It didn't always used to be like this... My life was not always like this..

I remember when i used to eat lunch at the lunch tables with everyone else and then we would trade our foods with each other. I used to get invited to birthday parties like a normal girl would, and then i would sing cheery birthday songs with them in unison. I used to have friends that i could play with during break, friends that would tell me their secrets. I used to be able to run around the playground with everyone else with the happiest smile on my face.

But that was way back in elementary school.

Now that i think about it, I don't quite remember how to smile anymore. Even the word "Smile" sounds strange to me. Probably because i have found no reason to for as long as i can remember.

I don't remember exactly how it started, but it was when i was nearing my second year of middle school that I started recieving weird stares. People began giving me cold glares soon after that, and then everyone seemed to look down on me. I can still recall fragments of thier shouts: "-You stol-.....my- ........Slu-!", but the one phrase i remember the best was "I hate you!" Recalling this situation again, I think some of my best friends were also in that jeering crowd.

I don't even feel the stings of these insults anymore..only a faint numbness. But then again, my memory of all this is still quite hazy. Or maybe its because i just don't want to remember it and my brain just subconciously shut it all out. I don't know.

Anyways, tommorow I am transferring to a different school again. Its quite a relief to me at this time though, because i was getting roughed up by these so called "-kas" anyways who are so persistent in that i sometimes have to skip two periods at a time just to avoid them. So, the new school i am going to is called Deli Academy. My parents think that it stands for "Delicacy" or even "Delicious". ...But I am not so naive to think that...

I guess I am just a bit excited about starting over again though because my friend count is next to zero...or more like ACTUALLY a big fat 0. I hope to make what i like to call my first friend which is probably impossible...but mmhmm, I like to hope sometimes. It loosens my mind, same with imagining crazy happlily ever after scenarios.

Oh yeah, and i almost forgot to mention: Dear Beloved Diary, I will always love you the most!

...*sigh*..

Haha .. why am i like this? Considering a poor mess of a notebook as a diary and even as a most loved friend at that! I can't see what direction my life is headed in..

I'm getting a bit tired so im going to end this little entry. I should get enough sleep so i can wake up early to preprare for the transfer and everything tommorow.. zzzzZZZZ Good night.. *yawn*

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A/N: Annyeong! :D This is my very first try at a fanfic so I hope you will enjoy it! I'm sorry if there are any mistakes in it.. ;U; But I hope you will ike it anyways. The first chapters might not be as good, but it will get better! I promise! So please sit tight and follow along! >v<;