I never thought something like that might happen. Of course my friends and I always joked about how they going to pick us up at the airport. But being here now and seeing him right in front of me on my freaking first day in Korea. I wasn’t prepared for something like this.

The son of our host mom came to pick us up from the airport. He held one of this cute signs in his hands where our names were written on it. It just looked adorable. He was about 30 years old but didn’t look any older than 20. Just like we always thought, Korean people don’t look old until they are around 40 years. Of course we knew there were exceptions but this guy was totally stereotype. He talked insistently to us in his broken English and we were like what the is he talking about. But we didn’t really try to listen to him; way too impressive was everything we saw at Incheon airport. The son of our host mom, which name I sadly didn’t understand led us out of the airport. And there it happened. We stepped out of the door and almost bumped into a tall man, wearing all black. I glanced up into the face of the stranger. Although dark glasses hid his eyes I knew exactly who I was having in front of me. I gasped for air and grabbed my best friends arm. I squeezed it hard to get her attention. “What the hell is wrong with you”, she shot at me because I really hurt her. “There. There. Big Bang. There. Oh my god what shall I do?” Fortunately my best friend wasn’t such a hardcore Big Bang fan and could calm me down a bit. “Keep calm”, she whispered. “You don’t want them to think you’re weird.” “But I am”, I gasped. She gave me a smack on the head. “But do they need to know that from first sight.” I must have looked really dumb in that moment because she could do anything other than laugh at me. “Just smile and say hi to them.” I only nodded dumbly because in that second they were moving in my direction.

Tabi passed me without taking a look at me. Next was Daesung. I smiled and bowed to him and he did the same. Right in that moment I could have died because of happiness. But it came even better. Seungri left their car right behind Daesung almost climbing on Daesungs back. He seemed to be in his best mood. Smirking and waving at me and my friend. I heard her gasp behind me. When she had a thing for one of the Big Bang member it was definitely Seungri. I gave her a little bump with my elbow and she just giggled. “That much for not being weird.” After that Taeyang and Jiyong came my way. They were talking to each other giggling about something Jiyong said. My heart stopped the moment I saw Ji. Ji, the person I love the most, right in front of me. I could have touched him if I wanted to. I couldn’t move an inch. My hands were shaking like crazy and I could feel a hand on my shoulder squeezing it slightly to keep me calm. The second I shot a glance at Taeyang he raised his head. He stopped Ji and walked towards me. “Are you fans”, he asked with shining eyes. I knew Taeyang had a thing for foreigners but I never thought he would come talking to me. He asked us in Korean and my friend was just about to answer as I found my ability to speak again. “Yeah. We’re here to get to know Seoul and Korea way better. And we’re going to be on your concert as well.” I answered in broken Korean. In that moment I was so proud at me for being able to talk again, that I didn’t care whether my Korean was right or wrong. In exactly that moment I felt someone stare at me. I turned my head to see Jiyong staring at me like I was an alien. My heart started beating twice as fast and I couldn’t turn my head away from him. I just stared back at him. It felt like I needed to die when I would just blink. So I just heard Taeyang answer me. But I couldn’t turn my head to look at him, what I found really impolite. I wanted to hit myself for being so rude but I was just frozen in spot. “Woah you came from far away just for that?! That’s great! Have fun at our concert, we need to fly to Japan right now. Come with me, Ji.” I heard Taeyang say in Korean. In that moment I was asking, why he was talking Korean when he could see, that we were not Korean and he was known as the best in English in Big Bang. But I only thought about that for a second because in the next one Ji was talking. “Right, Japan.” He shook his head like he was torn out of trance. He looked at Taeyang and then back as me again. “Have fun of our concert. I’m going to look out for you.” With those words he smiled at me. He smiled his wonderful, stunning smile and I felt myself respond to that in less than a second. I smiled at him as well. Thanking him with a bow and then they were gone. In that second they there gone I just broke down. “Ohmygod.Ohmygod.Ohmygod.Ohmygod.” My friend sat down next to me. “Are you alright?” She smiled at me and patted my head. “I just saw them. I talked with Taeyang and Ji. Oh my god. I talked with Jiyong. Kwon Ji Yong. Hit me please.” She laughed at me. Oh she didn’t understand in what a pain I was right now. But suddenly she stopped laughing. She looked at me quite serious. “He looked like he wanted to eat you.” I looked at her questioningly. “What do you mean?” “He stared, you know? He stared at you the second he saw you. And the smile in the end. Breathtaking. When I wouldn’t know that Jiyong doesn’t date fans, I would say he totally fell for you.”

