"Based on you evidences," he came near me, slightly rubbing his arm on mine. I shivered. "The court's are satisfied!" he shouted, gaining my parent's attention. "Really?!" i could hear that annoying voice of my mother, erghh shut up! "The victim was commiting a felony," he continued, i glanced back shocked to see my parents looking at the kitchen. No, they were looking past it. At the door. "As such, the homicide is just justifiable." 

Mother kept saying inbetween pauses like, "how wonderful" and "Fantastic" but i could tell she wasn't listening anymore. I squeezed my eyes shut, trying not to follow my instinct to lokk at the kitchen behind me. It didn't matter. I still feel it burned inside my eyelids. There's like this maroon dented tile in the middle of the white tiles in the kitchen. That is the leftover of Jonghyun's blood. which splatter around the kitchen. I could see like a little granite island in the middle. The knife block, now missing one knife. The door..backdoor towards the garden.

Homicide.

I heard mother searching through her stuff inside the cabinet, Father sending Onew back to his car. And that night, i went down to grab a can of soda, the entire knife block was missing. I snuck out the back door, nope not the kitchen but the laundry one. I didn't care it was windy, i walked arm folded across my stomach with the can soda on my right hand, until i reached the intersection two blocks away. I paused, took a deep breathe and ran. I didn't turn my head, but i still saw the black toyotacar sittng in the corner with the plate number i recognised where i knew it would be.

Exactly two hundred yards from my front door. Where it had been everyday since. I barely caught a glimpse, as i ran and ran. But i still could feel my neck burning from her stare, the hatred. I felt her hate. I didn't have to look ot feel it. I never looked.

I kept running until i reached the backyard of Key's house. I didn't feel safe until i open Key's high wooden gate and i reached into his house. The house was one level but it was very wide inside. and its window wde open in this hour. "Key," i whispered into his bedroom window. He had his music turned up and face turned away, blond hair bounced up and down to the rythm of the music. Yet somehow he knew i was there, he spun around glanced at the wide open door, and sent me a quick hand signal. A twist of his first two fingers. A cross of his wrist. Signalling me to the nearest hanging place. I nodded.

I let myself out of the house and walk another two blocks to the Teen palace, where all the teenager goes. I was slouched against the cold wall in the skate area. He sank down beside me on the pavement. He was nothing like, and 100% not like me. Key was slightly pale with the hot pink snapback cap he wore, with those flower-like lips and blond hair. I have just straight body, a brown dyed hair.

People still got us confused, i mean like what? we're very different in appearence, he is way into fashion street and stuff..and i could say i'm into everything? bleh. Maybe the way we walk? talk? We've been inseperable since his family moved here last 5 years, yep 5 year of friendship. 

Key laced his finger in mine, and leaned his head back on the wall. "I'm grounded for life Taemin-ah..we couldn't have anymore ing interaction anymore, what will you do without me?" "They're sending me away," I said, my voice wavering. Key released my hand and stood up. "Sending you where? did the lawyer came back?" I shook my head and stood. "Not prison. Boarding School." Key in a giant breathe and placed his hands onto my should and exhale, "NO!"

"Yes, Seoul Boarding school. My father's old school" he shook his head vigorously. "No no ing way, this isn't happening" I started to panic the way he panic right now. "Jun-hyu" I said, forcing a smile. Trying to force him to smile. "Who could blame you?"

He cried, i could only stare at him. "" he wiped his tears. "Don't c-cry" i whispered, pulling him to long hug.  He cried onto my shoulder, and i felt the lump in my throat like i was going to cry too, but nothing come out. I held on tight, reasonably sure that i would never love a human like how i love him. Mr Key.

Someone leaned out a car window and whistled. We both shot him the middle finger. And Key's hand tighten around me. Standing around the corners where a group of guys, i mean who wouldn't turn on when 2 cute guys hugging?  Key dig his finger onto my back, i whimpered. 

Heechul, Sulli and Minho.  Jonghyun's little brother, Minho. I did a double take before i realised it was him. Even though Minho is 2 years younger than Jonghyun and the same year with me, he had the same body build like Jonghyun but much more Taller and those classy pair of eyes.

