I love you from the first time we met.. is this what they called "love at first sight"??

*flashback*

My name is Lee Sungmin. I'm 28 years old and i work on sales at a financial company..

"min! come pick me here at ground floor because i don't have ID to get in inside the office, araseo?!" my manager Cho Ahra ordered through a phone call.

"ne.. i'm coming down to pick you now" i answered and hurried down to ground floor.

at the office

"sorry min i disturbed you. You know i lost my ID so i can't get inside the office until i get a new one.. oh by the way, this is my brother Cho Kyuhyun and

from now on he will be working here.."

"hi, i'm Lee Sungmin nice to meet you!"

"hi, i'm Cho Kyuhyun" and we hand shake after our greetings..

"oh kyu, your sister always talks about you in the office" i said..

"really?? what does she say about me?  is it good things or bad things?

"it's good things kyu don't worry" i answered while laughing at him.. "oops! i called you 'kyu', sorry-"

"no, it's fine with me" he cut me and continued to talk. "min, please help me since i'm a newbie here"

"hmm.. ofcourse, i'll help you. You can ask me anything, don't be shy" i smiled

     Even for just a week, we got closer quickly because we have the same interests.. I love football, i love hallyu wave too! So we talk about everthing.

     He told me about his story.. that he has a boyfriend but it's a long distance relationship though and he also told me about everyone who dated him

while still on a relationship. From there, i knew he's a PLAYBOY!

     Days, Weeks, Months passed-by i felt something different inside me whem i'm around him. I can feel my heart beating fast when he's beside me,

talking to me.. My skin shivers when he touches me. Then one day, he called me something that made me confused. He called me 'baby' .. He never told me

what he feels about me, he always teases me so i can't really tell if he is being serious or not or maybe i just misheard him.

     It's been a year since we knew each other. My friends tease us that we're like a couple and ofcourse we deny it. People around us call us couple

because we are always teasing, touching, holding, hugging and never separate. But i know the truth myself. It'll never gonna happen because we are just

'friends'. No matter how close we are, still-- "friend" in our relationship is very clear. Actually, i'm happy enough just to be around him but there are

times when i wanted to ask him what he really feels about me. Are we just really friends? or can be more than that?? Yet.. i never got the asnwer.

     For another two years, our 'friendship' remained the same.. So, i accepted the fact that we are just close friends. Nothing more. Nothing less.

     I felt boredom working in the office so i came up with a decision to resign from the company. Kyu and his sister Cho Ahra did not allow me to leave

but i told them that i really want to go.

"Kyu, i'm sorry i have to go. You know i'm doing this for myself. I need new environment, new situation, new job. We can still meet each other, meet you,

and my other friends here. So..." Kyu then hugged me and refused to let go.. He also whispered in my ear.. "Min baby, please don't go. You are my real

love.." My body stiffened when i heard it but i kept in mind that it's impossible. He might just be teasing me  for the last time so i will not go. I don't know

till now if he meant it from his heart or just making fun of me.

     Though i already had a new job after i left the company i still text him because i miss him so much. He said he misses me too when i asked him. It made

me happy knowing he missed me too..

*end of flashback*

     Now i found out after i left that he already had a new one. That new one is also my friend, his name is Lee Donghae. I don't know when and how they

end-up together. Kyu told me that Donghae is just a close friend and nothing more. But i know it's more than that. I felt jealous and angry but i have to

hide it and act cheerful and happy in front of him. I don't want him to see my weakness.

     I asked Kyu if Donghae knew that he already has a boyfriend.. about his long-distance relationship.. He said that Donghae knows and got no problem  

with it. My heart break into pieces when i heard it. I feel sorry for his boyfriend.. and for myself who has always been beside him but still stayed as a

friend. 

      After few months, i came back to my old company due to my boss' request..

     My first day of work felt different than before. It is somehow.. awkward.. but the worst is when Kyu came to my office. We played like we usually

do.. teases me.. holds me.. but when Donghae is around, everything has changed. He is always with Donghae, ignores me and always doing PDA in front of

me. My blood boils but there is nothing i can do about it. I think my friends already knew that I fell for him so they tease us. 

     We sit together with my friends. Kyu sat right beside my friend and Donghae sat in front of me. They're always on lovey-dovey mode in front of me. I

tried to ignore and held back my tears by diverting my attention into reading some fanfictions. But Kyu can sense that I felt awkward so he calls me say 'i

love you'.. Ugghh! He really knows how to stab a dagger into my chest! I know it's not true so i just give a sigh and back into reading. 

     I can't handle this pain anymore. I have to stop. This time now, I am certain with my decision to leave him and forget him for good. I won't comeback

anymore even he asked me to. It's enough for me.. I have loved him for three years and ended up hurting myself..

Now.. I have to start something new..

     . . . new life

     . . . new job

     . . . and, who knows... NEW LOVE!

Goodbye. My. Love. . . 

=End=

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Sometimes, we just have to move on and leave things or people who doesn't know how to value of what we call "feelings".. ^^

Always remember.. YOU are precious.. Don't let anyone to treat you like nothing! But first.. You need to learn to value your own self.. love yourself!

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