After that day I didn’t see him again. One month went on and I would probably die on depression when I would be in my hometown. But I’m in Seoul and here was way too much to see that I would waste any time with being depressed; besides I’m only in Korea for three months. My friend left to a fanmeeting with B.A.P in the morning. I wasn’t an official fan so I couldn’t attend this fanmeet. So I needed to spend this day on my own. I thought about going to YG Entertainment. But I didn’t need to go there that early in the morning. No one would be there by now. I went into the kitchen to look for something to eat. My host mom stood at the fridge as I walked in the room. I was allowed to call her ahjumma so I greeted her with a happy “Good morning Ahjumma, did you sleep well?” “Good morning, Darling”, she smiled to me with a warming smile. “I did indeed sleep really well. I hope you too. Do you want some breakfast?” I smiled at her; she knew how much I liked the Korean breakfast by now. In the beginning it was really strange to eat Kimchi and even rice in the morning but I liked it more and more. I don’t know what I was supposed to eat back in my hometown. “I did sleep pretty well and yeah, I’d love to eat some breakfast.” I replied happily.

After having a tasty breakfast I decided to just walk around Myeongdong a bit because I didn’t really had anything to do that day. I went a little shopping, died because of some posters and ended up buying much more then I wanted to. It was a warm day so I decided to by some icecream and visit a park. There was a little sea in the park. I went to the side of the sea and hung my feet in the cold water. I had some headphones over my ears and listened to my favorite music. I wanted to call some of my Korean friends but sadly they were all at school or at work in that moment. So I just sat there alone and enjoyed the good weather. The Big Bang concert is going to be the next day and I was really nervous to see my precious five men on stage finally. In that moment I thought about the way Jiyong smiled at me and what my friend said about that. And I couldn’t help but smile. I knew I shouldn’t think so much about that. Maybe he smiled at every girl like that. But I couldn’t help but think that I was special and it was driving me crazy.

