A/N: It’s been days since my last update…and sorry for making you wait… but here’s the longest update I’ve ever written and hope u can enjoy it… and as u already know…thz a lot if u leave some comments… ^__^

Eric's POV

The past two weeks have been the heaven for me. Every morning I would wake up with Pilkyo beside me, have decent homemade

breakfast prepared by Pilkyo, get a morning kiss from him before leaving to work, exchange sweet-yet-nothing texts with him during

working hours, have somebody waiting for me with the already-prepared dinner when I get home from work and fall asleep with the

loved one in my embrace every night. It feels better and more amazing than I thought to live with someone I love.

And, yeah, we have already “slept together” two times in these 2 weeks and the last time happened just yesterday. Although I had

to do a little initiating work but at last, our love and natural instincts took the lead and we have already been at one step higher in

our relationship. At first, it was awkward for both of us because we had never had that kind of relationship and well, in his case, he

had never had experience with both men and girls. That was why I was worried if I would hurt him or not but still, we had the most

beautiful “love making” ever and it was the most mind-blowing one for me although I had had many experiences with girls.

Moreover, the fact of my parents taking a vacation in Europe for the sake of my mom’s health has bought me a lot of time to stay

with Pilkyo without any worry. They left for Europe after 2 days Pilkyo had arrived and I have been able to spend all of my time with

Pilkyo in these days. And, of course, I have already introduced him to Minwoo and although Minwoo had seemed to be shocked at

first, being a cool guy and my best friend, he never showed any expression against Pilkyo and even tried to be friendly with him.

The next day Pilkyo had arrived to Seoul, I took a leave from the company and took him to shopping buying the things he would need

to survive in this city and to do some sightseeing. He looked so amused and excited like a child and it was not absolutely

overreacting because I came to know that he only had been to Seoul only once and it was when he was in middle school. That is why

he finds everything in this big city amazing and breathtaking.  

And today, we are going to the amusement park that he has always wanted to go. Even last night, when we were in worn out state

after “the activity”, he asked me what we should do in our amusement date in a so excited way that I could even see a glow in his

eyes. How could he have that much energy left when I could not even feel my legs?

Anyway, now I am in my car driving towards our destination with an over-excited big kid beside me, being bubbly and talking

non-stop since this morning. He even got up early to prepare a lunch box although I insisted to have lunch in a restaurant. He was

too enthusiastic in making kimbap assuming this date as a kind of picnic. Seeing a bubbly and lively Pilkyo again after his Granny’s

death makes me smile and want to shower him with hugs and kisses.

When we get the amusement park, a huge crowd of couples and families are already there since it is a holiday today. We just stroll

here and there in hand and hand without caring much about the surrounding, stopping at several arcades and rides until Pilkyo finds

something and literally drags me towards there.

It is no other place than the souvenir shop…

“Eric-ah… Look at these… Why are they all so adorable?!”

Pilkyo nearly squealed seeing headbands in various designs and even before I can reply him, he has already picked two or three

headbands and started trying to put on one after another. And, yes, the headbands are adorable but Pilkyo is more adorable wearing

those headbands. I cannot help it but just stare at him with full adoration for his sparkling eyes and beaming smile.

“Eric-ah… How about this? Or should I take this one?”

He waves two headbands in front of my face and wakes me up from my daydreaming.

“Umm? Ahhh…. Both of them are cute on you…”

“But I can’t wear both of them…”

He gives a little pout and makes my already-fluttered heart weak. But, in next second, his face becomes suddenly beamed and I

think I even see a light bulb above his head like in a comic. Then, abruptly, he puts one of the headbands on my head before I can

have a chance to insist.

“Waahh… I don’t think you can be cute that much… just wearing a headband…

“Yah… Pilkyo-ah.... Just buy for yourself… I don’t wanna wear this…”

“Why? It looks good on you though… It’s like couple things, huh? Like I always see in movies….”

“But…Kyo-ah…”

“Eric-ah…. Pleassseeee…. What? You’re embarrassed to wear couple things together with me, huh?”

His voice becomes a little colder although his face shows a tint of sadness. At that time, I know I have been completely sold. I sigh

deeply and just adjust the tiger headband on my head a little looking at the mirror.

“I guess… it’s not that bad, though…”

Sometimes, I feel amazed how the emotions of Jung Pilkyo can change in a few seconds with just a small action. Three seconds ago,

his face was like a dark storm cloud and now, he is even giggling adjusting his bunny headband before linking his arm around mine.

“Eric-ah, you’re so cute… You know?”

“Tell me something I don’t know…”

Then, we have our packed lunch on a vacant bench that we had to find several minutes in the park and chat about this and that

while intertwining our fingers. But at that moment, I hear a shocking voice from somewhere behind us.

“Disgusting gays…”

I feel Pilkyo’s hands tensed in mine and his breathing paused. Actually, my heart has skipped a beat to hear someone calling us like

that suddenly. I turn my head and see a teenage couple giving a disgusting look towards our direction. I stand up abruptly to face

them off but I feel a hand grabbing my wrist with a strong force.

