“I don’t think I can continue our relationship. Let’s...” I took a deep breath, mustered up all the courage to finish the final words. “…break up.”

She of course shocked. I saw her eyebrows furrowed that means she tried to access the information. Then her tears started to fall, she tried to say something but no words came out. I know, it must be pained so hard. She hugged me by my neck, sobbing terribly. After a good few seconds, she said, “No, please don’t do this to me. Don’t leave me. I can’t live without you.” Tears keep rolling down on her cheeks, her body keep trembling from the sobbing, her hug keep tightening as if I was the only one that she could depend on. And if I broke that, her world will be destroyed in a matter of seconds.

Which I did. Forcefully.

I pried her arms off of my neck, although she used all the things she could to keep me in her arms. But I keep struggling to escape from her. It hurts so much hurting her like this, but I have no choice.

When I finally released from her arms, she snapped, “Why you do this to me? Why?” She intensely looked at my eyes, tried to search for the answer.

I broke the eye contact and sighed once again before stating my reason. “Because I don’t love you. And I never did.” I stood up and left her without turning back even my heart screamed, scolded me to stop my tracks, turn back, and hold her for as long as I could.