he is very fond of Japanese culture. We ate while having chit-chats but then he noticed something.

 

“Oh. You bought a new phone!”

“Ah, yes.. Here, wanna see it?” I offered my phone.

He explored my phone like an investigator and was looking for something. Whatever, he won’t find anything. After dissecting my phone’s memory he gave it back.

“Here Min, Happy Birthday!” he greeted while handing me a gift?!

“You remembered?!” I exclaimed and somehow touched on this thoughtfulness.

“Ofcourse!”

“A memo holder? Ahm.. Thanks! There’s a tiny letter too, may I read it now?”

“Sure” He answered.

=o=o=o=o=o=o=

Dearest Minnie,

How are you? I hope you’re always fine though you live alone by yourself.

You know, I really missed you. And, I haven’t been receiving your Christmas cards anymore. Hehehe!

Don’t tire yourself on duty. Eat a lot. You should sleep well too.

Also, regards to your mom and dad. Take Care!

-Kyuhyun-

=o=o=o=o=o=o=

 

I smiled at him after reading his letter. Then we walked around the mall holding hands. Are we back together? Na-ah..

Days after we met, our communication had been constant. We’re talking again almost everyday and i’m starting to get overwhelmed with the attention. So one day,

 

“Can we start over again??” I shamelessly asked him.

“I’m sorry.”

“Oh...”

“I think I would be unfair to you if i’ll say yes because... there is someone else I like right now.” Kyuhyun explained.
 

Ouch! That hurts... i thought i was gonna drown on shamefulness. I was foolish! As always! Why did I even ask him. I wanna  hide away on a black hole.

 

“Why don’t you date her?” I asked and adding more salt to my wound.

“She’s taken. How come the person we like can’t like us back...” Is he kidding me?! Aw~ my poor heart.. then he continued.. “I hurt you again. I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.”

I thought about what to tell him but since sarcasm is all over me.. “You hurt me already, what can your sorry do?.” I answered.

“I’m sorry.”

“Would you stop saying sorry, Kyuhyun. I know you didn’t mean it.” I feel pathetic.

“And Kyuhyun, if ever I send you messages, you are free to not reply. I’m not obliging you on anything about me.”

“Why are you like that Minnie? You are an important friend to me. And, I finally got someone to talk to, someone I can open-up with.” He pleads.

 

Don’t you think he is being selfish?! But, I stick around and left our communications open. Stupid aren’t I?! And hopeless! I refused to move on, why? Because.. I still hope no matter how tiny tiny chance it is, that we might get back together. And I know myself pretty well that if i started to move on there’s no turning back anymore. I still continued to love him foolishly and without knowing, it was already two years now. But in two years, I learned to distance myself from him, i don’t send messages as often like before and i don’t think much about him anymore. Nice right? Time helped me!!

It took me a long time to forget you Kyuhyun-ah.. But now, I finally breakfree from my own foolishness. I loved you long enough... This is the last time I would think about you, I would care about you. I can now let go.. Thank you Cho Kyuhyun for not taking advantage of me, you have proven that it wasn’t wrong for me to love you, you’re a good guy after all! I can finally say this to you.. with a genuine smile..

 

...Thank you...

 

 ...And...

 

 ...Goodbye...