Dongwoon walked the street along.he did not realize his environment.

He didn't heard his phone ringing.

He didn't thought about something else as the words that destroyed everything.

They destroyed b2st they destroyed him and all who love him so much.

He couldnt help but start to crying.

Dongwoon went straight on and didnt saw the car.

The car slowed heavily and the woman in it shouted at him

„yah!look where you are runnig to idiot!“

only now dongwoon started to get back to reality.

„s-sorry“he mumbeld to the wind.

He cross the road and soon he herad his moilephon ringing again.

Irretated he pulled it out of his pants-“Yeah?“
„ya!where are you?we said that we would meet at home at 6!now its already half past nine!“his leaders voice makes him freeze

„ i just forget about that!dont worr i will be there in a few minutes!i am near our dorm already!“
„okay fine!but take care!its already dark!“ doojoon said lovely,caring

dongwoon nod although nobody could see this anyways!

„come on dont treat me like a twelve years old baby hyung!see you!“he put his phone away the words were still circle in his mind.

He didnt know how to explain to his hyungs and also he didnt know how he should to this till the day after tomorrow...

flashback

„Son Dongwoon its your turn know please follow me to the treatment chambre!“said the nurse.

He did was he was told and ended up sitting nervous on an treatment table.

„yeah you know why you're hera again or?“

he nod strong.

„yeah i know!“ he started to play with his fingers to clam down-but i doesent helped at all

two weeks ago he felt bad every time.he could be stressed,on action or he could just rested his body always let him feel an great pain.when the pain became intolerable he went to the hospitel to check his healthy.

„yeah i not glad to tell you i know it will be hard for youbut-“

dongwoon interrupted the man „w-whats wrong with me?it will be 'bad' doctor what do you mean by this?“ he jumped up and looked into the old man eyes.

„you have leukemia dongwoon-but it has already scatterd an operation would be nonses and i would hide to many risks...i cant do anything for you anymore!but i have find out something for you and wrote it down-here just take this!“

„WHAT`? I dont need this !“he yelled very overwhelmed with this situation!

But though he grab the paper.

He left the doctor without saying anything.

He couldnt believe this-whe he?why did it has to be him?

He couldent handel such a big thing by his own!dongwoon looked around it was already a litte dark outside and much to cold for him.ecept that he was just wearing pants and a thin sweatshirt his body war frozen of the news,already had been given to him a fewe moments before.

He has to silent~he woulndt hurt his freinds like this-because he know how ther're and they would cry alot and the would try everythig to help hin although he would say how useless it is.they would always try to make him laugh again.but he know that he wasnt abel to to this and cuase of that he would tell his freinds he thougt that it would be much easier if it comes unexpectedly for his hyungs

flashback end

„where have you been woonie?“gikwang answerd huging him softely

„i went for a walk!“he replyed avoid his freinds eyecontact gikwang was trying to get

„ya!did you cry your eyes look wet dongwoonie!“gikwang lifted up his chin,force him to look right in his eyes.

When gikwang get his confirmation he llet dongwoon chin sank down.

„whats wrong with you today!did i do something wrong woonie?“he his upperarm.

„no its nothing.please let it be gikwang tomorrow will everything okay!i promise you!“dongwoon escaped gikwangs hands wich was grabbing at him.

„if you need me-you know where to find me!“he said cared.

Till the door closed he didnt let his look go out of dongwoons back.

One or two days left to live and no idea what to to-how to handel.

Dongwoon started cvrying heavily.

He clenhed his hands to fist and hit against the wall.

Some pictures fall down and the glass was broken.

For he handle for some of them than he let himself sag on the bed.

he rememberd all lovley thoughs and memories of his life in b2st and also his much loved frieds.thinkig about too loose all this soon he cryed even harder.

No more b2utys no more laughing he was going to loose everything he was hard working for to loos muhc to soon!!!
he admited to never thought about die-hell he was much to young to lave this beautiful word now...

he grabed his key and get on the floor.

He was looking for gikwang hyung.soon he found him in the bathroom, styling his hair

„going out today evenig hyung?“
„umm ah yes you catched me!“he laughed

„everything fine now?“ he added

dongwoon nod and pull hi hyung into a warmhearted and long hug

„wow whats going on?“gikwang mumbled quietly

„did i ever told you how great you are?you all!you all was always there for me thank you gikwangie to you and all the others!i was so proud to you your all maknae and yes i love you gyus all!“

he hugged his older freinds again and left then-ignorig gikwangs calls

as soon as he was into the staircase he felt off his knees everything started to get blurred.

„dongwoon!“junhyung yelles let fall all the shopping on the ground.

He picked him up.contributed him into the drom an calles gikwang and doojoon for help.

„whats going on with you!ya talk to me woonie!“gikwang starts to get sick.

He felt his body rebel.

Seeing his freind like this made him going crazy in anyway.

But theres something nobody knwos!gikwang has fallen for his younger friend log time ago!

They put him into his bed and took off his shoes and jacket.

Dongwoon slowly becam clearer

„gi-gikwangie!“

„ya!i'm hera woonie!dont be afraid i wont leave you i promise!“

dongwoon pulled him down on the bed.

and gikwang end up sleeping together with dongwoon in his bed.

gikwang was still sleeping dongwoon relized.

But he felt his breath suddenly get slower and weaker.

But now he wasnt afaid to die.

Cause what nobody knows he had fallen for gikwang log time ago but was always much to afraid to tell him!

He took one lasst deep breath and let got without saying goodbye withoug any regrets ecept one-he regret that he didnt had engough time to say them all goodbye and how onderful thery are.that they always where the best friends on earth and that he didnt told gikwang his feelings but mabye it would be better so?!

That would make it more worse for his hyung.

„s-saranghae gikwangie!“with his last strength he liftet his body up to kiss the still sleeping gikwang.

He felt a big jolt flow trough his body

time to say goodbye he though sad but glad in one way

to die in gikwangs arms was his most secret wish...

*when you hear the beating of your heart fade away

there nothing on your mind anymore

stop regetting and be thankful to was here

tell thoose you love ad care about a lot

everytime how impotant they are to you

one day it will be to late and regret can make you insane*