Hi everyone ( ^ _ ^ ) Finally got the chance to update my second fanfic...so excited, hopefully this wouldn't make any readers disappointed.

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Time can change who we are, what we’ve done and what others had done to us. Yet it leaves behind scars that are not meant to be cherished. Surrounded in the darkness, drunken with your own sorrows and tears, all the memories that use to lingers’ you and surrounds you are now things of the past. Though you wanted to forget, and move on and let it seems as though it had never happened and that person had never exist, yet his present was still there haunting you and dragging you into the deepest point of your life, without a seen ahead.

You knew that it was never meant to be, a unrequited love that is forbidden to your point of view, yet you still stood in that trap and ignore it’s warning allowing yourself to be deeply pulled into the situation without an escape. You were crazy you thought to yourself.

Present scene:

Standing stunned with your two feet rooted to the ground, without a way to escape you was forced to confront the scene in front of you. The person you loved dearly is now not far from you holding another girl in his arms. The arms that you wished had belonged to you, yet it never came when you needed it even when you desperately begged and cried for his warm embrace. You knew all that love and warmth would never come your way, it was never meant to be.

8 years of longing and 8 years of hoping that one day he would realise your present and come back to you, yet all those hopes had died down after the second year of loving him, you knew it was impossible. You spent days and night crying endlessly wondering why that love had never come to you.

Dara’s POV:

“Why somebody tell me why, why is it that my love had never been returned. Was it something I did or was something I’ve done that made me suffer or was it...was it my looks,  was I too ugly” Dara cried as she was too afraid to look at the mirror, too afraid to see the familiar tears stains again.

It all happed 8 years ago when you met him, Kim Jaejoong in school for the first time ever. You were in third grade, you knew it was too young, yet you couldn’t help but to fall in love with Jaejoong. It was love at first sight, it wasn’t his looks it was his eyes that had gotten you mesmerized until this day. You didn’t know if fate was playing games with you but you it turned out that you guys are enemies. Though you hated trying to act like his enemies yet it was your only method to get his attention.

It’s just you didn’t know that it would lead to more tears as Jaejoong has said many things that had hurt your heart dearly.

“Dam-it that b*tch really pisses me off, she better F-off before I get my hands on her...stupid Dara” Dara overheard Jaejoong said. Though Jaejoong did know about your existence yet it was only a bad image in Jaejoong’s mind.

“Jaejoong why?...what did I do to you? Why do you hate me that much” Dara cried that night.

Dara was never a strong girl even though it may have seemed so; Dara lived in a family or seven. Loving parent, three sisters and one brother. Dara being the youngest in the family, and was loved by everyone in her family. Though Dara wasn’t born that pretty she was never willing to have enemies, she hated fights and arguments she only liked peace. Dara had never cried so much over one person even when her parent had mistaken her she had never cried that much, yet here she is crying for the one person that had continuously broken her heart.

Her family always think that she’s a strong person, but there was far more than just a little that they didn’t know about Dara, she was totally the opposite to who her family think she is. Spending her days reading dramas and crying to how well it portrayed her life. Dara often cried alone and often she would bottle up her pains to herself, she hated anyone’s pity. She didn’t want to look weak in front of others.

Dara thought that maybe she could bottled up all those memories longer, but it all burst when she had bottled up too much. She thought that she didn’t mind him hating her as long as she could silently watch him from afar that was her happiest times. Being able to watch him from afar and seeing him showing his true smiles to his friends made her feel like her world was complete, if only those smiles was for her, she once thought to herself.

She didn’t mind him flirting, she didn’t mind him blabbering on about who he’s going to date next, as long as she doesn’t see him with them then she was contented.  She thought it would really work, just like a Korean drama and that one day the main guy is going to find out who he truly loves, yet Dara forgot that it was only a drama, but she still had wished that it would end like that. Being able to live happily ever after with the person she loved and building a family with him. Dara had never asked for more, it was just that.

It was two years ago that made Dara realise something important, something that was going to be a big decision in her life.

“Hey did you hear? Kim Jaejoong is dating Tiffany from our school” stated one of Dara’s friends

Dara didn’t want to believe it, she always thought that Jaejoong would never be able to settle down, he would never date.

With all the rumours of Jaejoong dating, Dara couldn’t help but get her heart broken, she should have known that one day this was how her love for Jaejoong was going end, she knew it wouldn’t work out yet she held on to it like her life was depending on it.

Dara was walking home from school one day when she spotted the back view of someone like Jaejoong’s so she carefully followed behind without him knowing. Jaejoong’s tracks led her to a park where she saw Jaejoong with another person, a girl to be exact.

 “Jaejoong oppa...where have you’ve been, I miss you” said Tiffany as she wrapped her hands around Jaejoong’s neck.

“Babe I miss you too, I was in school I wanted to skip but my parent’s bugging me about it” said Jaejoong as his hands was wrapped tightly around Tiffany’s waist.

You felt like your world had shattered, you knew you shouldn’t have loved him. Just like a Korean drama, when a girl is in her most depressed state, the rain would always fall on her. Heavy rain started to fall on Dara as she recklessly walks home.

“Why Jaejoong, why is it that when I thought I could gain some hope of you loving me that you had to turn your back and show me how cruel this world could be...why is it that when I thought you had changed that you had to proven me I was wrong. I loved you dearly, 8 years Jaejoong, it was 8 years could anyone’s love be compared to mine? Yet here you love someone who came after me. Was there nothing in me that could change your mind, or was I nothing to you? Jaejoong you may have not known this but seeing you smile and seeing you happy with the people around, breaks my heart. It breaks my heart...knowing that your happiness doesn’t includes me. I hate knowing that right now you’re probably happy while I’m here crying my heart out for you. Did you know that seeing your back view disappearing from my view is a sort of happiness for me? I know I’ll never be able to see your front view heading towards me, cause I know if that ever happened then I wouldn’t have to cry so much for you....Why are we so close yet so far away from each other?” Dara cried endlessly that night as the pain she was feeling was too much for her to bottle up and that she had to let it all out.

Jaejoong could have anyone he wished for; the pretty the caring, yet you had no one, no one to share your thoughts to and no one who’s willing to lend you a shoulder. At times you even wondered why you offered people a shoulder and ear even when you know you would not get anything in return.

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Australia

29/05/2011

7:12 PM