I have always lived in a delusional life.The type of life that anything that defies me will result in complete rejection.Anything that's come from that person will be rejected.As though I live in my own world,and yes,I do live in my own perfect world.

My life has always been very bad.Bad in the sense of crying every night and getting angry everyday,so horrible that in time,I created a wall,not allowing anyone or anything to penetrate it.Slowly,a different world has been formed.Im not a strong guy and I admit that...Somehow I feel like I have many different personality as though like a mental disorder.

Im getting somewhat disgusted with myself but always continuing the act.Thats stupid,but stupid people does stupid stuff after all.

I have no idea if this is considered horrible or anything,but I shall share with you my own life story.haha!Up to you to determine whether its a good life or bad life , whether its horrible or considered lucky still.Here it is.My life story=)

Basically,My family consist of my mother,father,brother(4 years older then me!)and of course.MYSELF~ I always feel I'm loved by my family,it didn't take long till it changed.Primary 2,well,I got into many trouble with my teacher and eventually,my mother got called over to school.she was so angry with me that she gave me a tight slap in my face,after that,the love I received from my parents dramastically changed.i slowly got into more and more trouble..

I will fight with my parents etc and etc.fight in school.like any idiotic and bad child/student would do.when I'm in primary 2,after that incident,I see the world in a different light.not the innocent type of world,but how cruel this world is.I almost got public caning by the principal by the time I was primary 4,my mother once again got called over,she didn't object with the caning and even asked them to cane me if possible.a horrible parent.i start being defient.

NOT GONNA go into the details,but during primary 5-6 I slowly change~although Im still deemed defient and feared by my classmates whom know that I always fight and got into a lot of trouble . like a problematic kid. well.. they avoided me when I start a conversation with them ... I was really very lonely... I had no one to talk to,I spent my life talking to myself.talking to someone result in making them scared. it's horrible.my parents don't like me.i don't feel love from them.i had no friends.no one to talk to.nothing.just a world isolate from everyone.accepting my own presence in that isolated world.rejecting other people's presence.

Secondary 1,WELL...THINGS CHANGE! nobody in my secondary school knows me,my past is quite hidden,I make friends,talk to them,feel loved,feel that someone care and show concern for me . It was wonderful!! By the time it was mid year,I had a group of people whom I can call,friends.I joined a CCA,BAND~ the people there was nice ! they helped me a lot ^_^

Thats school life ! my home life is absolutely horrible . nobody to talk to except my phone .the maximum talk with my mother is 3 sentence ! usually 1 sentence a day . my father work until very late . had no time for me.tired and worn out .eat->shower->sleep. that's he do at home after a whole day of work.i don't blame him at all.my brother and mother talk everyday like a machine gun.always shooting(talking).i hardly can join in.no,I can't join in at all.My love life is awesome though.i had a crush on a girl <3

Secondary 2,my school life is still awesome and still as nice as always,but few things happened.i lost some friends,my friends changed.It was tough to handle all of it.Well..I have a girlfriend now ,it's not the crush I'm madly in love with but gave up after a year and 3 months...A lot have changed so far.nothing changed for my home life though.Dull,Unwanted life.A world completely different ffrom the rest of the family.rejecting all the presence of family member who hates me.doesnt want me.dont care about me.dont love me.dont show concern for me.dont do anything for me.WAIT THEY DO . SCOLD ME.THATS ALL WHAT MY MOTHER DOES.UTTERLY USELESS.

Well, this is my life story so far.the delusional life of school mates(friends)being my family and my own real family as strangers whom I reject from my own world.