The Sweet Talking Aura

      "I never really thought she would be this charming... so elegant. Like a majestic soul awaiting the unwanted. I miss her. If that isn't already obvious enough. For the first time in my life, I feel in need for. I only can portray this feeling around her though. Well, it's all over now. Minus well let this slide."

      "Did you ever finish that one assignment?" I had just stepped out of science class with my odd but good-natured friend. He never was the sharpest knife in the drawer but he was the only person I was able to talk to freely. "What? Oh, that. I lost the instructions to it." I said in my normal weary voice. Eunjae seemed a bit worried. "Jin, are you alright? Ever since your brother left for the Navy, you have been acting real clumsy in school." I did miss my brother. He was a great role model. Top in his class, the most athletic, never got into fights; he had a well communication with anyone he met. Every time I had gotten into trouble with my parents, he'd help me get out of it and afterwards, not say a word. I broke out of my distracting daze. "Yeah, I'm fine. I just want him home." "I know Jin. He will visit soon. Just stay focused on your education." He handed me a copy of the assignment as I turned to my next class. I heard a distant yell from the halls. "Don't lose that one too." I did a half smile.

      I covered basic calculus drills in math. I unsteadly think to myself. "It isn't as easy as it looks. Maybe it is. Maybe I'm thinking too hard. I want to change classrooms. Everything is so casual. I'll be able to focus then. What am I saying? I just want to go home. I'm so lonely." My thoughts ran off into a world of insane. No wonder I'm so awkward. I am usually great at math; top in my class actually but all this thinking makes my head explode. I wasn't always this vulnerable when it comes to knowledge. Ever since Unhaken, my dad, passed, I never really got around to actually succeeding in school. He was just like an older version of my brother. Why couldn't I turn out that way? I haven't done anything wrong to not deserve this. This makes no sense!  I'm getting a little ahead of myself here.

      Afterschool, I walked home alone as always.