Chapter 13

I sigh for the umpteenth time!

Should I go? Am I even ready to even hear his explanations? Will I be able to accept his explanations or those words would be converted as ‘bull’ through my brain?

Click. I heard a soft thud and there stood at my living room my half sister half smiling;

“You are going to work things out with him right?” she carefully utters her words not mentioning his name in case I get upset;

I sighed sitting on my couch looking back at her,

“I am just one stubborn am I?”

“Listen to me Roo; give him a chance to explain and better yet work things out between you both; Look, finding someone to love is easy and vice versa however the key point is keeping the relationship going on with all the crazy roller coaster ride life prepares for you and him is what many of us failed surviving it, listen to your heart”

Tears once again filled my eyes edge threatening to flow down; like the routine it has been since the past weeks whenever it touches about me and him;

“Pabo, go! You wouldn’t want him to be disappointed again are you?” she hugged me as in right on cue Dara and Baby Min came from behind and we end up in group hug;

“Let’s go! I’d drive you there!” Dara exclaim excitedly and fish out her car key from her back pocket

“Omo! Sneeky octopus! Stealing or threatening again huh?” Bom teased

“Yah! FYI BOMTARO my sun willingly let me have his car” she stuck her tongue out while pulling my arms out from my apartment;

Throughout the entire ride I was so absurd with the Seoul busy streets; it’s a good thing the car is fully tinted; God damn the paparazzi that snooping around with our private life,

Dara cheekily push me out from the ride as soon as we reach the destinations,

“Yah, what a mean unnie!” I pout and shiver;

“ADIOS CL!” she waved and drove off;

Sigh; I walk in chanting for myself to calm down and listen to him;

“Ji..?” I snoop around hoping for a voice to greet me however stood in front of me was the sight of him dozed off on the couch;

With each careful step, I close the sliding door and cover him with my scarf;

I sat facing him, looking and register every details of his face into my memory.  

His scent whom I got used to; unknowingly I brush off strands of hair that covers his face;

This would have to be the chance to have seen him asleep, silly of me;

I am such a selfish girlfriend that constantly falls asleep first all the time, probably the comfort I find wrapping underneath his arms;

Demanding of him to fulfill my crazy request at times without considering his hectic and y schedule, always being short temper and argue unnecessarily especially when he was just trying to be the perfectionist in composing songs for his boys, and being hard-headed me was the worst;

“Ji, how pathetic could your girlfriend been hm? I am always the one falling asleep first; demanding of how I visualize and wanted you to be as a boyfriend without appreciating you being you, Pabo yaa..I am indeed a coward for unable to summon courage to face and listen to you” I whisper as I caress his hair;

I stirred uncomfortably and yelped when I felt a sharp pain at my ankles;

“AHHHHHHHH!!!!” gripping my ankles I stare at my both ankles;

I couldnt control myself from half yelling at my cramp ankles;

Stupid stupid stupid!

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What the hell is he doing here? I fold my arms;

Shock, hurt, surprise and most of all embarassed!

I nearly touch that irritating devil's lips for that bastard sudden apperances;

“Yah how did you know I live here?” I yelped 

“Sweetheart, it is easy to track a celebrity like you!” he smile and make his way in my apartment;

What the fish? I block him from walking further into my place! This piece of bastards, how dare he call me sweetheart and act like nothing ever happened since that incident?!

“Get the hell out from my place and best ever go away!” I stomp my feet angrily and push him out;

“So fast you had forgotten me huh? What are you? Screwing another guy here I see?” he points towards irritating devil direction;

“Hey hey, who are you? Why are you being so harsh towards her?!”

“Bom bom, you are keeping a secret from your lover don’t you? Don’t you tell him how close we are dearest wife?!” he touches my arms and pulls me near;

"GET OUT FROM MY LIFE YOU SICK BASTARD!" my tears threaten to fall however I am going to be tough in front of this jackass

I struggle and slap his face hard; this sick piece of !

I must real BLIND used to fall for him; noted: USED to!

For once I am grateful towards the devil to push him out from my apartment and slam the door right at his face; I heard him shouting strings of curses and swear to be back;

I sigh, tears filling up my eyes. Why would he come back after all these years? I just want to forget whatever painful memories that he left; how humiliated and pained was I when he left me stranded at the aisle; I feel like the nineteen year old me again right now.

“Yah, don’t mind his words he could be just some trash anti fans of yours” the devil squatted right in front and wipe away my tears;

I sobbed and lean on his shoulder feeling weak and guilty;

Only the girls knew what once happened; 

Chaerin explains to the girls when we were trainee during one of our long night of chatting;

From then on, we promise each other to keep it all sealed up each other's secrets;

Yes, this has to be a secret!

I couldn't afford to let that once naive decisions I made to ruin my career and image now; now he is  back,

what should I do? What will happens if he spill out to the papparazzi?

I sob harder to the thoughts of losing my dreams and career that I built with bare hands;

It's going to crumble down if the netizens found out it;

Ottokei?!!!