Sehun POV

Here I am. Standing in front of a tombstone bearing the name, Choi Jin Ri. With white lilies flower in your hands. Squatted near her tombstone, and put the lilies flower. I held my tears as much as possible, but eventually my tears fall. Regret, always come later. “I’m sorry, chagi. I’m so sorry. I hope you can forgive me there, chagi. Please forgive me..” The tears kept falling on the sidelines mumble. Afternoon winds hit me in this March autumn. “Today is your birthday, Sulli-ah. Saengil chukkae hamnida, chagi. I don’t bring anything for your birthday present but  i just wishing that you’re happy there, Sulli-ah. I just bring your favorite flower, white lilies here, chagi.” I wish I had a time machine to restore it all, but it was impossible.

“What is she thinking about that?! Aish yeoja babo-ya. If she does not know I love her but she’s lying to me? Argh, Sulli-ah why you being like that.” I walked regardless Sulli who calls me from behind. “Sehun-ah. Listen to my explanation first.He’s my sunbae you didnt know about that? And your sunbae too, Sehun-ah. Please listen to me!” Suddenly I hear….. BRAK! I looked back and was surprised to see Sulli’s body covered with blood and his face fell. I picked it up immediately and lifted her tiny body to the side of the road. “Sehun-ah… J-jebal f-forgive me… It’s not what you think. Forgive me if I’m wrong. Once again, M-mianhae, S-sehun-ah …” She smiled, and close her eyes forever. “ANDWAEEEE SULLI-AH WAKE UP! I’M HERE AND I FORGIVE YOU NOW WAKE UP CHAGI-AH! JEBAL~” I’m crying while people carrying up her cold body…

“Mianhae, chagi-ah. If at that time I listened you, this incident never happened. Since the incident, I berated myself for my mistakes, and my stupid attitudes. Mianhae mianhae mianhae I’m regret, Sulli-ah….” Suddenly, a-cold-wind hit my body and vaguely saw the silhouette of a woman with white dress smiling at me. She is my Sulli! She hugs me but I just feel the cold on my body.

“Sehun-ah… I’ve forgiven you from the first. This is our destiny, God is more dear to me so he called me back, chagi. Don’t being like this, jebal  Sehun-ah…. I’m watching you up there and if you’re sad, then I’m more sick than you. Today is my birthday, thankyou for giving me that beautiful white lilies. Don’t be too late in the dumps because of my absence, Sehun-ah. It’s been two years I leave this world, you’re better off looking for my successor.”

“B-but I-i can’t, Sulli-ah….”

“Sstt… You can. Trust me. I’ve always watching you up there and I always on your heart. Believe me, Sehun-ah. Saranghae…”

“It’s for the first time I hear you say it first, but I will always love you , Sulli-ah. Nado saranghaeyo…”

“Nah, it’s time for you change, Sehun-ah. Forget about me, and start your new life without me. Arraseo?”

“Arraseo, My Princess. You’ll always watching me up there and always on my heart, won’t you?”

“Yes, I am, Sehuna my Prince. Believe me.” I hug Sulli for a long time before she really go from here. She let go of my arms and smiled.

“Now, go and open the sheet of your life without me, Sehuna. I’ll watching you up there, saranghae.”

“I’ll, Sulli-ah. Nado saranghae.” Then, she really leaves from this world.

I believe in you, Sulli-ah. I’ll open the sheet of my life without you. I believe you always watching me up there and always on my heart. Saranghae, Sulli….