You can’t turn back time just to erase all the pains, troubles, and mistakes you did in your life because everything happens for a reason…But you can always start with a new to make everything better…

I still remember how we used to be…to other people…we look like more than friends. Our classmates even tease us. There was a rumor about us actually. It all started 7 years ago. I still remember how it all began…

It was the first day of school and I was totally nervous. I usually get this feeling whenever it’s the first day of school. I have this “first-day-of-school-phobia”.  I know there’s no such thing but hey, it’s not a crime to create new words. Am I right? So anyway, let’s get back to the story. My mom dropped me off in school, which she always do...

“See you later Mom!” I said and kissed her.

“See you later too Darling, now have a great day!” My mom said with a smile.

I just smiled at her in return and I got off the car and closed the car door. I walked slowly going to our school’s front gate as I sigh heavily.

“Please be a good school year…please be a good school year…” I continue to whisper to myself…

I wasn’t really concentrating to where I was going and I accidentally bumped someone.

“Ouch!” I said in pain.

“Hey, you ok?” the boy asked in concern.

“Yeah…Are you? I’m really sorry… I wasn’t looking in my direction.“ I said panicking. Oh my gosh! What trouble did I just do in my first day of school!

“Hey, no need to panic. It’s ok.” The boy just said calmly and smiled at me.

I sigh in relief and smiled back at him.

“By the way I’m Kim Soo Hyun and you are?” he asked me curiously.

“Suzy. Suzy Bae.” I said and smiled.

After that incident, we walked together going inside our school. Surprisingly, we are in the same classroom. Wow! Talk about destiny. LOL! Well it all started there. Everything was great and going smoothly. We are very close. Actually more like best friends already. We share our problems to one another, we help each other, and we get along very well.

But one day, a rumor was spread in our campus. And guess what? The rumor said that we both like each other. Psssh! Stupid huh? Psssh! Why you looking at me like that? You think I’m guilty? Well yeah I am. Mehn~ You are a smart reader! I admit…I do like him but he DOESN’T (that’s what I think). Clear? Sigh.

Because of that stupid rumor we’re not talking in school anymore and if we are, it’s all about school related stuff. I can feel our distance is getting farther and farther each day. But we still do keep in touch through text. I guess that’s better than not having any communications, right? Well I don’t want to be demanding or anything. As long as I can get to talk to him even if it’s in a simple way, then I’m all good.

To be honest I’ve liked him (or should I say loved him?) for 3 straight years. And yeah, nothing actually happened. For those 3 years… I was actually happy. We don’t talk in school but we talk like 24/7 in text and we hang out outside school and sometimes only the two of us. I’m really happy…We joke around, we tease each other, we talk about super random stuff, we care about each other, and a lot more. Like what best friends act. In those 3 years… I saved a lot of good memories.

But there’s this day that ruined everything…it’s like my world collapsed. There’s this day that we really get to open up to one another. I guess curiosity got in my way. He said he wanted to meet me to hang out, just the two of us. And of course I accepted his offer. Then we came into this topic…that I never actually thought he would bring up.

We’re walking in the park happily, talking about random stuff. Then suddenly we started talking about serious topics.

“So, how are you and Tristan? Are you together now?” He asked me and smiled teasingly.

I stopped walking and my smile faded away. Soo Hyun looked back at me, patiently waiting for my answer.

I just shook my head and said, “No…I only see him as a friend. “ And I smiled.

He seemed not convinced. “Well you two look together though. It’s going to be a waste if you don’t accept his proposal. He’s a good guy and very loyal.” He said seriously.

“Yeah I know.” I said calmly and looked at him as we continue to walk. “What about you? You haven’t actually told me about the girl you like. Actually I’ve heard some rumors about this girl…As far as I remember her name is Juniel.” I asked bravely. My heart is beating so fast. My mind keeps on shouting “Say it’s not true! Say you love me!”

He just smiled sweetly. “Hey! Don’t you dare not answer my question. If we are really friends…you should at least trust me!” I protested.

He sat down on a bench and I did the same. I felt the silence between us. Only the wind that is running through us can be heard as well as the birds singing and people chatting around. 

“It’s true.” He simply said.

I turn around in his direction shocked. I wasn’t able to say anything. I just let him say anything he wanted to say.

“Since you’re my friend and I trust you. Then I’ll confess to you. I do like Juniel. Only my close friends know about this so if you dare slipped about this matter, our friendship is over. Got it?” He said and smiled sweetly at me.

