a/n: I don’t think the lyrics fits this story or not but listen to 4men’s but I (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bpGu93txP2o)  while reading. it makes your heart ache so badly you’ll feel like dying. hehe. thank you lovelies<3 :*

baekhyun thought that it was post-traumatic stress disorder (ptsd). he thought that it was the traumatic stress that affected kyungsoo to the point of no return. kyungsoo, after witnessing his best friend being run over for the sake of saving him, he was never the same.

it’s time for me to go now. remember baekhyun loves you as much as I do. he’ll be taking my place from now on. be brave kyungsoo and I’ll always love you.

those were kai’s last words to kyungsoo who was crying so badly he almost passed out after kai closed his eyes and stopped breathing. baekhyun brought kyungsoo to countless counselling session after kai was being cremated, it was normal for kyungsoo to cry but the problem was that, he didn’t. he was emotionless. he didn’t cry, he did not eat. he was just there, silent. he didn’t even make a sound when he scalded himself while he was boiling some water.

baekhyun thought that kyungsoo was getting better after he crawled into his bed and slept with him that night. a habit that kyungsoo always does when he’s cold. baekhyun figures that since kai was gone, he’s the only one left.

baekhyun was wrong. kyungsoo wasn’t getting better.
kyungsoo just found another way to relieve the pain that any psychiatrist can’t. to create a different kind of pain to replace the unbearable ones, he calls it. for a year and a half, he’s been releasing his own pain. until one day, he went overboard and baekhyun comes back, finding him on the couch, unconscious, with blood dripping from his wrist, onto the floor, forming a puddle.

baekhyun calls 911 right away.

kyungsoo had lost a lot of blood and they weren’t sure when he would wake up, the doctors claimed, but kyungsoo did, not for long anyway.

“kai, he’s waiting for me baek” baekhyun lets the tears he’s been holding on for so long to flow out. he had to be the stronger one for the both of them but now, he’s just not strong enough right now.

“I love you kyungsoo.”

kyungsoo smiles. “I love you too. but kai, I need him. I love him so much, I want to see him again. he’s waiting for me…I have to go” kyungsoo’s heart rate was dropping.

baekhyun nods and kyungsoo’s cheeks. “if it’s too unbearable for you to stay, then go…I’ll be okay.” baekhyun plants a kiss onto kyungsoo’s chapped lips as their last goodbye.

the line on the monitor went flat.
“goodbye kyungsoo, say hi to kai for me…I’ll love you forever and ever.”


a/n: another short drabble. I don’t know. I have countless of short stories raging in my mind right now. ;_; comment and have fun reading.