Chapter 4
Hurt me all you want I'll still adore you ; just love me back before I go
Eunhyuk was sitting alone in the park next their house thinking ; thinking about how
or why did he fall in love with someone as cold as Donghae . Hes used to getting beaten up
; hes used to the harsh words ; he knows it himself : hes ugly ; disgusting ; pathetic ;
useless ; hes knows it ALL . But hearing those things from Donghae never fail to make
him hurt him .And with what Donghae just did ; he has reached his limites.
so he took the knife from his pocket and started thinking of what to do next .
Suddenly ; he felt someone yanking the knife from his hands harshly ; and turned around
only to see Donghae . surprised he didnt know what to say .
'what the do you think youre doing !' Donghae spat angrily only to make Eunhyuk wince
'leave me alone' Eunhyuk said feeling weak under the love of his life's stares
'Listen Im sorry for what hapened yesterday' Donghae said with his head down
'w-what? you ? sorry ! please just let me be ; i told you i wont bother you anymore ; you
really didn't have to do that ! I feel totally drained. I have been hurt so
much that my brain doesn’t feel hurt anymore, my best wasnt enough ; i get it 'Eunhyuk
finished with tears in his eyes
Donghae just stood frozen ; he knew he had caused so much pain to Eunhyuk but he never
knew the latter was this damaged
'im leaving' Eunhyuk said then left 'and im sorry i bothered you by just being around'
just before he took a step he felt Donghae grabbing his hand
'My father killed Kyuhyun' Donghae whispered with tearing eyes backfacing Eunhyuk
'w-what ?who's Kyuhyun'
'hes Sungmin's boyfriend ; was'
'omg I didn't know that ; im sorry for your loss then ; so you're not disgusted by gays
only by me' Eunhyuk mumbled the last part but Donghae heard it well
'Disgusted? are you kidding me? I ING LOVE YOU!!'
Eunhyuk felt like faiting 'was he hearing things?'
'w-what do y-ou mean?'
'well The story had started on my childhood, I didn’t forget the first day of the school
because that day I saw you. single-lidded eyes, sharp jaw. you looked so handsome in
that uniform , I just fell in love with you at first sight
I know its so mad & crazy if some one fall in love at first sight, but I love crazy.
your face just dropped in my heart. The feeling of love, it’s unbelievable ;
it’s a magical. But it’s not done in long time, I forget every thing and i grown up fast.
On my freshman year the forgotten love that vanished just increased in my heart one more
time.Because i found out you were my classmates.
you didn't change, but I did, my heart changed, my feelings changed, its all
happened fast.
I had wanted to say you how much I love you ; how much I care for you, but I had no guts to do so ;because i
know how much dad despise gays ; he even killed Kyuhyun ; Sungmin thinks his boyfriend died in a accident
; so one day dad found my diary and read it ; he threaten me ; he said that i have to stop my feelings or
hell do what he did to KyuHyun ; iawnted to tell him that iwasnt gay ; i dont feel
that way excpet for you but i couldnt' Donghae finished talking reminiscing the memories
Eunhyuk was speechless he didn't know what to say ; is this true ? Donghae has been loving even before he loved him
himself
'Listen Hyukkie ; I know that you probably hate me ; right? but im soooo sorry ; i really love you i do ;
i just had to do that ; im willing to protect you from dad ; i wanna sta with you forever ; just give me one chance "
"is t-his some k-inda joke? 'so youre the L.D who send me those letters; notes the clothes and the other stuff?'
'you like 'em Hyukkie?'
'omg i must be dreaming ; this is not a prank ?is it?because if it is ; you can stop now '
'no Hyukkie ; let me prove it to you '
'how are you going to do that '
'just follow me ; ive been waiting for this my whole life'
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