I just nodded and forced a smile on my face.

And that’s only the part 1 on why my world collapsed. Wanna know what’s part 2? Well I’ll just summarize it. You know the deal right? I can’t say to anyone about what we talked about (the Juniel issue being true)…well…I broke my promise. I got carried away after what he told me and after our hang out I went to my best friend’s (IU) house. I told her everything and she comforted me.

Then suddenly we heard a noise outside IU’s room. And there, I saw Juniel. I was so shocked…it’s like my whole body froze. I froze not because I don’t want to see her at that moment…but because I was worried she might have heard everything I said. I stood up from where I was seated.

“You…heard?” I asked Juniel stuttering.

“Heard what?” Juniel answered nervously and forced a smile.

I just shook my head and said, “Nothing.” And turned around back to where I was seated. Instead of feeling relieved, I’m still nervous. I can’t seem to believe her and I don’t know why.

“By the way IU, I have to go now. Thanks for your help.” Juniel said to IU and smiled at her. IU just nodded and both bid goodbyes to each other. She also bid goodbye to me and I answered back with a little smile.

“Why is she here? Why you didn’t tell me?” I asked.

“Your emotions are not even stable when you came here. How could I possible tell you? Besides she came here because she wanted to ask help from me regarding her project in Physics.”

“What if she heard everything I said? Oh… what have I done?” I said.

Oh how frustrated I am at that time.

“Look…just chill sister. Ok? She already confirmed that she didn’t hear a single thing. Besides, I don’t think she’s that type of person who’ll broadcast to everybody about someone liking her or something.” IU comforted me and I just nodded. I really hope what she said was really true.

But she was wrong…

The day has come…the event that I feared to happen in my life. In just one mistake…everything was gone, everything was broken, and everything faded away…

The glass I’ve been protecting all along was now broken into pieces… I thought I could protect the glass until the end…I thought I could make it better…and all of it remained as thoughts…

I kept on searching for the missing pieces that I’ve broke…trying to put back all the pieces…hoping it could return to its beautiful form… But it didn’t…

Until now, I still think of that incident…thinking of it just makes me hurt. Before, I keep on blaming myself for what happened.

But…

I learned something valuable in my life…

I can’t turn back time just to fix the troubles, pain, and all my mistakes in the past. Sometimes, we have to go all through this to be a better person. Everything happens for a reason…

Yes, I admit… our friendship was broken with just a blink of an eye.

But who knows? Maybe one day, I could replace the broken glass I’ve broke.

Sigh. So that’s actually the end of my story. Sad, huh? Well, that’s life! I just have to forget him. It’s been 7 years! Anyway, let’s go back to the present, I’m currently running on my way to where I will have my first ever job interview. I’m really nervous! And did I mention that I’m so late?

“Excuse me, uhmmm… where is the job interview?” I asked the informant, panting heavily

“Oh, you must be Suzy Chen?” The informant asked.

I just nodded.

“Just take the elevator and go to the 3^rd floor. Just go straight ahead and when you see Mr. Hwang’s room, just knock on the door. And by the way, your 30 min. late and he is waiting for you for a long time.” She said.

“Oh ok, thanks!” I said.

I started running really fast. I pressed the button and waited for the elevator to open. As the elevator opened, I quickly went inside and pressed button number 3. I waited patiently to get there. After I went out in the elevator, I searched for Mr. Hwang’s room.

“There it is!” I said to myself and quickly knocked on the door.

I tried to calm myself. My hands are shaking… what do I do?!

“Come in!” I heard him said.

I opened the door and gently closed it. As I was about to walk to proceed with my interview, I suddenly froze in my place.

I couldn’t believe what I was seeing…it’s…it’s…

“Suzy?”

“Soo Hyun?”

It’s Soo Hyun…

He walked slowly going to my direction. And suddenly he offered his hand to me and said, “Nice to see you again, Suzy.” He said with a smile.

I took his hand and we shook hands.

“Nice to see you again, Soo Hyun.” I said and smiled.

Now that’s a shock! I can’t believe this is happening…

I don’t know why but my heart seems to be jumping because of so much happiness!

I wasn’t really expecting our paths would cross once again. I can’t explain the feelings I have right now.

Maybe this is a sign?

Maybe another chance for us?

Maybe… a brand new start?

And maybe just maybe…

This time, I could start with a new...

And maybe…make everything better…

THE END.