Hell
Hell
Note: I would edit it but I'm very scared my parents are gonna find me awake ahahah....6:18am XDD
Sorry, for mistakes. 3
I made this on some sort of whim I guess. Just felt the need to write it you know :OO
I'm gonna go pretend to sleep bye~
Everything hurts.
My eyes tiny slits after crying so long.
My skin sleek with perspiration.
My lips trembling
My heart beating fast and irregular.
Aching…everything aching.
I don’t understand why.
No…I do
But why admit to those things?
Why admit that your world isn’t perfect?
Just
Pretend.
That’s what everyone does.
Pretend that some certain person
Means the world to them.
Pretend that the names people call you
Don’t hurt.
Pretend that everything is
Fine.
Imagining
Your world is
Perfect
Saves you the pain
The tears
The ache
The numbness
That nothing will be okay.
I used to
Think
That it was
Just
Me.
MY life was .
My mind was full of .
But I was
Wrong.
I’d rather it just be me.
To have this weight on my shoulders
To have this deep gut feeling
Gnaw at my insides
Settle in my stomach.
But I have buddies now.
You can see my
Jubilance.
Now….
These people
These girls
That were with me and made me
Feel safe
Tiffany, Yuri, Sunny,
Seohyun, Hyoyeon, Sooyoung
Yoona and Jessica
They’re…they’re not what I
Thought.
Not who I thought
They were.
All these
Frightening
Secrets.
I hate them.
Those secrets…
That shouldn’t have existed.
I am the
Leader.
I am the one who solves
Their problems.
But I can’t
Help them.
What they do to
Their skin.
Mutilate it with all
Sorts of utensils
Is something I can’t
Fix.
Can’t solve.
Such a deep burden they
Carry.
And mine as well.
I am their
Protector
Their guidance yet
I cannot save them.
They don’t share their thoughts.
They don’t share their tears.
They don’t share the knives
Razors
Pencil sharpeners.
I don’t belong in their group.
Not in that kind.
But I love them
Love them all.
Together forever.
So…I guess we’re all going to
Hell.
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