I've always been someone who's dreamt big. Ever since I can remember I've always wanted the unattainable. But perhaps that's why I strive to get it. The thought of the challenge ahead is truthfully what keeps my going. I still remember my very first dream. When I was a little girl I always wanted to be a ballerina. I went to the Nutcracker with my aunt and I couldn't help but want what those dancers had. Beauty, grace, strength, and artistry. They told a beautiful story without needing the help of words. I wanted to be blessed with a talent like that. But as the years wore on, I gave up on that dream. I moved onto something that was possibly even more unattainable for me. In the midst of my preeteen crisis, I wanted nothing more than to be an idol. A slim and pretty girl that all the boys wanted. Of course that was not only uncharacteristic for me, but I'm just not cut out for that type of thing. And here I am now, 20 years old with a dream that's even more impossible. I found that as the years go on, the more I hate adult life. I'm Kwon Subin and I never want to grow up.