“Eric… Don’t….”

I turn my head and see Pilkyo’s face with a pleading look. I try to free my hand from his grip but he tightens his hand with more

force, even making my wrist hurt.

“Please… Don’t… Just…just let’s go home… I wanna go home…”

Then, I see his eyes getting moist with tears and after letting out a deep sigh, I grab his hand back and pull him to stand up while

tightening my other fist. He stands up and pulls me to the opposite direction to go back to our car. Then, I hear another knife-like

insult.

“Just scaredy gays…”

Before I can react, I feel a strong squeeze on my wrist and he pulls me harder and walks faster without looking back at me.

Even though we get back at our home, he has not uttered a single word all the way. He closed his eyes while I was driving and I was

not a fool to believe that he was sleeping. I saw his lips being shut tightly like he was trying not to let out a sound. I held his hand

and squeezed a bit to comfort him but did not get a response from him. I understand how it was shocking for him if even I have a

pang in my heart every time I think about it. It is not like we never had a single questioning, amused or puzzled look from people in

these days when we went out but this is the first time we had just a direct insult towards us at one of our happiest times. I also

feel hurt but it is not for being called gay and just for not being able to protect Pilkyo from that insult.

As soon as we enter our apartment, Pilkyo goes directly into the bathroom and I know what he is doing there hearing muffled sobs

behind the locked door. I just stand up in front of the door, not having the heart to knock and make him get out. After several

minutes, I hear a click sound and see Pilkyo getting out with puffy red eyes. But, still, he gives me a faint smile when he sees me and

goes past me heading towards the kitchen. I follow him and become dumbfounded when I see him lifting his sleeves and opening the

fridge.

“What are you doing?”

He just gives a short glance at me and answers in a calm tone. Well, at least he tries.

“What do you want to have, Eric-ah? As dinner?”

“What?”

He does not reply back this time and just starts to wash vegetables in the basin.

I feel really irritated and approach him before pulling his wrist to look at me properly.

“What the hell are you doing, Jung Pilkyo? Answer me…”

“Eric-ah…. Why? Why are you so mad? I’m just cooking…”

He tries again to answer me in a calm tone but a crack in his voice is not missed by my hearing sense.

“Is this the time to eat, huh? Is this the time to cook like nothing’s happened?”

“SO, WHAT AM I TO DO? GAYS DON’T NEED TO EAT, HUH?”

I get frozen at his yelling and he also finds himself shocking with his sudden outburst. After a few minutes, he starts to sniffle and

then I know his walls are falling down. I put my arms around his shoulders and pull him towards me patting his back softly while trying

not to let my tears fall. His muffled sobs against my chest and his tears wetting my shirt make my heart sink deeper and deeper

second by second.

Then, I hear his mumbling and lower my head to be able to hear what he is talking.

“I’m…I’m sorry…”

I pull him away from my embrace and make him look at my eyes although he tries desperately to look away.

“What for? What for you’re saying sorry, huh?”

“For making you like that… for making you being called like that by people…”

I tighten my grips around his shoulders and shake him like I am trying to wake him up from unconsciousness.

“Jung Pilkyo… How dare you say sorry for that? You did nothing wrong and why you’re the one saying sorry?”

“Eric-ah…I forgot it’s not the island I was living in…. I forgot there’re many people watching us… everywhere… I forgot we’re defying

the nature…and… and… I forgot I’m dragging you down with me…”

I take his face in my hands as soon as he has ended his words and crash his lips with mine with force. I kiss him in a rough and

senseless way for the first time and although I feel his hands on my chest trying to push me away, I just want to punish him for being

that much ignorant and for thinking himself like a piece of trash.

At last, my lungs become like they would burst out anytime with lack of oxygen and I feel him also nearly choked up. I release his lips

from my capture but do not remove my hands cupping his face. I see his eyes closed while he is trying to make his breathing stable

again.

“Kyo-ah… Please listen to me, will you?”

He opens his eyes at the end of my words and just stares at me with his brown orbs.

“We’re just at the beginning, Kyo-ah… From now on, we may face more insults like that…. I already understood that… I’m just sorry

and angry myself for showing you a weak side of me to such kinda nonsense…I’m just mad at myself for not being able to protect

you….like I promised… and I’m angry myself for not succeeding in making you open up to me even after these days… You even didn’t

cry in front of me and that made me more hurt than being called gay… Don’t pretend like you’re ok when you’re actually not…

Remember… You’re never a burden for me and no… you’re not dragging me down… It’s just me wanting to follow you… So…please…”

He stares at me before letting tears fall down from his eyes and then, leans towards my body wrapping his arms around my waist

“What should I do with you, Eric-ah? You became like that…because of me….and what should I do with you?”

He whispers and tightens his hug more burying his face in my chest at the same time.

“Just love me…and stay with me… Kyo-ah…”