Empty now..just like Jonghyun's.

They didn't speak. Minho stood still i wondered if he was breathing at all, he was just staring at the blank space. I noticed his fingers on his left hand keep twitching. Sulli stared straight me, but not making any eye contact. Heechul dropped his hands by his side, making the chocolate on the smoothie sloshed out, running down to his knuckles. Without any communicating with each other, they formed into a circle. Moving away from the dirty sides of the drain. We join in. 

Key staggered for words, putting his palm out infront of him. We shuffled closer, the only one who seemed to be thinking anything for himself was Minho, probably nothing good. I could see Minho eyebrows twitched. 

"Heechul," Key said, biting his lips seductively. Heechul jerked abit after lookoing at Key doing that, checking Key out. Key could get any guys he wants, even straight with just a bite on his lips and a seductive stare. I've once been trapped with those stares. Key was tilting his head abit with another grinned in his hips, taking all of our attention even Minho. I bet we all are right now.

"Get out of here Key" Heechul snarled. Key smirked, "yeah we're gone," he gripped me by the waist and walk away. I brushed Minho's shoulder as i passed, and he went stunned, i could see the tension in his muscle. We got back to his crib. I heard his foot scrambled as he climbed back to his bedroom. So weak. I chuckled.

I'm back at my home now, the television is on with mother and father sitting on the sofa. As usual, they are doing their own bussiness. I walk to the kitchen wanting to grab a can of soda. When i feel this presence..like a ghost..as i open the fridge. I didn't know that i step onto the remaining of the unbleached tile. I feel uncomfortable right now. 

I glanced to the door, somehow i could see the fingerprint..i thought Mother paint over  it already? I hope mother will come in soon, and have a chat with me, but no, she went to her bedroom with father. Rude. 

I kept standing around the corner of the kitchen, just stared at the tile. Hoping that a ghost will popped out like what the movies do. 

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I was supposed to meet Jonghyun right now, like what he always said, when we're together it's timeless. His friends and I are going to the Bowling alley. He promised me that he would teach me to play and watch him compete with other people.

I was waiting at the lobby, until i feel this warm pair of arm wrapping me. Jonghyun's pair of arms wrapped around me, placing his head on my shoulder whispering, "hey," and i could tell his smiling by his voice. Then he pulled me back, he tightened the hold. "Sorry guys, this guy is mine" I smile while i heard he calls me his. "Yah.." i nudged him still in his arms as he place little kisses on my neck.

"Bye," I mouth to Key. I walked back with Jonghyun's arm around me. 

But now, i felt that everytime i walked into this kitchen.. i feel suffocating. Like the usual when Jonghyun hug me. I could feel his arm tightened around me. I miss his embrace. He was squeezing and squeezing until i'm out of breathe.

I felt the whisperings around the room. "He's mine" cross all over the kitchen. Deafening sound. The whispering grazing through my skin, my legs and my hands. Mine. He's mine. 

I shivered and take the can from the table. Walking out from the kitchen. Don't go. It whispered.

I popped out some sleeping pills, my phone charger on the side table. Then i swallowed the pills and waited until i felt the sensation, my limbs sluggish and heavy, wanting me to lay back to the mattress. I stared at the ceiling, every single night hoping that one day he appear. Now i caught a glimpse of his outline outside my wardrobe. I kept the comforter up to my chin, to be honest, i'm freaking scared.

The word "mine" whispered onto my skin. I heard it coming, for the first time. Faraway at first. Downstairs somewhere. Stomp..stomp stomp.. coming closer. Slowly and steady. I couldn't help since i'm half awake and half asleep, i'm imagining it. I couldn't keep my eyes open yet. I didn't want to, anyway.

Because it was here.

stomp..stomp..stomp

My whole room shake with it. The beating of his hideous heart along with the footstep. Eyes clouding with confusion. A soothing voice of Jonghyun, pleading. "Taemin-ah please" the word, "no" dying on his mouth. The blood on the floor, the blood on my hands. The door i pushed against it, staining it bright red. The night. Even in my dream i hide. I always hide.

A/n: So i pull all the chapters into one..and this is Chapter no. 1 :D Yep subscribe please? :)