Standing in front of his apartment I knocked several times but there was no answer…

Taking the spare key that he had given me when we where still together I debated to myself whether to open it up myself or not.

Knowing fully well that there is nothing wrong with it since he didn’t asked me to give him back the key I opened up his apartment.

No one was there…

His apartment looks so gloomy…

As if no one was living there for weeks now…

So I took of f my laptop and put it on his study table and typed in…

Dara: where are you???

I heard his laptop indicating that there was a message that was received, I looked sideways and saw his laptop…

Jiyong: beside you

He answered…

Dara: don’t joke around!! Where are you!!

After reading his next message I suddenly felt cold..

Jiyong: for real, right next to you…

I looked side ways and saw his laptop facing the bear I throw jiyong with when we broke up sitting in a chair right next to where I stand…

Staring at it gave me a bad feeling about jiyongs where abouts,,,

I scanned out his whole table looking for something that would give me clues on where he really is…

I saw an envelope and quickly scanned its content

Patients registry form… it read…

The next few made me more anxious until I read one paper that shuttered my heart…

And gave me his location…

Death certificate…

 I couldn’t believe my eyes until I saw his picture in the form…

How could this happen without me realizing it??

Did I too selfish to not know he was sick??

Looking at the bear and scanning the papers I realize his ashes where inside the bear…

He put himself into the little bear…

*flashback*

Dara: answer the phone!!

The reason why he can’t answer my calls…

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Jiyong: lets not meet each other, lets not see each other forget about me!

The reason why he doesn’t want to see me anymore…

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*End of flash back*

It all dawned to me…

Jiyong: sorry, I’m so tired, I have to go

Staring blankly I didn’t know what to do…

Jiyong: I will be gone for a long time, but I can’t leave you…

As I stared at the bear I see his smiling face…

Jiyong: you shouldn’t have come, you should forget about me…

Tears where forming in my eyes slowly…

Jiyong: I want to hug you for the last time, but…

I cried reading his message…

I couldn’t help it anymore…

I grabbed the bear and stared at it as if it was him…

Jiyong: don’t cry, smile =)

I tried to smile knowing he’s just in front of me…

But my tears betrayed me….

Jiyong: bye…

I wanted to tell him to not go…

I wanted to tell him to stay…

I wanted to tell him I need him…

But I was not able to move my body to do so…

My thoughts where drowned with my tears…

Until…

offline

I saw the only connection I have with him left was now gone and I can’t do anything anymore…

I close my eyes as I cried harder seeing his laptop’s background pic was our picture together…

Then it dawned to me…

He had always love me…

Not loved but love…

He did all of it for me…

As if it was more possible I cried harder when I saw the bear cried a tear…

It was as if jiyong was the one who was crying…..

It was as if it was alive…

It was as if it’s telling me he’s hurting too for living me behind…

I will grow up

Be more mature

Will get married

Be smart

Can curse

Can lie

Can bargain in the super market

And getting old

We will never see each other again

Till the end of the world,

But you, me and this world will always be online!
 

End…

So to those who wants to see where I got this story from here is the link…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FuedTYO7ZdE&feature=related

to all of you who took time on reading my fic...
THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!

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