Suddenly someone pulled one headphone out of my ear. “I know you.” I almost fall into the water of the see that much startled me the sudden voice of the stranger. But the guy caught me before I could fall. A heart a light chuckle and in that second I knew the guy who was holding me right now was not a complete stranger. My eyes widen in shock and I raised my head to the guy of my dreams. I instantly started sweating while my heartbeat increased and was suddenly that loud that I was sure every single person in the park could hear it. But fortunately it wasn’t like that. My head heated and I was sure I looked at him totally flustered right now. “Ya, are you crazy?” I got myself back together. “You startled me like crazy.” He giggled. “Sorry, it was just such a temptation.” I raised an eyebrow at him. “Are you going around in park and terrify the out of every fan or what?” Suddenly his expression changed. He looked serious in just a second. “No. I never did something like that.” He looked me in the eyes. And once again he had that stare. That stare that made me froze in spot which shut my brain down, which would me keep from talking and making me all love struck. “But what are you doing here”, he asked me suddenly looking away from me. I didn’t notice I hold in my breath till that second so I took a deep breath. “Stop that”, I whispered barely for him to hear. He looked at me questioningly but I just shrugged it off. “You’re asking me what I’m doing here? Shouldn’t I be the one to ask you that?” He just smiled at me. It really seemed like he wanted an answer. “Do you mean what am I doing here all alone?” I asked softly and he nodded. I thought I saw him blush slightly but I was almost sure it was only my imagination. “My friend is on the B.A.P fanmeeting and my Korean friends are either in school or working. So I decided to go a bit shopping and I just ate icecream to cool down a bit.” I smiled at him, still waiting that I’m going to wake up on the grass and Jiyong was just a dream. Instead I asked him what he was doing here. He sat down next to me his hood hiding his face. “I often go here before a concert to calm myself down before the show.” “Ah…” I nodded understanding. Jiyong looked to the other side of the sea and seemed to observe the people walking there. With that I got the perfect opportunity to look at him clearly. He was wearing some baggy jeans low on his hips and I was about to flip everything. He looks the most beautiful just wearing normal clothes and those jeans with the black hoody he was wearing was freaking normal. The hoody clung on his upper body perfectly and I could see that he had lost weight once again. I knew he had a lot of performances lately but he couldn’t stop eating because of that. And my mouth spoke before I could do anything against it. “You lost weight.” I blurted out. He looked at me with those large beautiful hazel eyes. “You noticed.” He didn’t let it sound like a question but like a statement. I rolled my eyes and opened my bag. I knew I had something to eat there in it. I pulled out a roll of Kimbap and some sweets. I freshly made the Kimbap the day before so it was already cut in fitting pieces. I took one piece out and turned to Jiyong. “Say ah…” He looked like I was crazy but surprising me with opening his mouth. I fed him with one piece of Kimbap and it felt so naturally, like I’ve never done something different before. I saw him chewing it and his eyes got this warm shimmer. “It’s really tasty, did you cook it?” “Yeah”, I murmured, flustered by the compliment. “Did you eat anything before that today?” He looked at me and this time I was sure he was blushing. “I ate Ramyeon yesterday evening.” I looked at him scowling. “You eat all of this”, I ordered. “I don’t want to eat all of your…” he started but I just stuffed another piece into his mouth. “I’ve got time to eat. You probably won’t have any time today or tomorrow. Take another one.” “Feed me.” He smirked at me and this time it was my turn to blush. And this is how it went on till all of the Kimbap and the sweets were gone. “Thank you”, he smiled at me with this stunning smile which almost turned me blind because of its beauty. “Ah you’re welcome”, I responded in Korean. He giggled. “See you tomorrow then. Have fun at the concert. I’m going to find you and wave at you.” With this words and a gentle wave he disappeared again as fast as he appeared.

I sat on my place. I was totally shaking. My heartbeat was running way too fast. Tears were still in my eyes and I was totally speechless. “That. Was. Incredible.” My bestfriend was able to talk again. I would need some more minutes. “I gonna love them forever”, I was able to say after a few minutes. “The best concert I’ve ever seen.” My friend assented to that nodding. “I never gonna get over them ever again.” I started some quiet crazy laughing. “You scare me”, my friend stated. “Sorry”, I murmured. “He didn’t find me.” I’ve told my friend everything that has happened in the park the day before so she knew what I was talking about. “Darling, here are a lot of people, how is he supposed to find you.” “You’re right”, I sighed. Suddenly a boy stopped in front of me whom I could clearly say was one of the YG Trainees but sadly I forgot his name. He stand in front of me and handled me a sheet of paper. “From whom is this”, I asked the beautiful kid. “Read it”, he chuckled. “Everything you need to know is written there.” He waved us goodbye and disappeared in the dark. “We need to go out here. We’re almost the last ones.” My friend knows how to ruin the mood. “I don’t want to leave”, I whined. “Come on.” She dragged me with her. “You can read the letter outside.” I groaned but let her take me with her. Outside the building we sat down in the grass on the side and opened the little letter.

I’m sorry; I couldn’t see you while I was on stage. But I could see you now off stage. And I wave to you through this letter. (^-^)//
I hope you enjoyed the concert and I hope you’re going to sit at the usual place tomorrow at the usual time as well. I’d really like to see you again.

Jiyong ~

While I was still reading I dropped the letter. I turned around and rolled over the ground while squeaking oh my god now and then. My friend looked at me like wanting to call the ambulance right now. But she picked up the short letter and read it herself. “Do I look weird, when I start rolling over the ground as well because I’m that happy for you?” I stopped rolling around in that second, looked at her and then throw myself into her arms. “I’m the luckiest person on the whole planet. No the whole universe”, I shot out. She giggled. “Oh look. There is the man of your desires.” And really in exactly that moment Big Bang left the building to get in their car. A few fans were still standing around the door and their cars. But Jiyong didn’t look at one of them. It was like his eyes were glued to my place. He had turned his head to look at me in the second he walked out that door. So he must have looked at me from the inside. This would mean he had seen me rolling around the ground. I growled and hit my head behind my friend’s shoulders. And I heard him laugh. Although he was around 10m away, I could hear him laugh. That means he totally saw my fangirl moment. Argh, why couldn’t I keep calm for once?

I stand up early in the morning to make something to eat. I put some rice into a box, Kimchi, carrots, eggs, and even more. I didn’t know if he wanted to eat something but I took something with me none the less. My friend had wished me good luck and shoved me out of the house because I totally annoyed the heck out of her. That’s why I was at the sea way to early. Once again I put my feet into the water and dangled with my legs to cool and even more to calm me down. Suddenly someone let himself fall down next to my side. “Hi, you’re early.” I looked at my watch and then into his eyes. “You too.” He smirked. “At least I don’t roll over the floor.” I knew that this was going to come up so I was prepared. “I don’t know what’s worse. Innocently rolling over the floor or stalking innocent people.” I raised one eyebrow and I seriously got him to shyly hide his face into his hands. My heart slipped into my legs and I just wanted to hug him so badly. But he got a grip on himself really fast. He looked at me with a wide smile. “You’re good. And you are not one of these girls who think they may not say anything against me just because I’m famous.” I shook my head. “You can wait a long time until I won’t say anything against you anymore. I think even because of this reason I need to say a lot against you. Because you’re an idol you need to be an inspiration for many people and it isn’t okay when you withdraw.” He smiled at me. “Somehow I thought you would say something like that.” I just smiled and looked at him. This time he was wearing a jeans once again but this time a red one and another black hoody. “Aren’t you sweating”, I felt the sudden urge to ask him that question and I wanted to hit my head against a near wall as soon as possible. He slightly chuckled. “A bit. But I can’t wear anything different when I don’t want people to recognize me.” “Ugh, okay, that ”, I burst out. I really needed to do something about my manners. It’s just because I feel way too comfortable with Jiyong around. “Yeah, you know. ed up life.” He started laughing really badly and I couldn’t do anything than laugh with him. “You’re hilarious”, he giggled after a few time. Suddenly he raised his hand and a strand of hair out of my face. I freeze in shock and hold in my breath. The part of my face Jiyong touched with his hand was prickling. A blush crept up my face and set down on my cheekbones. I tried to shake off the feeling as fast as possible, so I could talk again. “Did you eat already”, I asked Ji in a hurry. He shook his head and smirked at me. “I hoped you’ll bring something again.” I shook my head in disbelieve. “You’re lucky, my dear.” With these words I took the little meal out of my bag. He looked into the boxes and looked really happy about what he saw. “Feed me”, he ordered. I shook my head. “Not like that.” “Please”, he said with big pleading eyes. He looked so cute I thought I was about to faint. But I got a grip on myself and really fed him all the time. I totally forget to eat myself because he looked so cute while eating the dishes. But unfortunately he noticed that I didn’t eat by now. “You need to eat as well.” He grabbed his sticks and grabbed some Kimchi with rice and raised it towards my mouth. “Say ah”, he giggled and I did as he ordered. I chewed up the rice in my mouth. And all the time Jiyong left his hand on my cheek. I could look him right into his beautiful eyes. As I gulped down the last bite his head moved nearer to mine. A few millimeters before our lips met he closed his eyes and I did the same. Our lips locked. My tummy dropped to the floor and the elephants that seemed to run through my insides seem to dance a big party. His lips were the softest lips I ever kissed. It seemed like our lips just belong to each other. They fit against each other perfectly. After a way to short time he pulled back and looked at me with longing eyes. “What do you think”, he whispered. His forehead pressed onto mine. “Do you wanna date me? I fell for you on first sight.” I giggled slightly. “I fell for you at first sight as well, as I saw you the first time in your video.” He flipped his finger against my cheek. “Stupid.” “Yeah”, I whispered happily. “I’d love to date you!”